u/Whoamieven2023

An original arrangement of the old folk song Wayfaring Stranger, for string quartet and voice. For the audio playback I’ve replaced the synth choral with synth oboe.

Feeling incredibly sad these days and could use some kind words. I’m 37 and have never been in a relationship longer than 4 months.

I’m transitioning (mtf) have been on HRT 2.5 years.

Before transitioning, there was a period of some 10 years during which I was going on dates constantly, sometimes multiple times per week . There was always this (absurd) thought at the back of my mind that if I could just find a partner I could
successfully suppress those feelings of transness.

Today, I don’t feel the same urgency to find a partner but I do still want to find my special someone to settle down with. Someone who can be my rock and someone for whom I can be a rock.

But when I think too much about my lack of success romantically I start crying. I haven’t been physically intimate with someone for years but want to be.

I don’t really get matches on the dating apps, and I don’t feel comfortable going to any single mixers unless it’s targeted for queer people.

I try to remember what one counselor told me . I’ve only been dating as my real self for 2.5 years . Pre transition all that dating didn’t count in a way since I was not living my life authentically. And 2.5 years is not a long time to be single and looking.

Everything else in my life is going well and I am trying to focus on the many positives

Still, I just feel so lost and hopeless these days, especially when I consider how much time and effort I’ve put into finding someone.

Feeling incredibly sad these days and could use some kind words. I’m 37 and have never been in a relationship longer than 4 months.

I’m transitioning (male to female) have been on HRT 2.5 years.

Before transitioning, there was a period of some 10 years during which I was going on dates constantly, sometimes multiple times per week . There was always this (absurd) thought at the back of my mind that if I could just find a partner I could
successfully suppress those feelings of transness.

Today, I don’t feel the same urgency to find a partner but I do still want to find my special someone to settle down with. Someone who can be my rock and someone for whom I can be a rock.

But when I think too much about my lack of success romantically I start crying. I haven’t been physically intimate with someone for years but want to be.

I don’t really get matches on the dating apps, and I don’t feel comfortable going to any single mixers unless it’s targeted for queer people.

I try to remember what one counselor told me . I’ve only been dating as my real self for 2.5 years . Pre transition all that dating didn’t count in a way since I was not living my life authentically. And 2.5 years is not a long time to be single and looking.

Everything else in my life is going well and I am trying to focus on the many positives

Still, I just feel so lost and hopeless these days, especially when I consider how much time and effort I’ve put into finding someone.

Feeling incredibly sad these days and could use some kind words. I’m 37 and have never been in a relationship longer than 4 months.

I’m transitioning mtf have been on HRT 2.5 years.

Before transitioning, there was a period of some 10 years during which I was going on dates constantly, sometimes multiple times per week . There was always this (absurd) thought at the back of my mind that if I could just find a partner I could
successfully suppress those feelings of transness.

Today, I don’t feel the same urgency to find a partner but I do still want to find my special someone to settle down with. Someone who can be my rock and someone for whom I can be a rock.

But when I think too much about my lack of success romantically I start crying. I haven’t been physically intimate with someone for years but want to be.

I don’t really get matches on the dating apps, and I don’t feel comfortable going to any single mixers unless it’s targeted for queer people. I’m non-passing (in my opinion) and haven’t done voice training .

I try to remember what one counselor told me . I’ve only been dating as my real self for 2.5 years . Pre transition all that dating didn’t count in a way. And 2.5 years is not a long time to be single and looking.

Everything else in my life is going well and I am trying to focus on the many positives

Still, I just feel so lost and hopeless today when I consider how much time and effort I’ve put into finding someone.