I match all criteria for bpd now. I was already a bit unstable, then I was physically and verbally abused for a long time. I met him at mid 18, I am now turning 20 soon. I have lost my sense of self and I feel like I am floating. I am still attached to my abuser and I bothered him a little saying don’t leave me. What can I do. Used to be smart and pretty nice.
Hi. Accidentally took like triple my dose because I thought I was taking my other meds. I called poison help and they said up to 120 mg was not ER worthy and that I could stay home at monitor my symptoms. I thought I had taken only two then so I was in the clear but I counted my meds again and I definitely took 3 thinking they were my other meds. I took one and then fell asleep and woke up 30 minutes and took two more thinking they were the other ones.
I’m 19 F, 100 lbs. Will I be okay? Is it okay to sleep it off for now?
It’s been about 5 hours since I took them and not feeling super shit just kinda weird and heightened senses.
I just accidentally took 108 mg of concerta. This is my first time taking it I mixed it up with my other medication and took it twice along with my prescribed dose of concerta because I take the other medication twice a day. Should I go to the hospital?
I am 19 F/ 100 lbs/45 kg
I called poison control from my area and they said I should be fine for up to 120 mg so I should just monitor myself but I’m scared reading stuff online.
This post is mainly for brown girls because I am one too but I’m so confused about why I’ve met so many other brown girls in younger generations that have the same mentality as the judgey older generation brown aunties.
The same gossiping, social hierarchies, sucking up to/for guys, and everything. I’m not even saying this in a mean way, I grew up in a very predominantly Caucasian city and I dreamt of living somewhere where there were others like me. But I’ve come to realize that so many brown girls bring this mentality with them. I thought that living in a time and country with access to consistent education, mental health resources, and stability would lead to more brown girls being accepting of eachother and breaking past generations judgement, but I’ve met so many girls that act the same if not worse. It’s hard to meet brown girls that are genuinely open minded, accepting of others, non-judgemental, and open to real conversations about mental health and feminism.
Of course I have met many wonderful brown girls slowly, but I have realized that a majority of brown girl friend groups still carry a weird sense of competition, hierarchy, and judgement and that they aren’t truly there for you at the end of the day. It’s odd and I wonder why this is still happening. I’ve heard that it could just be from their moms and learning from younger ages that they need to perform, but I did too and simultaneously learned about mental health and non judgement through school and learning and I really value my friendships. Why are we still choosing to be like this?
Also I want to say I love my brown girls, I love being a brown girl and I love my little community. I just wish more girls would see eachother as real friends and not competition and stop sucking up to guys. I feel that women should be able to help eachother and keep eachother strong.
I tried contacting one of my exes friends yesterday. She used to follow me on ig and we would like each others posts and comment and he made her block me at one point after we were on and off. He told me he just told her that we broke up and asked her to remove me but I was blocked.
I texted her and asked her if I should reach out to his parents and how she thinks they would respond since she knows them well. I said everything very vaguely and said that I really care about him so I didn’t want to go to any authorities. I didn’t even tell her about the abuse until she started pushing and I showed her a picture of a bruise on my arm. She basically just said “I just don’t understand why you’re dragging his family into this, I already heard you spoke to his mom before and made her cry”. And I was like I’m not dragging I’m just asking what your input is. I was like as a girl I’m just asking for some advice, I don’t mean to make a big deal I just really got hurt. She responded with “as a girl I think you’re a crazy bitch”. And now I feel awful.
I attached a picture of the way he would talk to me, and he was also extremely physically abusive. I didn’t even tell her all this I said hey, I have a question, could you not tell (his name) I’m asking, I just wanted some input from you! And then I told her we had been having problems and if she could give me her opinion on how they may take it. I feel like shit. It made me feel worse. I know I shouldn’t have reached out but this was the day after taking the abortion pill and I was all over the place. I kept having dreams of him being there with me. I was alone and crying for hours and experiencing the worst physical and psychological pain I have ever felt. I dreamt that night the same thing but with him there. I know he’s awful but I needed him and I thought that maybe she could either talk to him, or at least just give me her opinion on his parents. I don’t know what to do I’m shaking. Everyone has been treating me like this.
I took the second abortion pill 6 hours ago. I had severe cramping about an hour after taking them and it lasted 2 hours. However, afterward it just randomly stopped and I layed on my side on the sofa. I felt like I made the right decision then and I know I can’t support a baby now either, but I can feel the clots coming and I can’t stop crying. I don’t want it to happen but I can’t have a baby either. I wanna see my baby. I don’t know what to do. My boyfriend left me before this too and I wanted someone here with me.
Hi, I am in a really tough spot right now. My ex was verbally and psychologically abusive and also just fully left me during my pregnancy/abortion. I knew I could not have a baby with him. I called him and he called me names when I just asked him to stay on the phone with me. He also did hit me a few times. I used to be in close contact with his mom, but he told his family lies about me and I no longer contact them. I just don’t know exactly where to go about this because it was really really horrible. Should I contact his parents about the way he is speaking to me and my family? I feel he needs to be accountable.
My ex was extremely abusive toward me. He had really odd reasons why. I want to know what I should do regarding this. I don’t want to ruin his life by contacting police or my campus security since we are both literally 19 and he is bipolar. I think that’s where some of the behaviour stems from, but I’m not using it as an excuse. Should I contact his mom about this? I have pictures and screenshots that I attached too. The problem is, he told his family lies about me which have made them cease contact with me. I used to be in touch with his mom.
Hi everyone,
(This is long)
I don’t need your opinions on abortion firstly because I have already decided. I am 19F and I found out last month that I was pregnant with my 19M, boyfriends baby. He was physically and psychologically abusive, and I was preparing to leave him until I found out about this.
We randomly decided to take a test a few weeks ago. I hadn’t gotten my next period yet (I wasn’t late) and we were pretty careful, he just said to do it since we had some free ones. I took one in a public bathroom and it was positive. I freaked out by myself and then took another to confirm. Also positive. At this point I ran out and showed him and started crying and he hugged me and kissed me and told me he would be with me through this. I knew I should’ve left him before, but I was too ashamed to tell anyone else and I honestly wanted him here with me through this. I thought if I was pregnant he would be nice and come to the clinic and help me a bit emotionally until it was over.
However he somehow got worse and started to call me horrible things and insult my family. I didn’t think he would touch me while I was pregnant but he did. I know he’s not the person for me but I really thought pregnancy would give him at least a bit of compassion. His “reason” for all of the abuse has always been because of my past (which is close to nothing - he is my first real boyfriend). The only real mistake I Would say I made was that when I first met him I exaggerated my past because I thought he was more experienced than me and he would think I was cool if I was experienced too.
The first time I went to his room, I saw condoms and lube in his drawer and he talked a lot about being on dating apps and going on dates and talking to people. I never used dating apps and I just thought that meant he was experienced. Then I slowly realized that he wasn’t, and that he had only mainly spoken to people online. So I double-downed on what I had told him before and told him I was lying because I thought he would think I was cool. He hated the fact that I was “experienced” before and that was his reason before and now it’s that I lied to him. I understand the confusion but we had a great connection besides this one thing and I really loved him before he went crazy.
Anyway, he started to become psychologically and verbally abusive again and called me degrading names and degraded me about being pregnant. I cried and this lasted for two weeks and I felt tortured and he kept saying he was going to break up with me but I was begging him to at least not block me while I went through this. Two weeks ago, he blocked me and said he was done and my roommates asked me if I wanted to go out with them. I honestly was hesitant but I felt like shit so I said yes. I went out and put my phone in my bag and didn’t realize he had called me like a hundred times. Then he called me names for going out and blocked me again.
Now it’s been a bit and I just went to the clinic yesterday. Everyone waiting there was with their partners or boyfriends or whatever and I was alone. I got the ultrasound done and I cried because, even though I made my choice, it’s hard for me. I called him thinking that the time away would give him some clarity and asked if he could stay on the phone with me while I took the second pill and he just kept calling me things. I just didn’t know he could truly do something like this to me. He told me I don’t listen and I lie and I went out and worried him and called me things and blocked me. I keep searching things about the second pill and everyone is always with someone taking care of them. I am going to take it later today and I’m terrified and sad and alone. How can I get through this by myself and without thinking of him. Idk this is all over the place but if anyone has had a similar experience please let me know.
I’ve been going through things and I have been abused but I literally can’t wrap my head around it. Are all abusers genuinely mentally challenged?
My ex abused me and cheated on me and told me I deserved it because I cheated on him (I kissed a guy before we started dating). Mind you, he genuinely cheated on me months into dating and touched somebody else, worse than what I ever did to him.
This is just one of those things that never made sense to me. And when I asked him, he genuinely thought what we did was equal and that the violence equated to that. How does this even make sense.. Like genuinely how do they convince themselves?? I know I don’t NEED to understand him, but genuinely how.
Hi there,
I was wondering if anyone else has applied for priority housing after the CFA deadline? I didn’t know the deadline was in February and I applied now so that I hopefully get a room by September. I’m going into my third year with no housing offer still because I applied late and I’m worried.
Let me know your experiences!
Edit: Also doing this through both CFA and SVPRO so I don’t know how that works fully
Hi everyone, I’m in my second year of uni going into my third (hopefully…) and my abusive ex basically ruined everything for me.
I’m on student loans and since I have so many withdrawals from both terms, they are completely cutting funding for me. I also might be kicked out of my university soon and I have always wanted to go to medical school. I worked my ass off in highschool to get to my dream university and now I’m scaredIm going to be kicked out.
He was extremely abusive the entire time I was with him and he destroyed my laptop, ipad, and my phone is now cracked front and back because of him. He would say things about me and was physically abusive to the point where I spent the entire day crying and when I tried to rebuild for the next day, he would start again. There were also a lot of instances where my teeth were chipped and i had scratches/bruises all over my face so I was too embarrassed to even show my face in class. Some days I would also just struggle to walk and he injured my tailbone so I couldn’t sit down for extended periods of time. He also went to the same uni as me and same program so he was always around me.
We also lived together for the first semester and that’s when he started to become abusive.
I’m losing my mind and I live in an extremely strict household. I am too scared to even let my parents find out about this, they will kill me. I don’t know what to do. My family needs loans to support me in university. Help