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ok so the steam controller is heavy but what if we added a mount for phones it would be even heavier. how would it be mounted tho?

was playing mid game and it just stopped working decided to test out the inputs nothing. tried to turn the controller off nothing but then when i repugged the dongle it wanted to update the dongle and then plug in the controller to update it.

idk maybe it glitched but if it really was a force update thing thats so stupid what is this? tesla?

wondering if other people experienced this. im not mad about it its just kind of annoying it is good it gets updates but i shouldn't have to update it in the middle of my play sesh

and people said switch 2 emulation would happen right away? where is it???

didn't have enough money to get the switch 1 v1 at the time had the switch 1 v2 instead. been wanting a modded switch for so long

BUT OF COURSE i get a launch switch 2 day1 and STILL NOTHING its so over

i am feeling way better noe I'm in a good mental state. yet these past days i have been crying but its like only my eyes cry? is this the result of new emotions coming back and my body not knowing how to regulate them?

i don't feel dead inside i am feeling more alive then ever and more happy too.

i did have those headaches symptoms and trouble sleeping but it is getting better!

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been thinking if i should do a month/two month break or quit forever. but i might have a good middle ground. go sober for two months 100%. but aftet that i can drink/get high on special occasions/parties. i just can't buy weed/alch for myself and can't keep it home. I'm not a recovering alcoholic just a recovering stoner.

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i think i got this under control i can definitely do this. my next step is quitting porn and i gotta say being sober has definitely had my impulses under control. i just have to keep pushing and moving forward.

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sorry if im just using this subreddit as a diary loll. it does help me think better

i decided to go 1 month sober im on day 4, i might extend this tho. weed and porn are the main addictions alcohol i can control easily.

the strangest thing tho is i think not getting high has lost my craving for porn? like i can control my impulses better. which i find so strange i guess weed makes you more of a horndog

but now idk if i should go back to weed again after my break. i wanna at least get high friday/saturdays but if i do try to do that i am afraid ill just end up getting high and goon everyday again.

maybe i should take a big break from weed and focus on not goonin. but dont goon until weekends then go from there, because if i try to not do it forever and then i cave in im just gonna end up giving up and do it everyday.

but then again i feel like a different person like i have control of my thoughts because no weed. i guess i will try to update this

alcohol i can control no problem. weed on the other hand is hard for me especially since i use carts/ dab rigs. i drank all of my alcohol and smoked all my weed away friday.

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noticed I'm more motivated and less lazy also feeling better too. but i am at a dilema. should i quit weed for good? or try to go back to getting high only friday/Saturday. I'm afraid if i go option #2 I'll just end up being high everyday again.

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been using alcohol and weed for 5 years. last time i got weed was 2 1g carts and 3 1g dabs on 4/20 just gone 3 days ago. i say this because i talk to other stoners and they say i made that last.

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so maybe I'm not heavily addicted. I'm able to sleep just fine no withdrawals. i do get cravings.

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for a person who sleeps well has no pain and my mental state being better without it. do i really need weed? is it beneficial to me or is it making me worse in the long run?

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i guess a big part of it is literally most of my friends online and in real life do substance abuse. ESPECIALLY in vrchat that place is terrible especially dj events and everything. so obviously i get fear of missing out/ jealous sorta

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i kinda wanna go two months but one month for now. maybe once i succeed i should go back to weed and see if i can control it to just fri/sat and if i can't. then maybe it's better than i quit for good?

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do you guys think 1 month sober is good? or should i go longer or perhaps quit forever? thanks for reading!