u/Warm_Garden_2510

Given these last 2.5 years, I had been very frustrated with myself

The reason being stuck in a loop of Intermediate.

Over these years it has changed the way I process things for myself, whether what I am given am I even worthy of it? To reduce this burden I thought maybe not taking a regular clg is one such reason.

Who even likes staying in your room studying all day in their 20s ?

So even though I am 21 now, I got to know about this Foreign language course by Delhi University and I applied for it...I even got selected just the fees is pending.

Today is the last date although.. now I am being skeptical of it

My next attempt is in January'27

Although I am tried of this loop, I am afraid whether or not this desire of having a college life will cost me my ca career thru more attempts.

So should I take it or not?

Given these last 2.5 years, I had been very frustrated with myself

The reason being stuck in a loop of Intermediate.

Over these years it has changed the way I process things for myself, whether what I am given am I even worthy of it? To reduce this burden I thought maybe not taking a regular clg is one such reason.

Who even likes staying in your room studying all day in their 20s ?

So even though I am 21 now, I got to know about this Foreign language course by Delhi University and I applied for it...I even got selected just the fees is pending.

Today is the last date although.. now I am being skeptical of it

My next attempt is in January'27

Although I am tried of this loop, I am afraid whether or not this desire of having a college life will cost me my ca career thru more attempts.

So should I take it or not?

I had applied for DRC's part time foreign language certification course for Japanese language.

I have received the payment link today...however,

I am not sure if I should go for the admission or not..

Given that, the day before yesterday I had visited the campus, the guard didn't let me go to the admin office even though I tried to reason out with her that no calls or emails were being getting responded which is why I had came physically.

Now I am worried if I do take admission, will the faculty show the same discrimination like the guard since I am not a DU student?

Can someone share their experience with DRC's faculty?

Also

I am a CA Intermediate aspirant, my attempt is in January I don't wish to waste my time or money, if the staff is incompatible with their teaching skills so I should I go for the admission or not?

Big Rant ahead

Spoke to a friend(Lets call him Ken) of mine last night (been together thru a very tuff time of 2 years in past), I thought we are gonna be one of those casual buddies thru life and death.. on call when I insisted on meeting which I had been requesting for since past 5 months to which he used to say 'college is keeping me busy etc etc', yesterday night he said-

"You are not important enough for me to impact my life, so why should we meet?"

He claimed to be an extrovert and a yapper of some sort which made him adopt this I don't give a f*ck attitude now.

I still thought he was joking? That this must be his new persona I don't know why I thought like that..

He kept on going about how he doesn't care anymore about what happens to me and I am just a friend he speaks to when he's bored but now that he doesn't need me even when he's bored so he blocked me on whatsapp (one of the reasons why I decided to call him, cuz who tf blocks their friend after a text like "Do you mind if I block you?"

The call ended when he entered a lift to his home.

And it all grounded on me, that he really wasn't joking so sms-ed him that we should still meet and he can do this much of a favor for our old days together.

He replied he was fed with being treated like a last resort in this friendship and claimed that I only come to him when I have no one left.

A lil context [ from 2019-2021, I was at a pretty bad state in my life, I had quit a group who were not accepting Ken in it, it was 9th grade so i fought with the whole group for him. He left school in 2020 but we still stayed in contact.

In 2020, I joined another group(2 guys,2 girls) , a lot of bs happened and they were hella toxic, except a girl in that group the rest were suspended for making fake nudes of their frnd and uploaded on socials by tagging the whole school. They suspected that I was the one who leaked their discord chats about this plan. *I didn't. Lost my best friend (let's call her Anna) who I knew since 2nd grade.

In 2021, I barely went to school, thinking their remaining friends would bully me. During this time, him and I were very good friends.

In 2022, Anna and I made up somehow nd I had a new group in school in my last year of highschool and I was really happy that maybe things were working out. Althought Ken was skeptical of anna but I brushed it off, cuz he only knew her from what I have told and I knew her better.

In 2023-24, I met him twice and our meetup felt like we were good speaking online only, idk and I don't remember why it was so awkward to finally see someone after like 2-3 years but after it he started talking less and I thought he needed a break? And as I got busy in life with clg entrances we spoke occasionally only.]

But last night, he said I had discarded him cuz of Anna, and that he doesn't care about me and he's the happiest in life and that there's nothing common between us anymore and he doesn't need me even if I beg cuz noone's asking me to? and he's got a new 'HomeGirl' who's like an angel to him and she's the reason he's still speaking to me.

I have never felt my heart being this heavy, he kept spouting nonsense unaware of how hurtful it was all for me. I am afraid I can't move on, that shitty phase of life I had been able to go thru was because of him...

Should I talk to him one more time? Or let him have his peace..

I am planning to go for a watch but is it true that gaur mall rdc is not providing eng subtitles for 2D shows? Cuz when you go to book the seats the page shows that closed captions might not be available for some shows?

Has anyone been for a watch today? And can confirm it?

I am 21, currently preparing for CA inter, which became the first cause of argument- 'Why do you need to support the protest?' Then came the following insults targeting how I'd be dependent on them cuz it's taking me attempts to clear and they will not provide for me, (reminding these are their claims) I don't see or understand how much work they gotta do to insure there's a flowing income for everyone's need and how we should be grateful to BJP and it's ministers, these guys are 80 yr olds doing so much for the country, it wasn't pradhan's fault but the paper organizers, the kids who committed s****** were nothing to you and blah blah blah

Pata hai aaj kya hua

I am sorry to say I couldn't argue, I couldn't bring myself to yell facts in their face, couldn't tell them how they should stop worshipping these aholes in the name of saving their religion and country, how they shouldn't just believe whatever the heck the media and their stupid bjp IT cell facebook has got to say because my biggest enemy at that point was me myself. I know their gimmicks of making me feel shitty after this whole argument it would land on my studies, my potential, how I was able to do it at first and now I can't, how I am apparently not "serious" enough, how I am "going" to be a burden, how my friends are gonna settle soon and not talk to me cuz I am a failure.. All this lecture just cuz I supported Sonam Wangchuk just cuz I decided to stand with truth and not blind boot-licking.

I hadn't been speaking at all on this matter cuz I get it they won't understand, they had been fed that very information that 'Modi Is Great' 'Modi will keep Dharma Safe' for years, I can't break it in a year. It brings me shame to say that they are ready to bash me for something they are going crazy for no evident reason to be for it. And they can't digest that I for once think different from them.

I truly support this protest and I hope this brings change in this country cuz our parents are long gone from the stage of understanding, if you can make your parents understand congratulations, if you can't don't waste your energy.

I am 21, currently preparing for CA inter, which became the first cause of argument- 'Why do you need to support the protest?' Then came the following insults targeting how I'd be dependent on them cuz it's taking me attempts to clear and they will not provide for me, (reminding these are their claims) I don't see or understand how much work they gotta do to insure there's a flowing income for everyone's need and how we should be grateful to BJP and it's ministers, these guys are 80 yr olds doing so much for the country, it wasn't pradhan's fault but the paper organizers, the kids who committed s****** were nothing to you and blah blah blah

Pata hai aaj kya hua

I am sorry to say I couldn't argue, I couldn't bring myself to yell facts in their face, couldn't tell them how they should stop worshipping these aholes in the name of saving their religion and country, how they shouldn't just believe whatever the heck the media and their stupid bjp IT cell facebook has got to say because my biggest enemy at that point was me myself. I know their gimmicks of making me feel shitty after this whole argument it would land on my studies, my potential, how I was able to do it at first and now I can't, how I am apparently not "serious" enough, how I am "going" to be a burden, how my friends are gonna settle soon and not talk to me cuz I am a failure.. All this lecture just cuz I supported Sonam Wangchuk just cuz I decided to stand with truth and not blind boot-licking.

I hadn't been speaking at all on this matter cuz I get it they won't understand, they had been fed that very information that 'Modi Is Great' 'Modi will keep Dharma Safe' for years, I can't break it in a year. It brings me shame to say that they are ready to bash me for something they are going crazy for no evident reason to be for it. And they can't digest that I for once think different from them.

I truly support this protest and I hope this brings change in this country cuz our parents are long gone from the stage of understanding, if you can make your parents understand congratulations, if you can't don't waste your energy.

I am interested in taking part in korean speaking and writing competition held under KSIF. Although I am a pure newbie to korean language, so should I start with their free courses or take up a paid course? Also are physical classes being held in delhi anywhere? Or the paid ones are online too?