u/Without_a_name24

I started Joe's meditations about a year ago, and since then, my entire life has shifted dramatically. Recently, though, I've been facing everything I've recently lost. My 10 year relationship, a 5 month situationship, I'm selling my house, and lost two dogs along with several smaller things. I know things like this happen to make space for better things in my life, but thats so hard to see right now. Has anyone gone through this? Any word of encouragement or advice from the other side?

I just completed session 30 out of 36 scheduled sessions, and my doctor offered to request for more sessions with my insurance because my depression scores still are not where she'd like them. I'm a bit hesitant to do more treatment because it is time consuming and, while I think it may be helping me some, I question if more time would be more beneficial. Have any of you done more than 36 sessions and felt the extra time was worth it?

Does anyone have any recommendations for a book that would be a good place to start with someone whose new to Somatic Experiencing? I'm also planning on seeing a somatic therapist, but I'd love to read any books on the topic or practice if anyone knows any.

I got broken up with for the first time several weeks ago, and heartbreak hurts so much more than I ever expected. In all my past relationships, I was the one who ended things. This time, it was barely even a full relationship, but she ended things, and I'm devastated. I thought I was finally doing ok, but I saw her post something on social media and broke down again. When does this pain go away? We were only dating for a few months, I wasn't expecting this pain to be so intense.

Finding people I truly connect with has never been easy. Once in awhile, I'll meet someone who I feel like I fully connect with, and it feels so good to finally have a friend that I'm not intensely masking around and I can just be open with. In reflection, I think a lot of these people are also autistic without adhd (same as me), which is why I feel so understood by them. Every time I meet one of these people, it feels like we have this intense bond initially, but, at some point, they just disappear from my life. There's not usually much warning or reason, they just stop replying to me or making plans, and, if we stay in communication, they become a distant acquaintance, and it hurts so bad every time. I'm going through this right now, and the longer I go without hearing from her, the more painful it is because I know I might never hear from her again. I don't want to keep reaching out because I want to respect her space, but I just want to know why this keeps happening. Like am I just too much unmasked? Too weird? Do I make people uncomfortable? I don't get what I'm doing wrong and why I always end up feeling so alone.

Also, if any if you have been on the other side of this (made a close friend and then felt you needed to end the friendship by becoming distant) why?? Like I genuinely want to know what keeps going wrong.