u/Sweet_Funny_7269

Pata hai aaj kya hua

Was awake whole night to study for the exam and I cried bcz syllabus wasn't complete, yet I motivated myself to face my fear , watched motivational vedios

Went to college as fast as I can to so i don't get late , when I got there ,

Pura sannaata tha😭 koi bhi nhi , checked the date for my exam and it was on 6 , I called my friend asked her that is it holiday for college and she said it's Sunday

And whole path I was thinking why are people looking at me like I have something on my face , thought maybe I was looking too Good 🙂 khair🥀

I'll get 9 backlogs just bcz I was too much of a coward to show up for exams ,

Now I am having hard time going to theory exams bcz I am not able to study , and I can't handle others students sitting around or even a teacher looking at me ,

With this much of backlog i'll get detained for a year ,

Even still I can't think of going back there again

I give up last minute of exams and won't go and ends up getting backlog just bcz if the results are failed it will be the proof of failure so I look for escape , when I open notes i automatically get into moments how I'll deal with teachers or students or what I'll do , then realise I was just staring at notes

I regret that I wasted a year , even if I take a drop for this year I'll always regret that I let opportunities slip from my hand , I did once complete the assignments and Attended practicals and lectures , I'll always think that once I had it all figured out but I let myself go into the temporary comfort zone and got it all destroyed .

I am scared that even in future I'll get in the same place today I am in and it scares me that I'll end up in same situation.

I got 2 backlogs in 3rd sem , i couldn't clear those backlogs in 4th sem either ,

And also I missed all the practical exams so those baclogs I'll get , and theory backlogs too bcz I am not doing well in exams I am quite sure I'll get baclogs in those too

5 practical backs and theory 1 and I'll get theory backlogs too of 4th sem

Will I be promoted to 3rd year?

Pata hai aaj kya hua

Coming from college i went to a sale , i bought a 10 rs rubber band and they gave me the bill for it

I kept it in my blazer , and stopped by a medical to get ors , although I kept 100rs in my pocket so that I won't face any awkwardness while searching for money in my bag

The shopkeeper boy gave me the ors and i removed the money and gave him and waited for him to give me the change ,

Till then I pretended to read the ingredients on the ors packet , but saw that he wasn't giving the change , I looked up and he said what is this ? He showed me the 10 rs receipt 😭

I took that receipt from him and handed him the money , at least he could have told me instead that guy kept reading the receipt too 😭

I've learned to run away from my problems, although the more I am running the more I am finding myself stuck in the mess , everything I worked for will be destroyed if I don't do anything but I have no courage enough to push myself more .

I am in my second year of college and i missed all the exams bcz of anxiety , but when I think of leaving my college I feel I've lost everything, I don't eat at all and lay in bed thinking and I am not able to relax , but when it comes to going I am just in freeze mode

Bcz of my things I am accumulating backlogs which i could have cleared pretty easily.

I don't know if I should keep going or just get lost in my world.

I know that in order to achieve something I'll have to get out of the corner of my room but it's so hard when I open my eyes everyday from sleep i want to relax with no tension of anything, it feels like I won't be able to take what will happen.

This is the hardest phase of my life , I never imagined I'll become such a loser in life .

I've learned to run away from my problems, although the more I am running the more I am finding myself stuck in the mess , everything I worked for will be destroyed if I don't do anything but I have no courage enough to push myself more .

I am in my second year of college and i missed all the exams bcz of anxiety , but when I think of leaving my college I feel I've lost everything, I don't eat at all and lay in bed thinking and I am not able to relax , but when it comes to going I am just in freeze mode

Bcz of my things I am accumulating backlogs which i could have cleared pretty easily.

I don't know if I should keep going or just get lost in my world.

I know that in order to achieve something I'll have to get out of the corner of my room but it's so hard when I open my eyes everyday from sleep i want to relax with no tension of anything, it feels like I won't be able to take what will happen

I've learned to run away from my problems, although the more I am running the more I am finding myself stuck in the mess , everything I worked for will be destroyed if I don't do anything but I have no courage enough to push myself more .

I am in my second year of college and i missed all the exams bcz of anxiety , but when I think of leaving my college I feel I've lost everything, I don't eat at all and lay in bed thinking and I am not able to relax , but when it comes to going I am just in freeze mode

Bcz of my things I am accumulating backlogs which i could have cleared pretty easily.

I don't know if I should keep going or just get lost in my world.

I know that in order to achieve something I'll have to get out of the corner of my room but it's so hard when I open my eyes everyday from sleep i want to relax with no tension of anything, it feels like I won't be able to take what will happen.