u/Unfair-Chain-7954

Today is my birthday (yay) and yet I had a sinking feeling that I was going to be disappointed. For some context, I am someone who ADORES space. I love astrophotography, star gazing, anything space related. I could talk people’s ears off for hours, I photograph lots of deep space objects, the planets, moon, sun everything. I have several books I love to read, I watch guides, even lectures from famous astrophysicists like Brian Cox.

I have been dropping hints about getting me gadgets for my hobby. Space in general, and more. From tees to books and more.

Despite this… I woke up this morning to two gifts from my family. One was a smelly item (I have sensory issues and too strong a smell, I can’t deal with), and a bag. The bag I can somewhat use but… I dunno I felt like something broke. I thought to myself that my family knew me well, and knew how passionate I am with this. They said I would “love surprises” but honestly, no, I don’t. I hate surprises and I especially despise vouchers.

I did say that they should ask me if they’re struggling as I’ve dropped hints but was told surprises are better. I felt absolutely awful for feeling so selfish as many people don’t celebrate their own birthdays. My friends say I have a right to feel this way, but others said I should be grateful.

Sorry, I needed to rant. I feel awful for how I feel about today. Last time this happened it was a birthday completely ruined by two other family members. I just don’t get how you can know someone for decades and make mistakes like this on the only day they are allowed to be selfish.

Again… I’m sorry for ranting.