Monday-Tuesday, awake for 36 hours, Wednesday night-Thursday, awake for 26 and counting
I need advice, this has never happened to me before (40 year old man, in otherwise good health save for this onslaught of anxiety that is consuming me)
I posted earlier this week but on Monday night I couldn't sleep, went to every room in the house, no luck, next thing I knew it was 7:45 AM and my kids were running downstairs, I clocked ZERO (0) hours of sleep in a 26 hour cycle. The previous night too, probably only got 4-5 hours of sleep.
Couple this with the bacteria infection in my head, the toxic VOCs from the burning light we had earlier in the week (which is what really kick-started my anxiety) the neck/back pain, and the start of Flonase, I truly feel like this combo I'll one day look back on as the start of my path towards serious illness, cancer, ALS, Alzheimer's, etc.
It had to have done such damage, I don't know what to do :( so mad and scared and worried. I asked Google AI for studies and summaries about lack of sleep + infection combo to ease my fear and they only provided contradictory information that gave me more anxiety.
Tuesday night I laid down around10 PM, up at 11 PM. laid down at 11 PM up at Midnight.
Until, finally, I believe I slept from Midnight to 5 AM and then 5:15 AM to 7:45 AM and then 8:15 AM to 9:00 AM. So, I caught up a little.
But then it happened again last night, laid down at 10:30 after putting kids to bed, doing chores, no screens, etc.
Get my book and my wife again says just sleep in the guest room try to get some sleep.
I read until 11:30 unable to fall asleep. I finally fall asleep around midnight, then, boom, our youngest daugther has a nightmare...I've been up ever since.
That is twice this week I will have gone with 0 hours of sleep and twice on stretches of 36 hours wakefulness.
I'm so worried that I've ruined my life this week and my brain won't ever be able to clear this and set it back right. I also hurt my neck yesterday playing with the kids, which also made it harder to fall asleep, but also has me terrified of the combo of strained neck + no sleep and what that can equal for the brain.
Any real world perspective here. I need perspective that this is, while not normal, something that happens to people and they surive and don't look back on it as the start of cancer, or als, or Alzheimer's or the start of them losing their hair, etc. I'm terrified. and now worried, "what if it happens again tonight."