u/Vast_Confusion_3940

it doesn't have to resemble the setting but in the sense that there are no 'good guys', and the system is rigged at the start of the series and nothing really changes at the end even if you do a little good along the way, think how the greeks still have indirectly the entire baltimore drug trade even if the gangsters keep changing

Hi everyone, I’m reaching out because I’m completely stuck and don't know how to break the cycle. I graduated with a Bachelor's in Computer Science and Engineering with a solid GPA. On paper, I should be moving forward, but I feel like I'm completely unequipped for the "real world." I’ve spent the entire past year at home doing practically nothing, and the guilt is eating me alive. Because of this gap, I feel a deep sense of shame. I feel like a terrible son, watching time pass while contributing nothing, despite my parents' support. I struggle heavily with depression and anxiety. I am actively trying to get help—I see a professional and I'm on medication—but honestly, right now, it feels like none of it is working. My biggest hurdle right now is a toxic loop of perfectionism and shame: The Expectation: The sheer amount of shame I feel makes me want to succeed instantly to make up for lost time. I want to sit down and pull off massive, flawless study sessions right away. The Reality: Obviously, that’s impossible. When I inevitably can't do it, or when a concept doesn't click immediately, I start spiraling. The Result: The misery kicks in, the anxiety spikes, and I retreat back into doing nothing to escape the bad feelings. I want to build a daily study routine, get internship-ready, and actually retain what I learn without panicking. But the gap between where I am and where I want to be feels like an ocean. How do I get past this deep-rooted shame just to hit "start"? How do you build a study habit from absolute zero when your own brain keeps telling you you're already too far behind? Any advice, reality checks, or small steps from anyone who has been in this hole would mean the world. Thanks

Hi everyone, I’m reaching out because I’m completely stuck and don't know how to break the cycle. I graduated with a Bachelor's in Computer Science and Engineering with a solid GPA. On paper, I should be moving forward, but I feel like I'm completely unequipped for the "real world." I’ve spent the entire past year at home doing practically nothing, and the guilt is eating me alive. Because of this gap, I feel a deep sense of shame. I feel like a terrible son, watching time pass while contributing nothing, despite my parents' support. I struggle heavily with depression and anxiety. I am actively trying to get help—I see a professional and I'm on medication—but honestly, right now, it feels like none of it is working. My biggest hurdle right now is a toxic loop of perfectionism and shame: The Expectation: The sheer amount of shame I feel makes me want to succeed instantly to make up for lost time. I want to sit down and pull off massive, flawless study sessions right away. The Reality: Obviously, that’s impossible. When I inevitably can't do it, or when a concept doesn't click immediately, I start spiraling. The Result: The misery kicks in, the anxiety spikes, and I retreat back into doing nothing to escape the bad feelings. I want to build a daily study routine, get internship-ready, and actually retain what I learn without panicking. But the gap between where I am and where I want to be feels like an ocean. How do I get past this deep-rooted shame just to hit "start"? How do you build a study habit from absolute zero when your own brain keeps telling you you're already too far behind? Any advice, reality checks, or small steps from anyone who has been in this hole would mean the world. Thanks

Hi everyone, I’m reaching out because I’m completely stuck and don't know how to break the cycle. I graduated with a Bachelor's in Computer Science and Engineering with a solid GPA. On paper, I should be moving forward, but I feel like I'm completely unequipped for the "real world." I’ve spent the entire past year at home doing practically nothing, and the guilt is eating me alive. Because of this gap, I feel a deep sense of shame. I feel like a terrible son, watching time pass while contributing nothing, despite my parents' support. I struggle heavily with depression and anxiety. I am actively trying to get help—I see a professional and I'm on medication—but honestly, right now, it feels like none of it is working. My biggest hurdle right now is a toxic loop of perfectionism and shame: The Expectation: The sheer amount of shame I feel makes me want to succeed instantly to make up for lost time. I want to sit down and pull off massive, flawless study sessions right away. The Reality: Obviously, that’s impossible. When I inevitably can't do it, or when a concept doesn't click immediately, I start spiraling. The Result: The misery kicks in, the anxiety spikes, and I retreat back into doing nothing to escape the bad feelings. I want to build a daily study routine, get internship-ready, and actually retain what I learn without panicking. But the gap between where I am and where I want to be feels like an ocean. How do I get past this deep-rooted shame just to hit "start"? How do you build a study habit from absolute zero when your own brain keeps telling you you're already too far behind? Any advice, reality checks, or small steps from anyone who has been in this hole would mean the world. Thanks