u/Synthiathebot

Hii, freshie here just paid enrollment through online I’ve already had my “admission clearance” to my course but just recently enrolled online its been a few days already and i havent gotten an enrollment email.

The enrollment fee balance already deducted from my mothers account so, im just a little worried if i actually gotten in to my course or not

I want to know how long does it usually take or if its a sure thing im actually “in” because if im not then itll be hard to find another college in my area later since clases start earlier here (june 29)

Maybe im just overthinking since i have nothing better to do but still im a little worried

Whenever i was at home there was always someone i could bother with my problems whenever my brain talks too much Or focuses on one problem that plagues my entire day.

Im having a hard time adjusting to developing a pause button on my own when im just not out of the house. Or finding happiness while on my own in general.

I know its supposed to be “peaceful” but its overwhelming to me. I miss home. I want to go back but i already moved for college.

How strict is the dresscode for dyed hair? Okay raba na naay bleach highlights? Freshie thinking of going to urios

My mom’s supportive of any career choice i take, but honestly pretty sure ai is going to take over small time animators, and im not the top 5 whos that talented and great at drawing as much as its my passion i dont see myself graduating in it, but i really do want to try

But im mainly wanting to take it because ive been seeing a lot of people who chose practicality and regretted it and ended up shifting in another year especially when college no one motivates you or pushes you anymore,

Im fine with retaking an extra year of college as long as its worth it, my mom said it was one of her biggest regrets not shifting because she didnt want to be left behind by her friends

But again, for more context too im moving colleges in second year since i have an opportunity to go to a better one so being in a new strand with freshmen’s again would help my social life

Anyways the goal of taking practicality first is so that i wouldn’t have to shift in my second year, if i have to do so regardless should i just pursue passion for atleast a year and see where it leads?

Im fully aware its the skills you develop in college and not the degree that gets you that job

So people who took practicality was it worth it or did you end up shifting in the second year?

Flight attendants are usually with new people every flight in places they dont have much connection to so unless you have atleast one friend across the globe is it scary to book hotels or travel alone?

Or do you guys befriend the other flight attendants during the shifts and just stick together?

I want to be an fa as a backup plan if marketing doesn’t work out but im scared of the loneliness and safety when flying to places i dont know of, do you guys think its a lonely profession or is it something that you can socialize easily

Although we may have small fights and i get irrated with her sometimes and i feel like shes not someone i can be close too easily but

I love my mom

sometimes i feel like she doesn’t like me or she wouldn’t miss me if i moved out,and sometimes i am unsure if i really believe its true or not for positive and negatives reasons

But when my life goes shit and things go wrong.

I know i can always rely on her

I know shes one of the people in the world that when my personality becomes bitter and temperamental she really is one of the people that can love me no matter what

I honestly dont deserve a mom like her.
Shes been in all aspects great and the greatest thing a child could have as a parent as she would stand by you no matter what and still love you even when you fight and she’s hardworking to make our lives comfortable without holding it over our heads too..

Shes a great mom, and out of all the routes my life couldve taken a turn for the worst, shes the luckiest things i have and shes the reason i can even experience the light side of family

Mentally im not ready, but i feel like i should. Should i push through? Or should i stick to comfort?

College is starting soon and i have an opportunity to move out or not. Honestly it just feels like if i donr grab this opportunity freshman year i wouldn’t be able to/ itd be harder for me in the second year of college.

But im not ready, moving out terrifies me. Ive always relied on my mom to be there when i get home or be my comfort after a bad day or week

Ive had a history of depression because of isolation and shes the one of the only reasons ive survived along with my family even after having no friends, also one of my fears of moving

Im just scared, but if i stick here i feel like i wont ever move out.

I just want to grow as a person, being here makes me stagnant. especially the past 2 years. And being at the same school for uni as well feels like a repeat of senior highschool…

But moving out feels overwhelming i dont know if its too much that will ruin me or a missed opportunity for growth

How do you deal with the feeling of loneliness