u/YuleBunny

Sorry if I make any typos or grammar mistakes I’m crying really hard right now. I joined OCIA in May after coming back. I grew up Catholic but fell away to become pagan then atheist but after years of depression and anxiety I came back and I’m free from those chains. I’m two weeks away from confirmation and I’m struggling so much. Father said that this is going to happen that people might be meaner, we might get irritated easily, more depressed, more anxious and that it’s spiritual warfare. I’m really struggling with that.

I had a lover of the sorts, we never made it official but we kissed, held hands, cuddled and had sex. Recently, I helped him get a job, quit nicotine, reach out to more friends and understand his childhood trauma and how that affects him to this day. Since he quit nicotine he’s been getting snappy with me and irritated easily. When he reached out to my best friend’s sister he’s been so mean. She’s a bad person and I thought if we could get close to her we can help her but now he’s just mean. I’ve been so insanely depressed to the point where every day I think about suicide when I haven’t in two years. Naturally, I’m not going to act myself and he takes it as me being upset that he’s with another girl. Last night I was really angry at myself and at the girl for hurting my best friend; I screamed outside my best friend’s house (he was over to hang out with the girl) and I just went off about her. I went home and started speeding thinking to myself “if I yank the wheel into that tree it’ll be over” so I pulled over and started crying. All I wanted was my dad. I got home and he was too drunk to even stand so I went back to my best friend’s house. I asked to stay the night but the girl wouldn’t get off the couch so I could sleep and I left.

I couldn’t go home but I didn’t have anywhere to go so I went to my local church and called the suicide hotline. After hanging up, I went to the Jesus statue they have and stayed there for an hour just looking up at him. Today, I tried to make things better with my lover-friend but he got mad at me and said really nasty stuff and told me to leave him alone. I am inconsolable. My coworkers and managers are all worried about me because I started sobbing at work, my sister is coming out of state to come visit me, my dad is coming home from work early to be with me, my best friend’s mom asked me if I wanted her to take me to the ER to be admitted to the psych ward. I know why God is doing this, he’s causing me to sin and he needs to be out of my life but it’s so painful. I know that the depression and suicidal thoughts aren’t me and I feel like I’m going through this to be able to come out stronger or maybe it’s because spirits are trying to convince me God isn’t real or he’s evil. God has been so quiet lately. I go to adoration and I can’t hear him, I pray at mass and I can’t hear him. I pray in my car and I can’t hear him, I pray at home and I can’t hear him.

Father said this was going to happen but it’s still so incredibly painful. Every day that gets closer to the date the harder it is. I completely relapsed in my bulimia and self harm and I’m scared about what might happen if I keep going the way I’m going but it feels like I can’t stop. I use my bulimia and my self harm to help cope with my depression but it only makes it worse. I have people that truly love me and support me but it still feels like I’m so alone. The only thing keeping me going is the thought that I can receive the eucharist soon. I’m going to call a therapist on Monday to get profession help and talk to Father tomorrow before OCIA. I don’t know how to deal with this nor do I know how to keep going. I find so much comfort in God so I don’t know why it feels like prayers aren’t helping. When I’m in adoration I feel calm and safe but once I leave I’m right back to the depression I was escaping from.

I (19F) got a call around two hours ago from my friend saying that she found a stray cat. The cat got into her car and was super friendly. Her mom wouldn’t let her take it home so I let it stay with me as my cats are up to date on vaccines and friendly (nonetheless she’s in a separate room). I opened a can of wet food and the kitty instantly recognized it which I thought was odd but I know people like to feed strays wet food so I didn’t question it. The next sign was the fact that it knew the crinkle of a Temptation’s bag. My friend fed it all of my chicken nuggets so I showed her my treat bag and said that she could’ve fed it that. The cat’s ears instantly perked up and it started pawing at her. My friend was still in denial when I brought it up so I shook it and the cat instantly started meowing. She was in denial still so I told her to give her one of the mouse toys I bought since stray cats usually don’t know how to play with toys. My friend tossed it and the cat instantly pounced and started playing with it.

In her defense, the neighborhood she was in has a high stray cat population. There is an animal hoarder in the neighborhood and without proper care the cats reproduce very rapidly. The cat’s right ear is cut in half (very cleanly, evenly and healed) which she says shows that it’s living in the streets. The cat also has a weird rib but the cat shows no pain in the area so we aren’t sure if it’s scoliosis or a broken rib. If it is broken, that’s another point of her however if it’s not treatable then it’s a point for me. We’re extremely confused and conflicted but either way the cat is staying with us tonight. We will call the vet when they open tomorrow to see if they can check her for a microchip but before then we wanted to get Reddit’s advice. Thank you in advance!

Hi everybody as the title states, I got cleaner in my charging port! For some backstory I was at work and had my Iphone 14 plus on my cart while I was changing out my all purpose cleaner. It spilled out and landed on my phone and somehow it got inside the charging port. My phone didn't charge last night so I plugged it into a charging station we have and left it there without seeing the wet port notification. I left it there for about 20 minutes (yikes I know) before checking up on it and seeing the pop up. I let it dry for two hours before trying again when it gave me the same error. I cleaned the inside with a disposable lipstick applicator which gave no result so I let it dry for another hour. When I got the chance, I used a rolled up paper towel to clean the inside which helped a lot. I let it charge for about an hour and it worked.

That was 10 hours ago and now my phone need to charge again. It was on 8% when I plugged it in then it got to 5% then 3%, I restarted it and when it turned on it got to 1%. It started charging again so I left it but then it went back down. I restarted it again then once more it showed 1%. I've been charging it for over an hour and it is now at 0% despite being plugged in. Am I cooked and should I throw in the towel or is there some secret methid I can use?