u/Unlucky-Moment-2931

TW: abuse, suicide

I've been physically and emotionally abused by my mother for 28 years. Its like torture kind of abuse. Now I'm suffering with the flashbacks,trauma, depression,and anxeity that I can't stop. I believed in God that's why I'm still alive and enduring the symptoms . But today I just realized I'm not sure anymore if God exist so now I don't have reason to keep suffering. I don't know what to think anymore. My mind is just blank.

This is one of the most difficult problem with my brain that it thinks a lot and I can't control it. Like tonight I was trying to count my breath and just meditate because I can't sleep but many thoughts are coming I ant stop them. My teeth grinding and I feel tension in my head that it hurts because of too much thinking. Anyone here experience the same?

Many times when I try to meditate like counting breath before sleeping I notice my mind wanders a lot, many random thoughts pop up and I get carried away, I feel my teeth are grinding and my head aches because of thinking a lot ... this also happens when I meditate on daytime .. my mind wanders a lot and I get carried away.. Even when I'm not meditating when I'm trying to relax like when commuting to work my mind wanders a lot to the point my head aches for thinking so much .. idk why I can't focus and relax I'm always distracted... Is it normal to have many thoughts coming when trying to meditate or relax to the point my headaches?

I thought influencers are expected to be good role models pero ngayon kung ano ano na lang pinagagawa magkaron lang ng engagement. Yung iba pinapublic personal na away nila, pinapublic mga health conditions ng ibang tao, pinopromote yung kalaswaan, bullying,early pregnancy,pedos, immaturity, rage bait etc. I think it's time for me to categorize influencers if good influencers or bad influencers lol kasi kung ano ano na lang ginagawa kumita lang ng pera tapos ginagaya ng ibang viewers kc idol nila lalo na ng mga bata🥲

My therapist said I have symptoms of GAD, depression at PTSD and advised me to take meds. My prescription is Amiabel at Sertraline but they r so expensive for me plus the consultation expenses. Public mental health hospitals r also too far from me so I'm thinking I'm hopeless because I'm too poor to avail meds.

I always feel sad.. In my 29 years of life I can't remember a time I'm truly happy. There r times like to day I cry and break down because I feel so sad I wanna harm or end myself but Idk why. Yes I have big problems but aside from that I just feel so sad inside. Anyone here feels the same? Is this still a symptom of PTSD or Is this already another kind of mental condition? I feel like I need to start taking medicine just to feel happy.

Yung mga characters parang di nagiisip like yung alam nilang pwedeng tumakas sila nanay bebe pero pinapakawalan nila kc niihi dw or gutom tapos yung mga kontrabida binubuking yung sarili nila na sia nagpainom ng lason etc tapos sinasabi nila lahat ng plano nila. Tapos si Angel matalino pero ang daling mauto tapos ang predictable ng story para akong nanunuod ng classroom presentation. Pinapanuod ko lang to dahil sa casts pero ung story 1/10 😭 sana next time mas maayos na series naman😭

Hey! Anyone here 29 yrs old above like me and play these games? You can comment ur usernames and I'll add u so we can join each other when we both online😊. I usually play :

Dandy's world

99 nights

animal hospital

Horror games

3008

Deadrails

oh I just realized all of them horror/survival games😆

I have PTSD and before ayoko magtake ng meds kc I'm not sure if I can maintain it financially but my therapist is encouraging me to consult psychiatrist and take meds because its affecting my daily life and work already. He said I show signs of PTSD,depression and generalized anxiety disorder. I'm in the point in life na I just always feel extreme sadness whatever I do that I want to rest already. I wish once I start taking meds I'll be able to feel happy again.

1 day before or mismong due date na spam calls na sila.. Nakakatrigger ng panic attacks . The problem is never ako late magbayad pero bakit ganyan mag spam call buong Araw. Kung alam ko lang Hindi ko na sana sunubukan nagstay na lang sana ako sa Shopee .. Never again sa TikTok paylater

Ang daming magagaling na teachers Yung mga globally competitive talaga. May mga coteachers ako professors na magagaling talaga at gustong gusto ng mga estudyante kc natututo sila pero nasa ibang bansa na sila ngayon. Kahit favourite professor ko nandun na din. Actually gusto ko na din the only thing stopping me is wala ako enough money to apply abroad since ang baba ng sahod plus I'm a bread winner.. I feel like sa inooffer ko sa work I am not paid right. I hope I can work in a place with good system and paid well at reasonable sa effort at benefits na naooffer ko sa work..

Can someone advise me what to do in this case as someone with PTSD?

A lot of violence has been happening recently in the Philippines, like the stabbing and shooting incidents in schools. I'm also a teacher. Even today, there was that incident in a jeepney where a man who was allegedly a drug addict suddenly became violent and beat up an elderly man.

I have PTSD, and when I'm scared, my fear seems much worse than other people's. To the point that I'll do anything to protect myself, and I start seeing my abuser in the suspects. I always imagine grabbing any weapon near me and hurting the suspects violently.

Just today, a beggar near my house called me and was rude. I stared at him, waiting for him to do something bad, and I felt like I would definitely hurt him if he did. I just feel so scared that my thoughts become extreme, but I can't stop them.

I'm even thinking of bringing my heavy-duty tumbler or a knife tomorrow in case I meet them again. But I talked to ChatGPT for hours to calm down and not bring any weapon tomorrow.

I'm afraid that with all this violence happening recently, if I'm ever near something like that, I might react violently. Can anyone relate or advise me on what to do? I'm just too scared, and the more scared I get, the more I feel like doing what's in my mind.

I know this because it happened recently when I almost killed my abuser after being hurt again. I just can't control myself when I'm scared.

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A lot of violence has been happening recently in the Philippines, like the stabbing and shooting incidents in schools. I'm also a teacher. Even today, there was that incident in a jeepney where a man who was allegedly a drug addict suddenly became violent and beat up an elderly man.

I have PTSD, and when I'm scared, my fear seems much worse than other people's. To the point that I'll do anything to protect myself, and I start seeing my abuser in the suspects. I always imagine grabbing any weapon near me and hurting the suspects violently.

Just today, a beggar near my house called me and was rude. I stared at him, waiting for him to do something bad, and I felt like I would definitely hurt him if he did. I just feel so scared that my thoughts become extreme, but I can't stop them.

I'm even thinking of bringing my heavy-duty tumbler or a knife tomorrow in case I meet them again. But I talked to ChatGPT for hours to calm down and not bring any weapon tomorrow.

I'm afraid that with all this violence happening recently, if I'm ever near something like that, I might react violently. Can anyone relate or advise me on what to do? I'm just too scared, and the more scared I get, the more I feel like doing what's in my mind.

I know this because it happened recently when I almost killed my abuser after being hurt again. I just can't control myself when I'm scared.

and is it enough to survive if u live alone?

after ng violence na nangyari sa Tacloban Sabi sa interview ng taga city hall na "wake-up call na daw ito sa parents and teachers to focus on ur children,if u can't descipline ur children don't give them to government that's not out job". But as a teacher I believe government played a big part here. These kinds of violence are not evident dati and students respects school and teachers. Pero nung simulan nila ung child protection policy na halos lahat ng klase ng pagsaway sinusumbong na si teacher at considered child abuse kahit bastos tlg ang bata the teachers started to fear the students.. plus ung juvenile law na alam ng mga bata na if underage sila hindi sila basta basta makukulong .. I believe hanggat hindi narerealize ng government na Ang system nila plays a big part nothing will change . Last year pa may nangyayari na school violence pero walang nagbabago palala lang ng palala

Hi teachers! I'm spending hours to almost half a days just planning lessons . It hard because I also need to find a way how a topic can be learned by the student and adjust or innovate activities that will help them learn the lesson but it's draining me. I also have other things to do in life and other teacher works like paperworks. Is there a way to make lesson planning fast yet effective?