I achieved my dream... Why do I feel so lost now?
Hey people,
I'm in my early 30s and I'm facing a luxury problem I never thought I'd have. I achieved my drean.
I've basically achieved what I set out to do since I was a kid. I have a good education, a well-paying job, and I've managed to save a good amount of money. I live in a good European country and I'm reasonably active. From the outside, things look pretty great.
The problem is: I've completely lost my compass and feel totally lost about what to do now.
For context: I grew up in a pretty dysfunctional household, we were relatively poor and since I was a only child with poor social skills I had trouble making friends and got bullied. Because of that, my entire 20s were focused on figuring out how to properly integrate into society. I worked hard on building social skills, creating a stable life, landing a good job, as well as becoming financially secure. For years I was driven by the idea of improving myself and not ending up homeless.
Now that I've reached my lifelong goal, I'm reallising how lost I am. Especially when it comes to shaping my day-to-day life in a way that stops me from just doom scrolling after work. Life is a finite resource and I don't want to look back and regret wasting it away rotting on my couch. I do go out with friends 1-2 times a week but this doesn't feel satisfying.
I've completely lost my compass. I've been actively trying to recalibrate it for more than half a year now and have tried a lot of different things. But with everything I did, I felt a sense of FOMO, as if nothing was good enough.I think I've come to realise that it's not a specific thing I'm looking for, but rather a mindset towards life.
Up until now I've mostly operated in two modes: anxiety as Avoidance Motivation, driving me to get a good career and pursue friendships to reduce my constant feeling of loneliness, or my dopamine-driven Approach Motivation, pulling me only toward dopaminergic things that have the least resistance, like video games, dating apps, doom scrolling, or binge-watching anime
Now my question is:
how do I recalibrate my compass and figure out what actually feels good and meaningful to me?
I've watched a lot of Dr K's videos. There are a lot about dopaminergic topics but no video that addresses this topic. The video 'I Did Everything Right, Why Am I Still Sad?' sounds similar at first but covers something very different. Is there one you'd recommend?