u/TootyMcCarthy

I hope this is appropriate for this sub. I am a young artist and I am going to start working on a comic soon featuring my original universe.

I was going to make a long post explaining everything in detail but I feel like it's not gonna be beneficial.

Basically what I am struggling with is envy of other people's creations. Games, animated series, novels, comics, movies - you name it. I sometimes even specifically avoid a certain media if I feel like I'm gonna like it, which basically means I'm gonna be jealous about it (for example manga Berserk). I am often envious of things that I physically wouldn't be able to make because they were created long before I was even born. I feel like success of these franchises is kinda a part of my failure, like I can't really come up with anything new, not innovative, but original enough to stand as it's own thing and not a rip off. I am sometimes observing my own designs and think "Someone will say it looks like *insert character name*" and I try to change it as much as I can but end up not liking it at all. I just feel like whatever I create is gonna be something really boring and recycled, like an amalgamation of things that I like, not a separate entity. I would love to know if any of you struggle with that too and if there's a way to fight it, because sometimes it really discourages me from drawing (I am gonna be drawing on the next day anyway though lol)
Thank you

Seeing porn? Jealous. Seeing videos mentioning sex? Jealous. Seeing couples - jealous, even seeing single attractive people - jealous. Just stumbled upon a yt short about sex and both video and comments killed my perfectly fine mood. Is there any way to fight it?

https://preview.redd.it/oj7z3pdggc6h1.png?width=639&format=png&auto=webp&s=eebb6284817046371fd3451ef3d973bfbcfd3e39

How do I make this creepy? I'm not sure I get the vibe I am going for

I stopped watching porn a couple weeks ago but there are still some pictures/videos that pop up when I scroll my gallery to find something. I feel so so bad when I see it and that's the reason I stopped watching it. I never had a boyfriend and I don't know if I will so it hits me every time like a hammer, makes me very insecure, jealous and almost suicidal, while I know other guys, who are single too, enjoy it. How do I fix this? thank you

Lately this gut wrenching feeling of loneliness began creeping up on me as never before. It's not only about romance, but about friends, who, after some self reflection, I don't really have, kind of. I am honestly not amused by my existence but I have to live at least up to 30 years (I have stuff to do + maybe something changes). How do you manage to go through this? The only thing helping me is the food. I overeat because I am lonely and I am lonely kinda because I overeat and I am fat. But nothing else really works? What are your coping strategies?

I literally feel like a drug addict. I sit here with a headache and a bunch of not really good thoughts because I am hungry. I still haven't ate today because the moment I eat something I lose control and start eating more and more. If I don't I sit there going insane thinking about the next time I'm gonna eat. I can only feel normal and joyfull if I eat. I can't do this on my own