Relapse and went on 20 day binge
Hey everyone,
I recently completed detox and rehab and have been three months clean overall. I have a past seizure during previous benzo withdrawal (after longer use) and another one tied to polydrug stuff.
Recently slipped into intermittent benzo use for about 20 days total (2-4 mg/day, skipped some days, heavier on others). I just threw the rest away and I'm now 12-24 hours clean from everything else too (no alcohol, stimulants, etc.).
Importantly, I have zero urges or cravings right now.
I'm dealing with a lot of anticipatory anxiety about possible withdrawal or another seizure, but no physical symptoms yet. I have prescribed Adderall that l'm continuing and Trazodone available.
Looking for experiences from people who've been through something similar:
• With short/intermittent use like this, how likely is bad withdrawal or seizure the second time around?
• When do symptoms usually start showing?
• Tips for handling the fear without using anything?
• Did a light re-use after a bad prior withdrawal turn out okay for you?
Thanks - just need some perspective while I stay clean.