I don't care if you have a PhD or you code for fun; I just want to have someone who can code with me or just hang out and talk to keep me focused because I get distracted constantly. I'm no master, but I'm working on my associate's and am pretty out of steam.

I don't care about gender, age, or race, just someone who is chill and respectful. I'm happy to code with you or just watch, and we can chat on Discord or something. I'm also willing to hang out and do something else if you're burnt out or stressed.

I'm 19m btw

[UPDATE] I'm aware that I phrased stuff very poorly and most people didn't understand what I was asking but fortunately my teacher reached out tonight and pushed it back because she said that after looking at it she realized she designed it wrong so the assignment was impossible with her requirements so she's going to fix it.

Also PS. A bunch of comments didn't understand what I was asking at all so unless you get what I'm asking just leave it be.

Basically, I'm a few weeks into my first C# class, although I have done Java, Python, and C++, so I know a fair bit about OOP. I'm learning Windows Forms, and I'm making an app to store notes using a listbox and a second window, and I've got everything working except one thing. My teacher said to only use concepts covered in the textbook so far (Starting Out With Visual C#, Sixth Edition by Tony Gaddis, Chapter 4), and I'm not sure how to store the information from the notes if not with arrays, files, etc. My teacher hasn't responded, and it's been 3 days, so I have to just figure it out before it's due on the 14th. I'd love any help I can get.

https://preview.redd.it/phdqut6lw7ph1.png?width=1920&format=png&auto=webp&s=05451ba3cad70eb28ab6e60a1289b9d7e3be3477

https://preview.redd.it/v2oekrsnw7ph1.png?width=1920&format=png&auto=webp&s=3b692c03c3f3cf8568c84957a26dbc3699c6862b

using System.Xml.Linq;

namespace M03A01_NotesManager
{
    public partial class Form1 : Form
    {
        public Form1()
        {
            InitializeComponent();
        }

        private void btnExit_Click(object sender, EventArgs e)
        {
            Close();
        }

        private void btnClear_Click(object sender, EventArgs e)
        {
            txtTitle.Clear();
            txtNote.Clear();

            rdoLow.Checked = false;
            rdoMedium.Checked = false;
            rdoHigh.Checked = false;
            chkImportant.Checked = false;
            chkFollowUp.Checked = false;

            lstCategory.SelectedItem = null;
        }

        private void lstCategory_SelectedIndexChanged(object sender, EventArgs e)
        {

        }

        private void btnAdd_Click(object sender, EventArgs e)
        {
            if (txtTitle.Text == "")
            {
                MessageBox.Show("Please give the note a name");
                return;
            }
            else if (!rdoLow.Checked && !rdoMedium.Checked && !rdoHigh.Checked)
            {
                MessageBox.Show("Please select a priority");
                return;
            }
            else if (lstCategory.SelectedIndex == -1)
            {
                MessageBox.Show("Please select a category");
                return;
            }
            else
            {
                lstNotes.Items.Add(txtTitle.Text);
            }
        }

        private void btnView_Click(object sender, EventArgs e)
        {
            Form2 summaryForm = new Form2(txtTitle.Text);
            summaryForm.ShowDialog();
        }
    }
}

using System;
using System.Collections.Generic;
using System.ComponentModel;
using System.Data;
using System.Drawing;
using System.Text;
using System.Windows.Forms;

namespace M03A01_NotesManager
{
    public partial class Form2 : Form
    {
        public Form2(String txtTitle)
        {
            InitializeComponent();

            lblNoteTitle.Text = txtTitle;
        }

        private void lblNoteTitle_Click(object sender, EventArgs e)
        {
            
        }
    }
}

I finally have some money but they're sold out and I can get one but what's it without the pair right? Anyway I know I was late to it and if someone only has one then I don't want it because it's special but if anyone has a spare or knows somewhere selling them second hand then I'd love to know

I want to cry. I need to cry. But I can't. My body physically won't let me and I don't know why. I've had multiple things build up over time and some nights it just boils over and I want to cry but can't or cry just a little. I feel it. Pain I feel so much pain that wants to come out but won't.

Funny enough what triggered all this tonight was the quintessential quintuplets movie. No I'm not joking and yes I know it's dumb but while watching it subtle moments just made things surface and I can feel my eyes get kinda wet but never true tears, just sadness on the edge of release.

There's a lot weighing on me but most recently I'd say it's my falling out with a friend and the fact that my mom stopped talking to me a few days ago because I disagreed with her.

This most recent falling out wasn't even the first one but I know this one never processed. I was sad for one night then shoved it all deep down so I could be happy and ok but now no matter how much I want to cry and mourn, I can't. My mind won't let me. I just want to get the pain over with instead of being tortured by it slowly.

Ps: I'm not suicidal and I have started seeing a therapist

TLDR, do you think your epilepsy or medication affect your sexuality or sex drive.

I'm 18m and I've been having seizures since I was 7 years old. Like a lot of people I immediately got thrown on Keppra which kinda worked but came with a load of side effects. I stayed on Keppra for just under 6 years and then was off medication for a little while. Eventually I got on Lamotrigine which helped for a while but started failing like Keppra did so my neurologist added Divalproex which seemed like it was working for a bit but is starting to fail as well.

My overall seizures and medications can be a different post I wanted to ask if anyone has felt like maybe epilepsy/medication could have affected your sexuality/mindset on sex?

Obviously I wasn't very old when I started having seizures so no sex drive makes sense but as I've gotten older nothing has changed much.

I mean I'm not ace or anything and I've had crushes before. I find women attractive and everything but idk I've just never really been all too concerned with sex or anything and more so just like people.

I've been called ace before and I'm pretty extroverted which I know isn't directly related but I'm just saying I'm a people person but I don't really find myself too attracted to anyone in day to day life. If I sit down and go out of my way to find lewd stuff then it's sexy I guess but still not what I'd think.

Also might be TMI but I don't really masturbate too often and have never "jerked off" or whatever you would call it.

I know this post may not be super fitting for this subreddit and it might be kinda weird but I'm just curious if anyone else feels like their sexuality/sex drive is related to their epilepsy/meds.

Hi everyone, I'm in college and working from home atm, so I don't get out much, but I've always gotten pretty obsessed with whatever I'm watching, and I recently started watching anime, so I'd love to watch with someone who has time. Specifically, I'm super into an anime called Link Click right now and would love to share it with people

My phone is charging and I'm pretty free so if anyone wants to join me while I rewatch a show I've become pretty obsessed with then feel free to join me. [EDIT] the name of the show is link click and it's an anime

PS: I wrote and posted this to r/lostafriend last night, so now everything is a little less fresh, but I still want to talk to someone.

I'm 18(M), and I know I'm still young enough to make friends, but this still hurts.

Earlier today, I got a message from a friend, let's just call her Debby, and the message broke me. I was in a call with a mutual friend, let's just call her Jenny. I met Jenny through Debby, and honestly, I've become closer to Jenny than Debby over the last 1+ years. Let's work back a bit, for context. Just over 15 months ago, I joined a server for a certain YouTuber who had some drama, and I wanted to talk to people about it. There were about 7 or 8 people who ended up spending 10+ hours per day in VC, and all kinda became "Friends", myself included in this group. After around a week of this, the mods decided we needed to leave because we were no longer talking about the YouTuber. Someone made an unofficial server, and we all moved there. I tried my best to be nice and chill with everyone, but drama started because, of course it did. People ended up making separate servers and spending more time separately. Debby decided that I and one other person, let's just call him Tanner, were the most "chill" and she invited us to a server that was just for us 3 to watch stuff and chat. We were all pretty close, and it was pretty chill, but then eventually Debby went through something that I won't say out of respect, and she invited a few friends to the server for support after asking Tanner and me. More and more people joined, but honestly, most were pretty chill, and one of these people was Jenny. Between work and school, most of us stopped being in VC 24/7, but still joined daily, except for Debby. She was going through emotional hoops and would barely join or respond to messages from most people except for Jenny. During this time, I got a lot closer to Jenny and a few others. Tanner is super laid back and never really caused issues, so I enjoyed having him there too. Eventually, Debby became social again and started joining back in, which was great, and we all became pretty close, but Debby would still have slumps where she just dropped everyone except a few people. It has always kind of been a joke that she's the main character because she has a tendency to talk a lot, mostly about herself. Not to say that she didn't care, and she still took time to see how we were all doing, but she just liked being the center of attention, which didn't really bother anyone because she was nice about it. Eventually, Debby's husband let's just call him Dan, who I kind of knew, was planning a trip to a big city near me, and I convinced Debby that she should come, even though she had just finished her school semester and wanted to just rest. I thought it would be wonderful to meet up after a year of building what I thought was one of the strongest friendships of my life. When their plane landed, she was pretty grouchy, but I figured she was tired from the plane sp I just hung out with Dan. The next day, she slept half the day, but eventually we all went out and had what I thought was a good time. The next day, Dan had family joining the visit, so I waited until they arrived to go to their hotel. I could tell Debby put a lot more effort into her outfit and such that day, but I still made my normal jokes. I called her old and short, which I've said 100 times, and she always sends it back at me. I never stay at places as fancy as Debby and Dan's hotel, so I just had casual clothes, and when they came with the cart thing for bags, I asked if I could put my takeout bag on there so I wouldn't have to carry it all day. Debby looked pretty upset, and Dan just said, "You can't do that" so I was like oh ok. I also want to mention that Dan's family (1 parent and 3 kids) was more underdressed than me. After that, I turned to Debby, and she said don't talk to me so I went to make a joke, and she said No. Don't talk to me. We went to lots of places that day, and I had a great time with Dan and his family, but Debby was cold and for 12 hours didn't say a word to me. Eventually, after we all ate dinner, Debby went with the kids to their hotel for a bit because there wasn't room for everyone in the car. I stayed at the restaurant with Dan's sister-in-law, and we had a great conversation. Eventually, Dan came back to grab her and me and help me find a hotel for the night. It took a bit to find a hotel, and his sister-in-law even offered her couch despite meeting me that day, but I didn't feel right just staying with her and her kids. We did find a place, and Dan dropped me off with my stuff and said it was nice meeting you. The next day, my dad gave me a ride back home since Debby and Dan had a return flight in a few hours, but despite that, she still never said goodbye. I got home today and rested for a bit, then started talking to Jenny in VC when suddenly I got a message from her that said she had thought about it, and she thinks I'm very rude and she doesn't want to be friends anymore. She kicked me from her server and unfriended me. Luckily, I'm in another server with Jenny, so we moved there, and it was kinda quiet while I processed. It was deafening, so I suggested we watch one of the shows Jenny and I have been streaming together. I put it on and muted so I could breathe. I didn't want to finish my dinner or even watch the show. She said we could switch to the show that we don't watch as much, but I love watching it with her, which I could tell was just to calm me. We started, and I was pretty quiet and honestly checked out. She asked if I was ok, and I said yeah. I muted again, and for the first time in a while, I started crying, but pulled myself together, so after 2 or 3 episodes, my voice was steady, and I started commenting on the show again. Because of time zones, she had to go, which was bittersweet because I didn't want her to leave, but I also didn't want to actually do anything but sit quietly. I keep getting paranoid and checking to make sure Jenny hasn't unfriended me, but she hasn't been weird about it and is still responding to my messages like normal. The whole situation reminds me of what happened a few years ago (which could be its own longer post). My best friend from like 4 years old sent a message saying that, based on what he heard from a mutual friend, he could no longer be friends with me. What he heard was true, but I honestly didn't think it was a 10+ year friendship ending opinion. I went on an alt and begged him for an explanation. We talked, and he explained, but still didn't want to make up, so with that, I was left with pretty much no one. I had two other friends, one I met online, and the other was a childhood friend. I'm still friends with both, but my other childhood friend is far away and busy, so we don't talk much. I threw myself onto pretty much my only other friend, and even though it was just online, we became super close and started sending packages. Outside of them, I just gamed and did school work. I met someone on a game, and they are a bit younger than me, but we hit it off. I became friends with pretty much their whole school, and no matter what opinions or stupid things I said, we always stuck together. However, when I turned 18, I had to stop talking with them for obvious reasons, not to mention I was starting college and couldn't game all day anymore. We agreed to reconnect in like 2 or 3 years, and I'm still on a great basis with them. I should also mention that about 2 years ago, I reconnected with one of my best friends, who I met on Xbox, and after meeting in person, he and his girlfriend moved states, and we moved in together so we could both work for my dad's company. He's still my closest friend ever, and I love him, but he's family now, not a friend. By the time that all happened, I was left with just Debby, Jenny, Tanner, etc., as friends, but that's ok because I still liked them, and they're all at least my age or older. At last, I finally felt like I could move on from the last breakup and just love my friends that I got, but this brought back everything, and now the only friend whom I can actually consistently talk to is Jenny, and I'm terrified. If she, for some reason, leaves me, then I have no one. She's never shown any signs that she hates me or wants to cut ties, but I'm still checking every 30 minutes to make sure she hasn't unfriended me. Honestly, if she cuts me off, then I might have an actual breakdown. I don't want to eat. I don't want to game. I don't want to watch YouTube or anime. I don't want to sleep. I don't want to finish the last of my school work for the semester. The only thing I've done is some work for my dad, but I needed to do but I really didn't want to. I convinced myself ice cream would help, so I forced myself to eat 2 bowls even though I didn't want it, but go figure it didn't help. I don't want to do anything. Not even sleep. All I want is to sit in a VC with Jenny quietly, just to make sure she doesn't disappear. I didn't know what else to do, so I decided to post on Reddit and see what people have to say. I just hurt so much, and I don't want to do anything. Only Jenny knows what happened, and I don't want to talk to anyone but her. I have to go see my mom for Mother's Day tomorrow, but I don't want to go. It's the middle of the night, and I know can't just hold Jenny hostage all day, so I don't know what to do. I hated typing this. I hated listening to videos while I typed. I hated talking to my dad to get details on work. I hated eating dinner. I'm normally so happy with most things and keep calm, but I just can't right now. It sounds creepy, but I just want Jenny right now. It's nothing romantic, but I don't know who else to talk to. Before anyone worries, I'm not suicidal. I'm just... I don't even know. I'm not empty. Empty would hurt less. I know this was a lot, but I just needed to say this even if it's not to anyone I know.

I'm 18(M), and I know I'm still young enough to make friends, but this still hurts.

Earlier today, I got a message from a friend, let's just call her Debby, and the message broke me. I was in a call with a mutual friend, let's just call her Jenny. I met Jenny through Debby, and honestly, I've become closer to Jenny than Debby over the last 1+ years. Let's work back a bit, for context. Just over 15 months ago, I joined a server for a certain YouTuber who had some drama, and I wanted to talk to people about it. There were about 7 or 8 people who ended up spending 10+ hours per day in VC, and all kinda became "Friends", myself included in this group. After around a week of this, the mods decided we needed to leave because we were no longer talking about the YouTuber. Someone made an unofficial server, and we all moved there. I tried my best to be nice and chill with everyone, but drama started because, of course it did. People ended up making separate servers and spending more time separately. Debby decided that I and one other person, let's just call him Tanner, were the most "chill" and she invited us to a server that was just for us 3 to watch stuff and chat. We were all pretty close, and it was pretty chill, but then eventually Debby went through something that I won't say out of respect, and she invited a few friends to the server for support after asking Tanner and me. More and more people joined, but honestly, most were pretty chill, and one of these people was Jenny. Between work and school, most of us stopped being in VC 24/7, but still joined daily, except for Debby. She was going through emotional hoops and would barely join or respond to messages from most people except for Jenny. During this time, I got a lot closer to Jenny and a few others. Tanner is super laid back and never really caused issues, so I enjoyed having him there too. Eventually, Debby became social again and started joining back in, which was great, and we all became pretty close, but Debby would still have slumps where she just dropped everyone except a few people. It has always kind of been a joke that she's the main character because she has a tendency to talk a lot, mostly about herself. Not to say that she didn't care, and she still took time to see how we were all doing, but she just liked being the center of attention, which didn't really bother anyone because she was nice about it. Eventually, Debby's husband let's just call him Dan, who I kind of knew, was planning a trip to a big city near me, and I convinced Debby that she should come, even though she had just finished her school semester and wanted to just rest. I thought it would be wonderful to meet up after a year of building what I thought was one of the strongest friendships of my life. When their plane landed, she was pretty grouchy, but I figured she was tired from the plane sp I just hung out with Dan. The next day, she slept half the day, but eventually we all went out and had what I thought was a good time. The next day, Dan had family joining the visit, so I waited until they arrived to go to their hotel. I could tell Debby put a lot more effort into her outfit and such that day, but I still made my normal jokes. I called her old and short, which I've said 100 times, and she always sends it back at me. I never stay at places as fancy as Debby and Dan's hotel, so I just had casual clothes, and when they came with the cart thing for bags, I asked if I could put my takeout bag on there so I wouldn't have to carry it all day. Debby looked pretty upset, and Dan just said, "You can't do that" so I was like oh ok. I also want to mention that Dan's family (1 parent and 3 kids) was more underdressed than me. After that, I turned to Debby, and she said don't talk to me so I went to make a joke, and she said No. Don't talk to me. We went to lots of places that day, and I had a great time with Dan and his family, but Debby was cold and for 12 hours didn't say a word to me. Eventually, after we all ate dinner, Debby went with the kids to their hotel for a bit because there wasn't room for everyone in the car. I stayed at the restaurant with Dan's sister-in-law, and we had a great conversation. Eventually, Dan came back to grab her and me and help me find a hotel for the night. It took a bit to find a hotel, and his sister-in-law even offered her couch despite meeting me that day, but I didn't feel right just staying with her and her kids. We did find a place, and Dan dropped me off with my stuff and said it was nice meeting you. The next day, my dad gave me a ride back home since Debby and Dan had a return flight in a few hours, but despite that, she still never said goodbye. I got home today and rested for a bit, then started talking to Jenny in VC when suddenly I got a message from her that said she had thought about it, and she thinks I'm very rude and she doesn't want to be friends anymore. She kicked me from her server and unfriended me. Luckily, I'm in another server with Jenny, so we moved there, and it was kinda quiet while I processed. It was deafening, so I suggested we watch one of the shows Jenny and I have been streaming together. I put it on and muted so I could breathe. I didn't want to finish my dinner or even watch the show. She said we could switch to the show that we don't watch as much, but I love watching it with her, which I could tell was just to calm me. We started, and I was pretty quiet and honestly checked out. She asked if I was ok, and I said yeah. I muted again, and for the first time in a while, I started crying, but pulled myself together, so after 2 or 3 episodes, my voice was steady, and I started commenting on the show again. Because of time zones, she had to go, which was bittersweet because I didn't want her to leave, but I also didn't want to actually do anything but sit quietly. I keep getting paranoid and checking to make sure Jenny hasn't unfriended me, but she hasn't been weird about it and is still responding to my messages like normal. The whole situation reminds me of what happened a few years ago (which could be its own longer post). My best friend from like 4 years old sent a message saying that, based on what he heard from a mutual friend, he could no longer be friends with me. What he heard was true, but I honestly didn't think it was a 10+ year friendship ending opinion. I went on an alt and begged him for an explanation. We talked, and he explained, but still didn't want to make up, so with that, I was left with pretty much no one. I had two other friends, one I met online, and the other was a childhood friend. I'm still friends with both, but my other childhood friend is far away and busy, so we don't talk much. I threw myself onto pretty much my only other friend, and even though it was just online, we became super close and started sending packages. Outside of them, I just gamed and did school work. I met someone on a game, and they are a bit younger than me, but we hit it off. I became friends with pretty much their whole school, and no matter what opinions or stupid things I said, we always stuck together. However, when I turned 18, I had to stop talking with them for obvious reasons, not to mention I was starting college and couldn't game all day anymore. We agreed to reconnect in like 2 or 3 years, and I'm still on a great basis with them. I should also mention that about 2 years ago, I reconnected with one of my best friends, who I met on Xbox, and after meeting in person, he and his girlfriend moved states, and we moved in together so we could both work for my dad's company. He's still my closest friend ever, and I love him, but he's family now, not a friend. By the time that all happened, I was left with just Debby, Jenny, Tanner, etc., as friends, but that's ok because I still liked them, and they're all at least my age or older. At last, I finally felt like I could move on from the last breakup and just love my friends that I got, but this brought back everything, and now the only friend whom I can actually consistently talk to is Jenny, and I'm terrified. If she, for some reason, leaves me, then I have no one. She's never shown any signs that she hates me or wants to cut ties, but I'm still checking every 30 minutes to make sure she hasn't unfriended me. Honestly, if she cuts me off, then I might have an actual breakdown. I don't want to eat. I don't want to game. I don't want to watch YouTube or anime. I don't want to sleep. I don't want to finish the last of my school work for the semester. The only thing I've done is some work for my dad, but I needed to do but I really didn't want to. I convinced myself ice cream would help, so I forced myself to eat 2 bowls even though I didn't want it, but go figure it didn't help. I don't want to do anything. Not even sleep. All I want is to sit in a VC with Jenny quietly, just to make sure she doesn't disappear. I didn't know what else to do, so I decided to post on Reddit and see what people have to say. I just hurt so much, and I don't want to do anything. Only Jenny knows what happened, and I don't want to talk to anyone but her. I have to go see my mom for Mother's Day tomorrow, but I don't want to go. It's the middle of the night, and I know can't just hold Jenny hostage all day, so I don't know what to do. I hated typing this. I hated listening to videos while I typed. I hated talking to my dad to get details on work. I hated eating dinner. I'm normally so happy with most things and keep calm, but I just can't right now. It sounds creepy, but I just want Jenny right now. It's nothing romantic, but I don't know who else to talk to. Before anyone worries, I'm not suicidal. I'm just... I don't even know. I'm not empty. Empty would hurt less. I know this was a lot, but I just needed to say this even if it's not to anyone I know.

Sorry if the grammar is bad. You can blame grammarly and the fact it's 4 am (or it was when I wrote this)

I'm 18, and I've been epileptic since I was 7 years old. My first seizure was an abcensy seizure, and it ended up putting me in a coma for 12 hours, but I wasn't diagnosed with epilepsy until I had another abcensy shortly after. I was put on Keppra, which I despised, but it seemed to work. My seizures started having a consistent schedule of about 9 to 12 months in between, but no dosage increase stopped them. I don't remember quite when, but a few years after I had my first seizure, I got RSV, and that triggered my first grand mal seizure. Suddenly, I started having grand mal seizures every 9 to 12 months and abcensy seizures in between. Around the age of 12, I moved from New York (upstate) to North Carolina, and I stayed there for about a year until COVID hit and my dad lost his job, so we went to stay on some property we owned in the Appalachian mountains. For a while, we didn't have insurance, so I wasn't on my medication, but strangely, I stopped having seizures altogether for about a year, and I thought maybe I'd grown out of it, but then suddenly I started having grand mals constantly. Every 2 weeks at most, and I ended up getting pretty bruised up, but I did notice a lack of abcensy seizures, which is something I might post about eventually. I ended up moving again, and when my dad got insurance, I got on a new medication, and the seizures went back to about every 3 months. It was a pain, but manageable until I got sick again with a nasty flu strain and ended up having multiple back to back. I started having them monthly, but they typically didn't last too long, and I just kind of blacked out and woke up in pain. My neurologist decided to add another medication on top of the first, and it seemed to be working. I was at around 5 months without one and hopeful that I could reach 6 and apply for my driver's permit, but one night at about 5 am (yes, I know I should have been asleep), I had seizure mid conversation and my friends got concerned because I went quiet. They called my dad, who called my roommate, but by the time they woke up and came into my room, it was over, and luckily, I was fine without my emergency medicine. This seizure was different, though, and not just cause I was alone. Ever since I first got RSV, my seizures have been changing more and more, and on my first new med, I started being conscious during the grand mals or seeing random stuff that I'd forget mostly, but overall I didn't lose air for long and was fine. During this most recent seizure, though, it was different. I was conscious and under my desk. I'd try to pull myself up against my computer so I could stand, but every time I tried, I lost oxygen again, and for the first time, I genuinely thought I was going to die. I don't know if it's normal for your brain to haze this stuff, but it's all a little fuzzy now. I remember when I woke up after everything, my dad was there and he helped me to bed. I talked to him about random stuff from the Discord call I was in, but didn't really react to anything that had just happened. I went to sleep for I think about 14 hours, and I woke up sore like after every seizure, and I managed to sit up and get some water. My roommate brought me food, and I ate and checked my phone, but after I was awake for a bit, everything set in, and I realized what had happened. I almost died. Multiple times, and I felt it all as my lungs emptied over and over. I felt fear obviously and talked to my mom about it a bit but after a day or two, I just became kind of apathetic to it. I know that sounds crazy, but I just kinda stopped thinking about it, and I feel like that's crazy to do so soon after. I'm a believer in God, and I try my best to have faith, but in that moment, I realized that I was afraid and didn't know what would happen if I died, and despite that, I dropped it after a few days. I feel like I should be changed and terrified, but idk I just. I don't know how to feel, and I wanted to see how others react to this feeling. My family and friends have told me for years how terrifying it is to watch me pass out and turn blue, but I always laughed it off. But now... Now I've been awake through it, and I've stared at death, and I never felt anything worse. This is all random, but if you have anything to say or share, then please do.

Sorry if the grammar is bad. You can blame grammarly and the fact it's 4 am

I'm 18, and I've been epileptic since I was 7 years old. My first seizure was an abcensy seizure, and it ended up putting me in a coma for 12 hours, but I wasn't diagnosed with epilepsy until I had another abcensy shortly after. I was put on Keppra, which I despised, but it seemed to work. My seizures started having a consistent schedule of about 9 to 12 months in between, but no dosage increase stopped them. I don't remember quite when, but a few years after I had my first seizure, I got RSV, and that triggered my first grand mal seizure. Suddenly, I started having grand mal seizures every 9 to 12 months and abcensy seizures in between. Around the age of 12, I moved from New York (upstate) to North Carolina, and I stayed there for about a year until COVID hit and my dad lost his job, so we went to stay on some property we owned in the Appalachian mountains. For a while, we didn't have insurance, so I wasn't on my medication, but strangely, I stopped having seizures altogether for about a year, and I thought maybe I'd grown out of it, but then suddenly I started having grand mals constantly. Every 2 weeks at most, and I ended up getting pretty bruised up, but I did notice a lack of abcensy seizures, which is something I might post about eventually. I ended up moving again, and when my dad got insurance, I got on a new medication, and the seizures went back to about every 3 months. It was a pain, but manageable until I got sick again with a nasty flu strain and ended up having multiple back to back. I started having them monthly, but they typically didn't last too long, and I just kind of blacked out and woke up in pain. My neurologist decided to add another medication on top of the first, and it seemed to be working. I was at around 5 months without one and hopeful that I could reach 6 and apply for my driver's permit, but one night at about 5 am (yes, I know I should have been asleep), I had seizure mid conversation and my friends got concerned because I went quiet. They called my dad, who called my roommate, but by the time they woke up and came into my room, it was over, and luckily, I was fine without my emergency medicine. This seizure was different, though, and not just cause I was alone. Ever since I first got RSV, my seizures have been changing more and more, and on my first new med, I started being conscious during the grand mals or seeing random stuff that I'd forget mostly, but overall I didn't lose air for long and was fine. During this most recent seizure, though, it was different. I was conscious and under my desk. I'd try to pull myself up against my computer so I could stand, but every time I tried, I lost oxygen again, and for the first time, I genuinely thought I was going to die. I don't know if it's normal for your brain to haze this stuff, but it's all a little fuzzy now. I remember when I woke up after everything, my dad was there and he helped me to bed. I talked to him about random stuff from the Discord call I was in, but didn't really react to anything that had just happened. I went to sleep for I think about 14 hours, and I woke up sore like after every seizure, and I managed to sit up and get some water. My roommate brought me food, and I ate and checked my phone, but after I was awake for a bit, everything set in, and I realized what had happened. I almost died. Multiple times, and I felt it all as my lungs emptied over and over. I felt fear obviously and talked to my mom about it a bit but after a day or two, I just became kind of apathetic to it. I know that sounds crazy, but I just kinda stopped thinking about it, and I feel like that's crazy to do so soon after. I'm a believer in God, and I try my best to have faith, but in that moment, I realized that I was afraid and didn't know what would happen if I died, and despite that, I dropped it after a few days. I feel like I should be changed and terrified, but idk I just. I don't know how to feel, and I wanted to see how others react to this feeling. My family and friends have told me for years how terrifying it is to watch me pass out and turn blue, but I always laughed it off. But now... Now I've been awake through it, and I've stared at death, and I never felt anything worse. This is all random, but if you have anything to say or share, then please do.

EDIT: Since I seemed to be confusing people, I removed the assignment and just left the assignment section headers to make it clear that what I want is help on the SQL process and not the assignment directly. If I wanted to cheat, I'd go to ChatGPT, but I just want a hand because this kind of thinking isn't as natural to me as some.

I'm in a database class at my local college, and I've kinda just been drudging through it, but I really don't understand it that well. I'm in my second-to-last week of the semester, and I have 3 days to finish this SQL project, which is also supposed to be used in the final next week. I read through the overview, but I don't honestly understand what I'm actually meant to do. I still have other classes to worry about on top of this, and I don't really know what else to do.

Final Project Overview

Sprint #4 Requirements

Procedure Input and Output and Testing Standards

✓ Student Schedule

✓ Transcript

✓ GPA Calculation and Transcript

✓ Instructor Roster

✓ Registration Workflow

✓ Trigger