u/TennisInevitable4090

Sigh...such a short lived life we will miss him I can't believe he got abducted by aliens

Idk really know how to feel about it I'm not really sad but idk it kinda just it happened I wish I cared more but I don't I don't feel bad for myself I don't really feel much of anything I was feeling sad when it happened and before it happened but I don't know how I feel now I think I just wanted to feel brave I don't though i still feel cowardly even more so cuz I barely broke the skin it didn't do anything even though I don't feel sad anymore I don't think it's because it helped it just reminded me how pointless my problems are no one's gonna walk in on me crying or cutting or stealing weed and then pick me up in their arms and fix me cuz this is the real world no one's gonna save me idk if want to die in all my fantasies about suicide someone always stops me and then everyone loves me and I'm happy but that's not how the real world work I have to fix myself and I don't care enough to do that so I guess Ill just kms or get over it sorry for the bad typing and lack of periods and all that it's six in the morning and reading + writing gives me a headache so it's difficult to fix my typing mistakes I type like an 8 year old trying to write poetry for the first time lol