I see that the gym is the norm, but to me, pumping iron, repetitive movements, that make No Sense other than to build muscle, just strokes me backwards.
I love running, swimming, hiking, ice skating. I’ve tried to start up gym/home gym a couple of times because i like the idea of it. Is it me? am i just not fitted for it? It’s in my personality?
we need the same care as an adolescent, same time as an adolescent to get into the world.
I hate how ”the youth needs to be supported” no, everyone who didn’t make it up in one piece needs to be supported.
This time i was conscious in the dream and wanted to try to make eyecontact with this person, and he evaded me until after a while he suddenly locked eyes with me. i was like in his lap too, face to face. it was terrifying and super intense. he had brown eyes but like was way too lucid and ill-meaning and had a smirk too.
It’s almost turned into chatGPT, gasp
anyone??
why did you Love one girl and just ”enjoy spending time” with the other?
I don’t know why, but i never really could. After a few pages i just feel like im getting polluted psychologically by someone else’s worldview. This is the biggest “problem”. There are also others, like finding what to read.
I like fall from innocence by Stephen King. Nothing to really bother me, and it is gripping.
I just read the first chapter of twilight, and Bella’s dissociated worldview left me depressed and kinda panicked for the rest of the evening.
This is what happens with me with books. Just thinking if it’s something others also feel.
Crying is a release of stress hormones. is it like ”don’t show you’re stressed”? because stressed would mean you don’t have strong enough abilities? is it to hide ”weakness”?
Besides the obvious ”reach out”, which will just be forced and unsuccessful if its premature. While we’re healing we do have less social contact, how do you deal with it, like in the moment? Also knowing it will be a while before your social life gets bigger/ more satisfying.
I was (irl) at a party yesterday, i don’t drink or smoke. i went home around 11 pm and went to bed.
in my dream i was still going home from the party in the sense of ”nice night, nowbi wanna go home and sleep well and have this hangout imbedded in me”, but i kept going home and i wasn’t able to get there. it kept being around the corner, just three more blocks, and the distance in my memory of where home was kept being soon there to oh my it’s soo far.
I was in the city and it was a lot of streets and dead ends and i eventually fell into a hole of water, that i thought was just a puddle, but i fell in to my neck. and i made it up again and saw other people coming by, many spit in the puddle, some went in half way.
I realized i was outside the entrance of a church, and a crowd of people were normal pace going in there like the mass is starting and i understood, this is what i should be doing.
so i went into the church, sat down at the edge, it was beutiful and peaceful and quite some people there. it got were crowded where i was, so i switched places to the middle.
the middle started rocking, like an installation in the church to make it seem like your in a boat. that’s why people were sparser there. i was about to fall off when it started, but grabbed onto the person next to me and in front of me, and then corrected to only holding onto my seat.
and either the priest said it, or it was just an understanding that i Will or talking about the past that I Have lost TWO THINGS. meaning God either Will or is talking about how he Have in the past made it so that two things will have been uprooted from harmony for me, for a purpose. like life circumstances.
i felt it as he did it to set me straight, no game. not punishment, but authenticity, that i wouldn’t have reached the way things were.
i wanna know what do you get from this?
I was (irl) at a party yesterday, i don’t drink or smoke. i went home around 11 pm and went to bed.
in my dream i was still going home from the party in the sense of ”nice night, nowbi wanna go home and sleep well and have this hangout imbedded in me”, but i kept going home and i wasn’t able to get there. it kept being around the corner, just three more blocks, and the distance in my memory of where home was kept being soon there to oh my it’s soo far.
I was in the city and it was a lot of streets and dead ends and i eventually fell into a hole of water, that i thought was just a puddle, but i fell in to my neck. and i made it up again and saw other people coming by, many spit in the puddle, some went in half way.
I realized i was outside the entrance of a church, and a crowd of people were normal pace going in there like the mass is starting and i understood, this is what i should be doing.
so i went into the church, sat down at the edge, it was beutiful and peaceful and quite some people there. it got were crowded where i was, so i switched places to the middle.
the middle started rocking, like an installation in the church to make it seem like your in a boat. that’s why people were sparser there. i was about to fall off when it started, but grabbed onto the person next to me and in front of me, and then corrected to only holding onto my seat.
and either the priest said it, or it was just an understanding that i Will or talking about the past that I Have lost TWO THINGS. meaning God either Will or is talking about how he Have in the past made it so that two things will have been uprooted from harmony for me, for a purpose. like life circumstances.
i felt it as he did it to set me straight, no game. not punishment, but authenticity, that i wouldn’t have reached the way things were.
i wanna know what do you get from this?
Even i KNOW how important it is, like with any other hobby, i last a few days and the “force” for doing it is waning.
I don’t need ChatGPT anymore, Gemini, albeit sometimes clumsy have really gems in every reply nowadays✌️i’m so satisfied
Hey, i found a way for chat gpt to be less of a dick. i start now every new chat with ”don’t be negative, and don’t state the negative opposite”
seems to be working
don’t you just Hate that every method has the ”i tried everything and nothing worked and now this, this works!”
saw something slightly like this on askreddit, thought it would be fun to bring it here?
naming things is important, also important to know that this Is a season, and it will change would you want it to.