u/TwoDesperate3779

I am transgirl (21). I want to tell you my story which has been nothing but a trash for few years.

So i was very good with my studies since childhood. I was always number one in my school from 5 to 12. I was topper so i was looking for jee iit. I started my study for jee in class 12th, yes not even in 11. And that was covid time so everyone was studying online and i also studies and passed mains with 31000 rank but failed in jee advance but anyway i took admission in nit and started preparing for iit and semester both. I was just 16 at the time.

The problem started when i went there in college. I was allotted men's hostel and the boys were in there 20s. I was too young to be there and now first time i was completely off with my family. I feel devasted and complete loneliness 😔. Noone was there for me and i was too young to understand my own feelings. I was not hanging out with boys and girls were only seeing a boy in me (which i was not). It was complete blank in my mind and my mind stopped working. I was crying alot in my room. I couldn't tell my parents about my situation as i was fearing of rejection and we are from middle class so they were investing like 2 lakha per annum in me.

I couldn't make a single friend with whom i can talk or do hangouts and i was becoming a side character in my college. It affected my study and i couldn't pass jee and semester results were also very poor. Gender dysphoria was also peaking at that time and i had no idea about any community who can help me. I was doom scrolling phone all day and night and in 3rd semester things worsten when i failed in 3 exams. This was something i had never faced in my life. I was very afraid to tell my parents about this so i took a decision to run away from here. I went home and told my parents. They were not supportive and tried to give me male harmones but doctor said no. They told me to live here only as a boy. I agreed that time cause i was feeling guilty for wasting money.

Now i am nothing but a trash in my house. I was a topper once but i haven't studied for 3 year now. Nothing feels interesting to me. My friends are now settling now and i am alone again.

I want to do transition. I know 21 feels a young to you but for me it's been ages. I feel to be very old and a failed person. I wish i didn't had my success that early. I wish i was 20 at my college. I wish i was mature enough to handle all this.

Hey all 👋

So I was talking with a boy since few months and we had a fight or miscommunication few days ago and he blocked me. No message no phone no talks at all.

Now after 10 days he comes back and started begging to talk again and saying sorrys.

But i am confused now what to do like should i forgive him and start again ??

One mind is saying what if we have a fight in future and he leaves me. Fight should have been solved by talking naa but he blocked me and never talked these days. If i give these years to him and one miscommunication and he will be gone like that. I don't know how to handle this.

1. Bahubali 2 : A pre planned sequel, came in 2017 and ruled indian cinema despite being a non bollywood film. It opened the gate of pan india movies and audiance gets different variety of movies after all. Movie delivers even better what it promises in first part.

2. Dhurandhar : Dhurandhar is one of the best movies of indian cinema. It has everything to be a blockbuster. Movie is 3.5 hours long but it doesn't feel that long. Movie earned over 1300 cr despite not earning 100 cr on first weekend and that's a huge achievement. This movie had everything bgm, songs, action, drama, emotion, performance and director's vision. Peak detailing by aditya dhar!!!

3. Dhurandhar 2 : Like Dhurandhar 1, Dhurandhar 2 is also a very good movie. It has everything like dhurandhar 1 because it's the second part of dhurandhar 1 and quality doesn't drops at all. I am keeping it below dhurandhar coz of some political agenda in movie aside that everything is perfect.

4. RRR : Another rajamoulli hit. He is some finest director of india and he proves with this movie why he is one of best. A fictional patriotic movie was beautifully made. Heavy entry scenes with big action and showing friendship and love for your country was a peak cinema.

5. Kgf 2 : kgf 2 is a mass entertainer which heavily relies on big dialogs and massy scenes. I might not relate to everyone but a big section of fandom definitely loved this movie.

6. Dangal : Dangal was a sports drama of two village girls going into wrestling. It shows the true power of girls and a mirror to society who thinks girls are only for household chores.

7 Kalki 2898 AD : I will give full marks to director to imagine this movie. It was first time an indian movie showing some post apocalypse situation. The vision was really great. Content is king here.

8 Bajarangi Bhaijaan : Bajarangi bhaijaan was one of my favorites in childhood. Movies emotional core always hits harder. You feel for every character in movie. This is best from sallu bhai.

9 Kantara chapter 1 : Kantara is a brilliantly written mythological classic. We haven't made much mythological movies except rama and krishna. So i want this genre to be explored more and this has alot of potential.

10. Stree 2 : You won't believe but a horror comedy movie with b grade actors have pulled out an amazing achievement here. Humor was so good in movie and there's story telling and connecting it to their other movies is just treat to watch. Hopefully they make this universe successful and add more horror in movies.

11. Jawan : Jawan was literally made for mass audiance and story was very engaging and emotional. It shows the truth of our society. Where poor only suffers. Bgm and action was so cool to watch.

12. Animal : Animal is the film which widely opened the gate of R or A rated movies in india. It was an action and drama movie. It shows the bond between father and son duo.

( I have only complain about vanga movies is misgony. You can show masculinity but not by degrading feminity )

13 & 14. Pushpa 2 and pathan : Both movies are like fan service. They put logic in bag and just do whatever they want. Action or story everything was below par. Nothing feels engaging about the movie.

15. Secret superstar: Secret superstar shows the struggle of a muslim girl who wants to be a singer. It shows that how hard to be a girl is with a toxic father and going against society.

I am transgirl (pre hrt). I love to grow my hairs since childhood but couldn't do but now i have freedom to grow this and i want to grow this till my waist. My hairs are currently 6 inches long and I am facing some problems like maintenance and all. And i also don't know which type of hairstyle should i do at this stage and my family and friends also forcing me cut my hairs but i don't want to do.

I know some of you might say that many boys keep their hairs long but i am not that type of macho person 🫠. I don't keep my moustaches and beard its flat out there. Okay can you all suggest me some hairstyles and maintenance strategies about my hairs.and when should i trim my hairs from back coz it's not looking good at my back. Thanks for your kind attention 🙂