u/Upset_Collection7977

I'm sorry I'm not sure if it's the right flair but anw, I relapsed 3 months ago and it was really hard both mentally and physically, I'm trying to get better and get out of my relapse because I kinda want my period back, but somedays my appetite just disappears completely out of nowhere, not like I'm intentionally refusing to eat, in fact I want to eat but my body doesn't let me, I even started getting very forgetful about eating because I got very used to the hungry feeling that it doesn't bother me anymore, I don't want this, I want to get better and have a healthy relationship with food and body, I don't know how to start, I'm very lonely and dealing with my ed alone

I'm sorry I'm not sure if it's the right flair but anw, I relapsed 3 months ago and it was really hard both mentally and physically, I'm trying to get better and get out of my relapse because I kinda want my period back, but somedays my appetite just disappears completely out of nowhere, not like I'm intentionally refusing to eat, in fact I want to eat but my body doesn't let me, I even started getting very forgetful about eating because I got very used to the hungry feeling that it doesn't bother me anymore, I don't want this, I want to get better and have a healthy relationship with food and body, I don't know how to start, I'm very lonely and dealing with my ed alone

I'm sorry in advance, I just have no one to talk to so this is my only safe place

I hate that I ruined my 26 days streak, it was going okay, I managed my urges, but a wave of disappointment and disgust towards myself hit me suddenly, I was reluctant to relapse but I did anyway, I'm genuinely a loser, I hate myself so much

I'm 18F, when my ed started i was 14-15, I reached my lowest at 16, and by that time I had lost my period and haven't gotten it back until July of 2025 (almost 11 months without my period), i gained some weight by that time after i tried recovery for some time

but since I moved out for uni i spiralled back into my bad habits, loneliness messed up with my mind, so i relapsed without, I'm close to my lw now but somehow I don't feel as weak as I was when I was younger but still I'm nauseous and dizzy almost 24/7 (it used to be so hard to even take the stairs) , my period is irregular but still isn't gone like it used to be, as if my body got used to doing this

during my whole life, I've been coloring my hair with henna, the last time was about 3 months ago I think, I bought hair dye from the store today and noticed that it said i gotta test for allergy 48h before use

my questions are: can I dye my hair or not yet? if no, how do I conserve the hairdye tube from going to waste

18F, I'm 13 days clean, when I relapsed i messed up my wrist pretty bad and the wounds kept reopening cuz I didn't take care of them well, anw I hit the surface of a vein on my wrist but now the wound is closed, but it's bruised and it feels like a slight electric shock when I press that area, I'm scared idk if it's normal or not, dae relate or had a similar experience? if so I'd appreciate your advice!