u/UpperCommand3124

Season 1 episode 5 BDM Hannah accidentally breaks a glass dish and tosses it in the ocean. Am i missing something, why would she do that????

I'm f29, after my daughter died the day she was born I essentially lost most of my friends since they were tied to the company I worked for and was later fired from after my mental health deteriorated. I truly have no one; and I'd love to just have someone i could talk to each day. I now have a 15 week old, and a 9 year old (on earthside). I just miss having someone to chat with, someone to share daily life nonsenses
With. I am married but, you can't expect the person you marry to be your person for everything, or so I'm told.

Back story - I suffered a full term still birth last year at 40 weeks.

Today, I have a 4 week old who i adore dearly. However I'm finding myself very overwhelmed and quite frustrated lately. I have found myself needing to put baby down and leave the room to collect myself and my thoughts.

I feel like shit for getting frustrated or annoyed when things aren't quite going well for example when he won't let me put him down, or when he fights his sleep. I should be so grateful that he's here and i shouldn't be such a frustrated individual, especially with my history, I feel like i should really be counting my blessings and learn to nut up and stop being so stressed over close to nothing as it could truly be so much worse. Just beginning to hate myself for the way things have been getting to me lately.

Backstory, I lost my daughter mere hours prior to natural labor beginning at 40+2 last year in May.

Currently 33+3, no complaints/issues aside from baby not fully completing the "breathing" portion on last 3 BPP's. (Last 3 NST have been normal)

MFM & Midwives have discussed to allow induction as early as 37 weeks, simply for my mental health.

I'm hoping to hear about other women who have elected to have early inductions at 37 weeks and what (if any) complications they may have experienced? I have an appt next week to cover this with my midwives, however I'd really appreciate to hear from other moms as well. Trying to weigh the risks associated and make an educated decision.

I was told by my OB that my placenta is in the 99th percentile, given its size. She is not concerned however I've never heard of this before.

Anyone else experience this? I was 31 weeks and 2 days during this appointment, will be 32 weeks tmro. Any feedback is appreciated, more so curious than anything!