u/TrainingCurrent1403

I’ve been on Reta for over a week. So far so good feeling the appetite suppression and feeling less bloated. But, I have lots of PTSD/trauma, stress & just overall shit to deal with. I don’t have anyone to talk to about my situation and my way of coping was through food but now that that’s out of the way I’m not sure what to do with myself. I find myself crying a lot more and overall feeling emotions that I usually avoided feeling. I have no interest to drink alcohol, although I was never a big drinker I could do if I was really stressed. it’s like it’s grouped all the bad habits and slapped a big Danger sign on it.

Reta is quite literally helping me with my Mental health, by making deal with my emotions instead of pushing them aside.

Kindle unlimited book recommendations. Please, little to no romance books (unless it’s really THAT good), don’t get me wrong I love them but I just ended things with my ex and kind of hating men right now. Plus, I’ve just read far to many books with the same damn plot

Just some good books that don’t involve some smart, pretty, skinny girl that falls in love with some rich CEO or some good, smart girl with a bright future & an hourglass figure that falls in love with a “bad boy”.

I’m tireddd I want a good read!!!

Thank you, kisses 💋💋💋

Like genuinely am tired of myself, everyday I’m fighting myself to stay here. I genuinely just don’t want to be in this world anymore. I wish I didn’t feel this way. I wish things were different. I don’t know how to explain to my sister that I’m not choosing this. I’ve tried therapy I’ve tried moving twice I don’t understand why I am the way I am. Lots of stuff happened in my dad’s house with him and my step mom and after I moved out at 16 I was never the same like i genuinely just can’t find joy in anything any more. I want to change so bad I do. I want to be normal I swear to God I do but i don’t know how. I’m so desperate I’m willing to try anything at this point.

This the message my sister sent me, the only person that I manage to speak to.

“Anyways (my name), I’ve spoken to you about this multiple times already. Whether it be with her or anyone else. I’m tired, I also feel hurt for everyone that youre doing this to that don’t deserve this. This will cause me to also distance myself with you because I don’t agree with how you treat everyone. Your mom, (younger sister), Papa, (her bsf). Everyone is always messaging to complain that they reach out to you and you don’t answer. If you want to live your life without these people let them know so they stop trying and leave you alone. It’s that simple instead of making them feel the way you do.”

I don’t know what to do anymore.

Im from Canada and we don't have lots of the restaurants from the states. I recently moved and decided to try some stuff I couldn't try before. I had wingstop and honestly Mid didn't care much for it, THEN I HAD CHIPOTLE! When I tell you my coochie purred after each bite. I've had it twice now and I want it again today help! If I go on like this my bank account will skinnyyyyt this summer but l wontttt!!! I should've stayed curious 😞😞😞😞