I thought of sharing this with this sub because these themes have been discussed here before. I know bookworms are probably the people who would understand this matter the most.

I'm not really a purist. I can separate the art from the artist, but only to a certain extent. However, I really wonder why my mind has become so fixated on this one statement or article that I'm not even sure actually existed.

Yesterday started as a normal morning until my mind drifted back to this article I vaguely remember reading. In it, an author whose works I really like briefly denied rumors of an affair with a woman many, many years ago. When I first read it a few years ago, I didn't pay much attention to it. But yesterday, for some reason, my mind became completely fixated on it. I wanted to find the article again so I could reassess whether I should believe it or not, but I couldn't find it. I even asked different AI platforms whether this author had ever been linked to another woman, and they all said no. I also Googled it, but I couldn't find anything.

My fixation feels weird for several reasons. First, I can't find anyone writing or talking about it, which makes me think it probably wasn't considered a credible issue in the first place. Second, even if that article did exist, I apparently found the explanation believable enough that I didn't think much of it when I first read it. It's only now that I've become so bothered by it. Third, maybe not being able to find the article again has made me even more fixated on it.

His works genuinely make me happy. Ever since yesterday, though, whenever I remember his works part of my mind has kept checking whether I'm bothered by this or not. My mind keeps nagging me, "Can you really support the works of a cheater?" And that's over an article I can't even confirm actually existed, about an issue that no one else seems to have treated as an issue to the point that AI and I can't find anything about it online. Like... omg. 😭

Thank you for taking the time to read this. 🙏 I feel like this is the only place where I can share these thoughts. I know it probably sounds weird to other people. 😭

Have you even felt the same thing? And how did you deal with it?

If meron

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Erratum: talk

I need books that have a strong basis for their constructive criticisms of the Philippines and Filipinos.

Lately, I have been interested with Philippine film history

In alphabetical order per decade:

* 1990 - Claudine Barretto & Judy Anne Santos

Notable mention: Jolina Magdangal

* 1980 - Maricel Soriano & Sharon Cuneta

Notable mentions: Janice de Belen, Manilyn Reynes, Snooky Serna

* 1970 - Nora Aunor & Vilma Santos

Notable mentions: Hilda Koronel & Alma Moreno

* 1960 - Amalia Fuentes & Susan Roces

Notable mentions: Charito Solis & Tessie Agana (Amy, Susie, Tessie)

* 1950 - Gloria Romero & Nida Blanca

Notable mentions: Alicia Vergel, Paraluman, Rosa Rosal, Tita Duran, Anita Linda

* 1940 - Carmen Rosales & Mila del Sol

Notable mentions: Lilia Dizon (mother of Christopher de Leon), Norma Blancaflor, Rosa del Rosario, Tita Duran (mother of Francis M)

* 1930 - Elsa Oria & Rosario Moreno

Notable mentions: Fely Vallejo & Rosa del Rosario

* 1920 - Atang de la Rama & Katy dela Cruz (portrayed by Julie Anne San Jose in “Pulang Araw”)

* 1910s - there was only one movie star of this decade, and that was Atang (“Dalagang Bukid”)

In my observation, not anymore. But I could be wrong, which is why I want to know your observations. As a history geek, I always encounter this name among Filipinas and mestizas until recently. Other Spanish names survived time, not this.

Preferably after college

Preferably after college

Guys, kapag may gagawin ako, it almost always has to be 7x! Kapag hindi, lalo na kapag certain numbers lang, something bad allegedly *happened* and *will happen* according to my illogical anxiety and magical thinking even though I know it’s baseless and it doesn’t make sense. That is how I think. I know, it’s illogical. It is EXHAUSTING. IT IS ILLOGICAL. EXHAUSTING. I know, I know. This is, I know, worsened by skipping meals and my insomnia. I know.

My mother knows about it, but due to the unfortunate experience of our family friend with a psychiatrist, she does not believe in them anymore. She told me I should instead practice natural relaxation techniques. Going back, what happened to our family friend is this: he has visited different psychiatrists from different prestigious hospitals and basically 1) nakapa-hirap magpa-schedule kaya nagpapalit-palit siya and 2) tuwing binibigyan nila ng gamot, nagre-relapse lang siya ulit kay binibigyan siya ng mas malakas na dose hanggang sa parang naging drug dependent na siya. The side effect was too much for him, nanginginig na lang siya bigla. One time, it happened in public space. Maybe the psychiatrist type of help worked for others, but for him it did not and this is why my mother is so skeptical. She told me what helped him best was not it.

I wish I can have the time to practice relaxation techniques the natural way. And I hope it works.