u/Upper-Specific5753

no big events, other than they wanted to kick me out, if i dont take it.

"sure" - i said, "kick me out then".

they didn't.

but now i am thinking.. i was there for few months, surrounded by all the action. i was not touching vaccines or patients. i was seeing patients before the "event happened" 💉

some would ask if they "should" take it, and I can't give advice, but i would say - you can always come back if you decide that you need it.. and if they stand up and walk out.. it can even be that they just saved their life..

anyway, i did not stop having thoughts that even if i did not take it, can it be that it is that sneaky to reach people just by being in this kind of envinroment every day?

thank you.🙏

I feel so "meh" when I am in the house that i rent and call home..
truly? especially in this moment while typing - it does not feel Home at all..

I go out and i feel like i am more free, i come up with ideas, i see positive outcomes, i believe in me and what i want.. i can make plans, i smile, i am happy.

and when i am back here, it gradually changes. yesterday i spoke to a friend, how i see myself creating life that i desire. we were out for a lunch.

now i woke up, i sat down and while looking out the window, the thoughts are only the ones who tell me "reasons" why what-i-desire will not happen..

it is like - "do what you want girl, but we will make sure that you never succeed"

and if i still take action.. i hear crickets.. (hi crickets at least you are here with me)

It is house?
is it my belief that it is a house?
is it none of it?

feel like carrying a burden :(

no letters in top corner, settings not showing any "G's" anywhere..

pura 80ultra.. please help to figure it out

this is no judgement post... i believe they are same essence as we are.

maybe anyone would be brave enough to have a group call online and just connect? bring and discuss topics that we all love. no judgement, just pure receiving and understanding.

I am being called AI

I made a post on redit (it was deleted)

99% said it was written by AI.

I wrote all 100%.

This is not first time when humans see me as "not me". (they said I did not paint my painting etc. )

It used to hurt... Not anymore.

Just a thought for a future..

One day I will walk down the street and they will say: "you are not real, you AI"

5y living here had no problem. new neighbors moved in with little 4 kids.they keep throwing toys, food over the fence, then knocks asking to give it back, at least 6 times a day.

parents had police visiting them few times, fighting very often.

I do not want to open the door, i do not even want to speak to them. ever.

can i? what do i do with the toys? its like another chore collecting them every day.

I feel so lonely, no friends anyway and now my neighbors started gathering against me.

Yes many people will say that this is ME problem, but i was like that even when i was little. Bullied all the time. This time new neighbor moved in, we started seeing rats, they had their KFC bones all over their garden. I never reported. they throw their food over the fence to us too, and my child was asking them not to do it. they asked my child to talk to me but my child did not call me, they only said to neighbor to stop throwing food that attract rats

neighbors now sent a letter that my child broke their fence. then another neighbor ran in to me today saying "what is your issue" . i had no clue who even was she. i believe they all made stories to bully someone and now will be attacking me.

why am i posting here?

because i am not ready for any argumens. i want to stay calm and me. i need to protect my family too.

moving out would be berfect, but not an option now.

i also believe that this pattern of bullies is following me in order to teach me something.

My child might not have fulfilled their request, but this escalted so fast.

I am living abroad. No family around.

I used to have friends and people around to talk to..

Until I admited what I am.

I believe i shifted realities (weird?)

I love being in a high frequency and acting from that place. I love reonforcing it..

I love deep and meaningful conversations with understanding, no judgement, just love, no anger, just calmness.(yes it is possible even in human body)

I would love to have other humans(or so we call ourselves) to be present with.

Body for me is just a vehicle, just an anthena.

Many humans still live under the deep script, they see me as "not-fitting-in one". A "Weird one".

recently i shared something i wrote about "you".

and because it was not about "me"or "us",

someone said: "so you're an alien then?”

i said: "i know i am"

and i mean it. (i believe this was a nudge from universe)

I crave deep conversations, where i can just say anything that comes through me and will be met on the same alien-frequency.

There will always be people who are so far away from what i experience, who will judge me and try to pull me in to "their space", as that one feels safe and true to them.

without realising that what they do is just trying to control other.

Going on a holiday, do I need to exchange a lot of money? or do they accept euros in Egypt? what is more worth it? exchange local herein uk airport or n Egypt? or.. that will not matter that much?

https://www.reddit.com/r/BoyDinnerDiaries/s/VcCiBV7Cat

here is link to the post... over 200 people said that from what he shared -wife is mentally ill.. but is she? help me to understand..

i feel like we all started this journey and been through a lot..

https://preview.redd.it/lgrcembt4i8h1.png?width=993&format=png&auto=webp&s=72ca606ef5685aeec67e5f95e8aa231d9f3fda27