u/Turbulent-Surprise-6

I mean specifically how did you accept that you are trans? I just have so much doubt and many of my doubts and fears have turned into obsessions

What if I actually secretly like being my agab? What if it's a fetish? What if I don't have enough dysphoria? What if transitioning doesn't make me feel better? Why weren't there more signs? How was I able to repress for so long? Are my interests too masculine to be a girl? What if I tricked myself into believing this? What if hrt has side effects? What would everyone think of me?

Seriously how did you decide that this is the right thing for you?

Why was he ever allowed to be in control of MY body? When I was 14 he literally thought "if I was given the chance to transition I would" and then he literally immediately went to "it is the Woke feminist agenda tricking me" and "I'll regret it later on if I did" what a fucking retard

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Did he think that avoiding your reflection becuase his chin was too wide and brow ridge too deep is a normal thing for cis men to do? He was literally measuring his shoulders to make sure they haven't got any wider and measuring fingers to make sure they fit the typical female ratio and he didn't realise anything was up. He cried when he first got chest hairs but he just said it was """""body dysmorphia""""" he never even had sex becuase he didn't want to "use it"

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He got what he wanted I've repped for far too long and now im trapped as a man completely in every way I have no desires no dysphoria anymore just emptiness and dissociation

Idk what's going on. I'm a pre hrt pre everhthing trans girl (probably) i keep putting it off tho cos im too scared to confront it.

I normally hate my body but today I looked in the mirror and my male body felt "right" for me like it felt "correct" not good or bad but like it was the body I was supposed to have and normally that would make me feel bad and dysphoric but I just felt nothing like complete emptiness not happy or sad and I kinda of felt acceptance of being a male and the thought of me being a girl is not even a possibility and I don't even react to that wtf?

And then I could barely bring myself to talk idk I could but I just didn't want to and not in the usual way that dont like my voice

And then I looked the mirror again and I felt all light headed and my breathing got really heavy and it was like when you don't recognize yourself but I was looking at the reflection through the eyes of my body and not the eyes of me and its like I was my body and not me

And my body wants me to be a male and I'm OK with that but I don't want to be OK with that

Pls help has anyone dealt with this before also sorry if you read this and it's hard to read

I'm trans (pre hrt) but I have so much doubt and fear. How do I tell if this is a fetish or ocd?