u/UnderCoverDixie

How long are your typical psychotic episodes? I mean the kind were you’re very cognitively aware.

I hate being left alone
With my own thoughts and emotions
I cannot hold onto them
Could you hold them for me?
They will make you quake
They will make you question
They will make you hate.
I hate when I am not free
I hate being myself

theo’s rant on rogan’s podcast was so fucking based and how everyone is feeling about issie and USA power issues. The fact that Rogan is saying Theo is possibly suicidal is fucking insane. He knows issie is watching Theo and he’s planting shit for people to point to as an explanation.

This is insane- insane- how does no one realize. I am not suicidal, I have no intention of taking my own life.

I was on 2, 3, 4 milligrams but I actually feel better at 0.5 milligrams, I’m thinking of going to 1mg and staying there…

Higher doses gave me a flat affect… but the lowest dose isn’t handling all my aggression as well. So should I go up even though I’m not currently having delusions or hallucinations or anything bad really?

I just- I witnessed my neighborhood dogs body… he was my friend, his name was Rocky.. when we found him he was stiff, and had flies on his eyes and balls… he was strangled to death by his own lead, and had jumped off of a trampoline, hanging himself. It wasn’t pretty, it looked like he struggled a lot. I watched animal control bag him up. I’ve been very sad ever since. It’s been a few weeks maybe two- but I’m just not been right since…

Please tell me your opinion on my title. I do believe there is a special small group of people out there who have Schizoaffective disorder and autism spectrum disorder, I believe it creates a very unique brain profile.

If have these disorders and you’ve prevented a death directly- you’ve got something there…

Hello is it okay to take my mouse out in a toilet paper tube and handle him if we aren’t fully bonded yet? Will this scare him more?? Or draw us together? I really want to hold him.

Does anyone else have episodes where they get very upset and argumentative- can’t be calmed down, and have to take an anti convulsant medication to fix it?

I’m wondering if this is part of my autism or my Schizoaffective disorder… I suspect my Schizoaffective disorder because why else would an anti convulsive medication fix it? I feel like it’s an uncontrollable blow up- I always feel very bad about it after and properly take accountability and apologize- but sometimes I get triggered and fly off the handle for seemingly no reason.

I can be pulled out of the agitation by trigger phrases, usually ones that point out my behavior in a way that makes me feel sympathy for the other person. For example if I’m yelling and arguing to snap me out of it you say “Claire, you’re really upset, the things you’re saying are really hurting my feelings. Could you please take some medicine and sit down for a bit?” Usually I comply when it’s framed like that- but anything else will make me worse.

It took YEARS of therapy for me to even have trigger phrases for me to “calm it down” even then the feeling doesn’t go away- I just in that moment realize that I’m hurting someone with my actions- which I don’t like to do.

On a regular basis I’m a very sweet 24 year old girl who is traditionally attractive and has natural colored long hair and is a normal weight to thin. I dress appropriately and I often come off as “normal” although I have 2 separate legally defined disabilities.

People misunderstand- there is a huge difference between a verbally abusive person- and a person who has episodes where they do and say things out of character due to brain malfunction- and on top of that they apologize and take accountability.

I personally always feel bad for my episodes. I hurt people I love during them. I never mean to do it- and I never claim to currently believe what I said in an episode afterwards.