I'm tired of being alone.
It's all said in the title. I need someone, I need someone to love me. I want love. I want to love. I want to be loved. I want to be held in someone's arms and be told "it'll be alright." I want to be someone's thing. I want to be someone who matters in somebody else's life. I've never held hands with a girl, let alone kissed one. I know it sounds weird coming from a boy but I want to be held and cuddled. I want to treat someone with respect because that's all I have for girls. I don't understand why they'd go out with such mean guys who treat them like garbage. I want someone who likes me for me. I wish they could accept my body with as chubby as I am. I hate hearing people say, "oh don't worry, your love is just around the corner!" No. No. No. No it fucking isn't. I have waited and waited and waited and i've never once seen someone interested in me. I've been so kind to people. Is it because i'm chubby? Because i'm quiet? Because of my resting face? What? What is it that makes me the bottom of the totem pole. I had a friend who was a girl and I had a crush on her, next thing I see is her dating my best friend. I cry in the middle of the night thinking about how i'll always be alone. I hug my pillows hoping they'll somehow turn into a girl that'll hold me and cuddle me. I don't want to be alone forever. I want love. Is that so much to ask for?