u/_Il_Predestinato_

Guys, I went to Bangalore to prepare for UCEED-IIT at a coaching centre. There were only three students there, me and two girls. I got really close to one of them, and slowly we started dating.

We became insanely close. She introduced me to her family, told me she wanted a future with me, and somewhere along the way, her family became my family too. Bangalore was lonely for me, I had nobody there. Sometimes I’d even stay at their house. Her mom took care of me like I was her own son. For the first time in my life, I felt like I truly belonged somewhere.

We studied together, stressed together, dreamed together. Then the UCEED results came out… and both of us got into the same college. We were so happy. We started making plans like taking rooms nearby, how our college life would be, everything. The only issue was that the college was in the North, and convincing my parents was hard. But somehow, I managed to make them agree.

And then suddenly, the NEET results came. I got a seat in one of the top government medical colleges. My whole house exploded in celebration. My mom started thanking God, informing relatives, even telling people at church. I told them clearly that I didn’t want MBBS. I wanted design. I wanted the life I had planned for myself, but nobody listened. I had a dying grandmother at that time, and there was this very influential church father who kept brainwashing my mom, saying this was “God’s plan” and that rejecting medicine would be a sin and all that. I felt completely trapped and helpless.

And the worst part was… I didn’t know how to tell her. So I started avoiding her calls. Avoiding her texts. I kept lying, saying my grandmother was critical, saying things were hectic, saying I’d see her at college soon… because somewhere deep down, I still hoped something would change and I’d somehow end up there with her.

But the next thing I knew, I was sitting inside an MBBS hostel after enrollment. I completely broke mentally. I stopped talking to everyone. I became suicidal. I didn’t even have the courage to explain anything to the girl who loved me the most.

One day, she saw the final enrolled students list. My name wasn’t there. After that she kept trying to reach me, but I still kept running away like a coward.

Then one week after classes started, her friends suddenly showed up at my medical college. One of the girls slapped me. She spit on me and screamed, “How could you abandon her like this?” They told me she was leaving that weekend and wanted to see me once before going.

I thought maybe this was my last chance to fix everything somehow. So I lied to my hostel warden saying my grandmother had died, took a bike, rushed to Chennai airport, and went there to see her. When I reached, I saw her standing there with her mom and friends. She looked at me… and immediately walked inside the terminal. There was this huge glass wall between us. She looked at me through that glass and suddenly started crying loudly… Her friends were pulling me away while I just stood there frozen. And then I saw her mom. That face still haunts me.

That woman treated me like her own child when I had nobody in Bangalore. She trusted me. She accepted me. She probably imagined me as her daughter’s future husband someday. And there she was… standing there with tears in her eyes, looking completely broken because of what I did to her daughter. I watched the girl I loved walk away from me forever, and I did nothing.

Like in my previous relationships, it was always the girl who walked away, broke up, ghosted, cheated, and I was the one who got hurt. But this time it was different. This time, I was the one who destroyed everything, and I still can’t forgive myself for what I did. The worst feeling is knowing someone loved you with their whole heart, but you were too broken, too scared, and too weak to protect that love.

Years passed. Now I’m doing my internship, and today I got a text from her… her marriage invitation. I just wanted to say all this because I was watching a Mia & Sebastian’s Theme reel, and suddenly all these memories came flooding back and broke me all over again.

So I suggest you all, please pick the right course and have a plan for your life. Don’t let anyone else decide your future for you. And never hurt someone you truly love. Do what you love, before one decision changes your whole life forever.

TL;DR: I was a coward.

Guys, recently my aunt found out that my uncle had been cheating on her with 4 other women... They literally just had a baby after 12 years of marriage and they had even bought a new house recently. The housewarming was supposed to happen this week... Like genuinely, there was never even a single clue that my uncle would do something like this. He always looked like the perfect husband and father. I was completely shocked when I heard it, I honestly thought my aunt was joking at first.

And that’s what’s messing with my head the most... why are some men like this? When you already have a loving family, everything seems peaceful, no huge fights at home, a wife who stood with you through years of struggle, and finally a child after so long... why cheat? Especially at a time like this?

Now because of all this, my aunt has started looking at me differently too. She keeps giving me lectures about being a “good human” and not becoming like my uncle. My mom and aunt have both started comparing me with him indirectly. Whenever any small issue comes up, they suddenly become emotional and say things like “you’re the only support we have now” or “please don’t become like your uncle.”

And honestly those conversations hurt so much because I’ve literally done nothing wrong. My own mom has started doubting me over normal things. Like if I go out somewhere, she’ll randomly ask “are you going to drink?” when I have never even touched alcohol in my life.

I hate being mentally grouped together with my uncle just because I’m also a man from the same family. It feels so unfair. I already feel terrible for my aunt and the whole situation, and now on top of that I feel like people around me have started seeing me differently too.

And the worst part is, my mom’s relationship with my dad already isn’t good... now this happened with my uncle too. The whole atmosphere at home feels heavy and broken. It’s honestly affecting me mentally a lot.

Like I’m already going through internship as an UG MBBS student and that alone is destroying my physical and mental health. I’m already exhausted all the time, stressed, barely taking care of myself properly, and now this whole family situation on top of it just feels too much. I genuinely feel mentally drained these days.

Sigh.