u/Usual-Opportunity591

Hi y'all,

I'm sure this question has been asked before, but couldn't find one referencing a similar enough timescale/specificity as my situation.

I am using a relatively old laptop (2015 Model) and use it frequently for somewhat intensive stuff (photo editing, music production, graphic design (Blender), intensive data processing and read/writing large amounts using Python.

Due to age/use cases/other factors, my machine is relatively unstable and to avoid losing work due to computer issues like crashing/if something in it does something to my ssd/etc., I backup my data 3-5 times per day/after significant work has been put into somthing. I have been considering a local backup option to add to my cloud backup that I use to increase robustness.

The main reason I was considering an SSD (since HDDs seem to be more suited for backups than SSDs for most purposes) is that due to the frequent reads/writes, the backups would finish in a reasonable time frame/not take significant read resources from my onboard SSD for a longer period due to the bottlenecking(?) from the HDD's rates.

I am just unsure of if I would be more likely to get to the point of drive instability for an SSDs from all thewriting of large amounts of data to the backups from the work I do (python data processing).

Thanks! :)

Hey y’all,

I’ve been more active on Reddit recently and have found that I constantly struggle to make my posts concise on like ANY topic. This leads to me probably not getting the interactions/information l want since a wall of text is pretty daunting to respond to and more likely(?) to be passed over.

More generally, this still happens when I am texting people and the length of my responses grow and grow when I don’t know if they need to which again probably makes things daunting for the recipient.

Even if I’m cognizant of it and try to edit it down multiple times after finishing, IT STILL HAPPENS 😭

How do y’all deal with this?

Hi y’all,

I recently started an IOP program and, so far, I’m not really sure of whether to continue or downgrade to just Outpatient (weekly therapist/dietitian appointments only)/stop recovery-focused treatment.

I have been really struggling with weekly or more frequent emotional breakdowns due to stressors both inside and out of treatment. This is also amplified by me ruminating heavily on why to stay/not stay in treatment which negatively effects me (OCD). Also, not being able to spend this time I’m in ground on other things during the “good” part of my day (prescribed ADHD meds working) probably doesn’t help.

The group is nice and the professionals have been cool. I enjoy/don’t mind the daily group breakfasts (mine is a morning session), but I find myself really losing interest/having trouble focusing on any of the stuff that isn’t the weekly yoga or weekly process group (goal/meal-planning, diet education/psychoeducation/CBT/DBT) and end up doing things on the side. I do have partially-medicated ADHD which I’m sure contributes. I have some DBT/CBT experience from outside therapy/a previous IOP program as well.

I feel like I can’t be honest enough in process group due to not wanting to inhibit the recovery of other patients because I feel like a lot of what I’m working through is on whether to stay in treatment or just harm reduce (not recovery-focused) and the reasons I’m not wanting to stay in treatment could be triggering/not applicable enough to group.

I still have a very serious fixation on appearance (diagnosed with Body Dysmorphia long before ED treatment) that is seeming to take over everything and lead to difficulty so I am unsure if I am just maybe not “ready” for recovery?

I know y’all can’t decide what to do for me and plan to bring/have brought this up to my professionals, but I wanted input from others.

Thanks :))

Hi y’all,

I have been on tret 0.05% for more than a couple months and do it every other day up from doing it every 3 days. I still get some redness/dry patches around the clavicle/neck/shoulder areas and occasionally a bit on my face. The more common thing I get is some mild itchiness on the neck/clavicle. I’ve started being more generous with breaks when this happens to not tax my skin too hard. I apply it face + neck + shoulders + chest + back.

This is moreso related to a specific product, but hopefully it still pertains to tret.Does anyone else feel like the Vanicream body lotion (not the facial lotion that dries more matte) “dries out” too quickly compared to a more pure occlusive like Petroleum Jelly?

I decided to try the Vanicream body lotion as my occlusive/body moisturizer since I thought it had a few more moisturizers in it and would maybe provide better hydration than just Petroleum Jelly, but it feels like it loses its protective effect/is absorbed pretty quickly? I usually use the Vanicream facial moisturizer on my face + any particularly red/dry spots. Unsure if it is kind of a middle ground between a moisturizer and an occlusive or more of just an occlusive with extras.

Just wanted to get some other thoughts because I’m considering going back to using the Petroleum Jelly as my sort of moisture-sealing layer.

Thanks! :))

Hi y’all,

I have recently entered ED treatment (IOP, been in for about 3 weeks) and am feeling like I am just not in a place alongside everything else I’m currently dealing with to pursue full recovery due to having almost-weekly breakdowns regarding if I should stay in treatment or not/what I would even do if I stopped/all my other stuff I have going on.

Is stopping this level of treatment and trying to move to more of a place of harm reduction until I work out some of my other mental health/other difficulties a bad idea? It feels like this is all I think about and has been super taxing for me.

Hi,

I am currently in treatment for a potential eating disorder and have been in it for about 3 weeks (IOP). Every week I have extreme rumination on body image, diet, etc. that, alongside all my other stuff I have going on, leads to a meltdown/crisis over if I should or should not stay in program.

Why would it not be a good idea to go back to just reducing harm and trying to get myself into a better place where recovery feels less daunting due to other areas being more addressed? I feel like staying in/leaving treatment and the consequences/outcomes of all this is all I think about and it’s so taxing.

Hi y’all,

I’m in my late 20s and I lost a large amount of weight from an extended deficit, somewhat rebounded, and then started treatment for a potential eating disorder to try to stop myself from rebounding fully.

The barrier I’m running into now in recovery is that when I was losing weight, I finally felt like I was getting a handle on my negative self-image, body dysmorphia, etc. through both the weight loss and therapy and was on my way to making up for experiences that I felt that I missed out on earlier in my life due to various reasons, but now, I feel like I’m putting that “making up for” on pause as 30 draws ever closer, my appearance is still not where I want it/I had a taste of that positive self-image, I feel like I want to have this experience of being both “youthful” and “thin” and turning 30 somehow breaks that. I am a gay male if that informs things at all re: gay beauty standards. I am of course not trying to be ageist at all and I know nothing happens when you turn 30, but this is where my anxiety has been focused and there is also a lot of societal pressure.

It feels like my goal is to get through recovery ASAP (they want me to maintain my weight and not engage in exercise for now) and then try to go back to losing weight more sustainably/exercising, but I feel like this is a goal they would oppose due to thoughts surrounding set-point theory and potential relapsing although I still am unsure if I have an ED due to that large weight loss into rapid weight gain being more of an isolated thing since I think I only restricted for shorter periods 6-7 years ago and don’t remember engaging in extreme binging.

Given all this, I’m struggling to decide how to proceed :/

Any input on any of this is appreciated, thank you ❤️

Hi y’all,

I have been in IOP treatment (maintaining weight, no current exercise) for a couple weeks following a period of rapid weight gain that was brought on by more and more frequent binging that likely resulted from being in a moderate deficit for a somewhat long time.

Before all the binging, I felt as if I was on my way to a physical appearance that was more what I want (lean and visible abs), felt more confidence in going out and engaging with those I was attracted to (or that I would be when I was ready to go and do that after working through some other things), and that I was working towards reclaiming stuff I missed out on various reasons (I’m late twenties now).

Even after the weight gain, I can still see some of my progress from before since I didn’t fully “undo” my weight loss, but feel like my time in my twenties to try and a be a “twink” is running out and I’m “wasting” it in recovery and have urges to just try to go back to restricting in a more sustainable way to avoid the binging, exercising again, and potentially pursuing a GLP-1 to take the edge off. Like I still want to eat, just not to excess.

Also, I don’t know if I entered treatment too hastily as I might have just been experiencing binging from too much restricting and that that would have gone away after a period of letting my body reset? (as it has for the moment in recovery)

Hi,

I have been trying to figure out if a time series that seems to be stationary around a mean (stock returns) is perhaps better modeled by a rolling model with time-varying coefficients/parameters versus developing a model on the whole time series/lagged versions of the whole time series.

I cannot find much on doing EDA in a rolling fashion besides taking rolling statistics such as rolling mean, variance, autocorrelation, etc. which while helpful for visualizing how these evolve over time, are not as easy to use for analyzing the explicit dependence structure of those statistics (say the autocorrelation of the mean at various lags) due to there being a large amount of induced autocorrelation from a large number of overlapping observations when using rolling windows to calculate these statistics?

Is this something that is done or is it generally more feasible to just stick to analyzing the original series/is this something that’s better addressed by a Kalman filter due to it being able to output a parameter time series?

Thanks!

I’m 6’ and I appreciate parts of being taller, but I also want to be small sometimes 😭

Like. having a partner be taller than me would be cool, but I feel like my height limits the pool a little bit 😅

But yah, I know that you don’t need to be shorter to be cute, but I feel like they’re associated a lot 😭

Hi,

I recently went into voluntary treatment (wasn’t experiencing dangerous health concerns) for what might be an eating disorder. I feel like I went too quickly into this process and am overwhelmed with what recovery entails and requires me to not engage in and don’t know if I’m at that place.

Is it possible to do these things when you are recovered? or is it always unadvised?

I’m a gay (well, bi) male and I just want to have a lean appearance that won’t endanger my health, but may enable me to have experiences I missed out on/validation I maybe didn’t receive enough for various reasons from those I find attractive.

It feels like my only rewards for putting effort into limiting my calories to a not-dangerous degree for an extended period + increasing exercise are a potential eating disorder and having to watch myself undo the progress I made.

I also started treatment on a whim due to the binging/rapid weight gain and thinking they could surgically address that. To my knowledge, I was not near a dangerous weight and now I’m wanting to stop treatment because I share this stuff with my treatment team and am told to challenge this thinking which is probably correct, but I don’t want to recover in that way since it seems like my set-point weight (if that exists) is far from what that appearance would require :(

I feel like it’s not that I think “full” recovery isn’t possible for me, it’s just that, I don’t think I want that and quasi-recovery sounds better right now.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Input is very much welcomed 😅

Hey y’all,

This question is more pertaining to the gay part of being bi, but also I identify as bi and idk why some equivalent thing for the more straight side of the spectrum couldn’t be similar, so hopefully it applies :)

So, I had some pretty rapid weight gain following more and more frequent binging that came up after moderately restricting calories for an extended period. This led me to go into treatment for a potential eating disorder.

I’m wanting to get back out there on the dating apps and find some cool connections, but the difficulty that I am running into is that it seems like preferences are apparently pretty “like attracts like” and I am into muscular/leaner guys and a leaner/thinner appearance on myself is more euphoria-inducing than a more muscular build (meaning I want to pursue a thin/leaner build for myself), but the things I need to do to pursue that (calorie counting, exercise, moderate restriction, etc.) can be triggers for those with eating disorders and if I don’t do these things, I tend to end up more on the heavier side.

So yah, do any of y’all have any experiences with that/advice?

Any input is appreciated even if you haven’t dealt exactly with this ❤️

Hi all,

I recently started an IOP program due to more and more frequent binging and rapid weight gain following a >!4-5 month!<-long moderate deficit. I am >!6’!< and was >!200lbs!< before starting treatment and don’t think I’ve had any very serious health impacts from restricting. I am unsure of continuing this level of treatment.

No body is good or bad, but I still have to function within our world that is (unfortunately) very appearance-based.

I have been struggling to fully commit to recovery due to feeling like I won’t be found attractive by as many and won’t enjoy all that that entails due to gaining weight/losing muscle because of less restricted eating being promoted as well as being told to not exercise for the time being.

Given this, is it okay to aspire to get to a place where I have less urges to binge/less frequent binging, don’t have “banned” foods, but still engage in disordered behavior like moderate/more sustainable restriction and moderate exercise (“quasi-recovery”) versus the more “complete” vision of recovery that is usually touted?

I’m unsure how this will be taken by my IOP.

Hi,

Edit: I think I misspoke on the title. Instead of retail having an edge, I think I meant if there are inefficiencies/profit that are not extracted by institutions in less liquid markets/lower capacity strategies.

I know that this question concerns retail, but I feel like it could relevant to industry quants since they are two facets of the market as a whole meaning that this could be relevant to institutions due to there being areas where it's potentially not worth it to participate for various reasons.

This idea seems to be perpetuated by a lot of retail (I am retail, but not sure where I stand) and also by some(?) apparent industry professionals.

In this Quant Stack Exchange answer by the (apparent?) former/potentially still lead architect at Databento (they were also apparently previously head of research and trading at an electronic market making firm), an argument for retail's edge in this area being more and more not a thing was provided by detailing a process of applying generalizable simple strategies over the complete universe of low liquidity assets so that, in aggregate, participating in these markets is worth their resources.

Thanks! : )

Hi,

TL;DR: I developed what felt like extreme hunger after a moderate period of restriction and after binging for a short period, signed up for IOP for EDs out of panic about rapid weight gain. My extreme hunger seems to be subsiding after initial week of moderate, but not excessive eating on IOP meal plan/no exercise. I don’t know if I want to proceed with treatment since I’m not sure if I have an eating disorder and feel like the ED recovery process is not for me at the moment and would wreck my mental/self-image. I think that I am okay with some not-dangerous disordered eating + exercise for the time being and monitoring it if the extreme hunger stays away.

I am currently in the initial stages of an IOP program for eating disorders and worry that I made a mistake in signing up so hastily.

After going through the first week and being told to not exercise/put on a meal plan that feels like it has more calories in it than my usual consumption (which is even more impacting due to not exercising), I have been experiencing a lot of distress due to body image and having less control over my life due to the guidelines of the program. I do know that there is an apparent “j-curve” to recovery.

I had initially been on what one could call an indefinite bulk with a highest weight of around >!234!< lbs. I am also >!6!< feet tall.

Over the last >!4-5 months!< through moderate calorie restriction (to my knowledge, not unsafe), slightly more intense exercise, intermittent fasting, and medication side effects (not prescribed for weight loss), I lost a moderate amount of weight.

Over the first >!couple!< months, I went down from my highest weight (>!234!< lbs) to around >!200!< lbs. This slowed down so I restricted a bit more and eventually got down to a lowest of >!172!< lbs over the next >!couple!< months.

I then started having more and more frequent binges that did not feel like they were being used to cope with negative emotions/situations and felt like what I have seen described as extreme hunger where my stomach would feel full/almost uncomfortably full and there was still a desire to eat.

This culminated in about >!2-3!< weeks of constant binging where I went from about >!180!< lbs to >!200!< lbs
and this is what made me sign up for ED treatment.

After this binging/my first week-ish of eating more than during the restriction due to an IOP meal plan (but still experiencing hunger), I noticed that the extreme hunger/binging feeling is not nearly as strong as before and wonder if it was just a response to extended restriction/disordered eating versus a the consequences of a fully-developed eating disorder due to the shortness of the restriction.

I worry that I am going to be encouraged into gaining more weight/losing more muscle than I want to and that I don’t necessarily “need” to be in this program at the moment due to the extreme hunger possibly receding and the results of engaging in the somewhat disordered(?) eating I was before (probably less strict) is more appealing than the alternative to me at the moment.

I acknowledge that I could be more prone to EDs from various factors and this would probably fall under disordered eating, but I think I’m in a place where I am okay with engaging in disorded eating/being at a potentially-similar stage to “quasi-recovery”.

Thanks to all that read through all of that, I would love to get your thoughts <3

Hi,

I want to preface this by saying I am not moralizing weight. No type of body is good or bad.

I am in the early stages of treatment/recovery for what might be an eating disorder that may have been brought on by moderate restriction for an extended period. I started treatment after rapid weight gain from binging following that period of restriction. To my knowledge, I was not underweight at my lowest weight.

If I derive confidence from looking leaner/thinner and, if “like attracts like”, it may make me more physically-attractive to those I specifically tend to find attractive (lean or muscular), and that/the attention is important to me, how would I square that with the potential/likely(?) weight gain that seems to come from active treatment/recovery and the negative impact it feels as if that would have on me from not looking that way?

I acknowledge that these attractions are probably heavily shaped by beauty standards/diet culture/etc. and these are problematic, but I am wondering if this falls under a form of body neutrality as I’m viewing my body as not good/bad, but as a means to an end to get by in the unfortunate state our world is currently in.

Hi y’all,

I am in early recovery from what seemed like a restrictive eating disorder of a moderate duration.

I have been really fixating on diet culture and beauty standards and perhaps this is me being in the bargaining stage of grieving the “ideal” body and I can imagine this approach being not suggested for me right now, but is it a form of practical body neutrality to think:

“No type of body is inherently ‘good’ or ‘bad’, but unfortunately, the world is a very appearance-based place and so having a certain appearance (in my brain, thin/lean) may aid me if a goal of mine is to be found attractive by someone with a “similar” body type due to the supposed idea that “like attracts like” (I know this is far from always true, I may be biased) and this is okay as long as I don’t perpetuate fatphobia/diet culture/body shaming/etc., treat others with kindness/respect, and do not do it to an ‘unhealthy’ degree?”

I know this could be the ED shifting around, but I just wanted to get a sense of practicality if say a goal of ours is potentially aided by a certain appearance.

Hi,

Of course not trying to discount those here/tell y’all you’re wrong/say what you’re doing can’t work, but…

Why should I as an individual/not-an-institution think I can find an edge if I don’t have:

1. An infrastructure edge (e.g. extreme compute power, exchange direct lines, speed, etc.)
2. A data edge (proprietary/alternative data, expensive data, etc.)
3. A research edge (teams of very qualified invididuals/phd/grad school grads/etc.)
4. I’m sure there are some other typical common edges that I missed

? This is a question that I am asking as an individual, not someone who works at a fund.

I have heard that there is alpha available for smaller players in lower liquidity markets due to things like capacity, but I’m not sure if that’s so true since say there is a collection of low liqudity assets in a market, could a fund not just create a highly general strategy that works across that collection of assets and in aggregate, extract what ends up being a worthwhile effort from a capacity perspective?

Hi y’all,

I hope this doesn’t violate rules.

I have just began an IOP program for Eating Disorders after experiencing more and more frequent binging after moderate restriction for an extended period.

I am ofc talking about this with my mh professionals, but I have really been struggling on how to square the teachings of “you don’t need to change your appearance for anyone” (true) and “don’t do exercise/physical activities if you wouldn’t do it if your appearance wouldn’t change as a result” (definitely has some merit imo) with being gay/into guys/wanting to engage in hookup culture and find some fwbs/be perceived as attractive/etc.

There is very much this idea of “like attracts like” in these spaces and as my type tends to be more muscular/leaner guys, there is this perceived pressure to at the very least be more on the lean side so my attraction is more likely to be reciprocated/I can have confidence in the face of rejection.

I know this might be really at odds with recovery/even what being recovered looks like and might be unhealthy, but like, reclaiming these experiences due to feeling like I missed out on them before for various reasons feels really important to me and all of this is really throwing what my life might look like in recovery/being recovered into flux.

Do any of y’all have experience with this/similar appearance-based spaces and if engaging in these spaces and also recovery/being recovered is possible?