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I have been reading about some killers for a while now (purely out of interest). And I noticed some of them kill their victims by torturing them,making them go through hell and others just simply kill them,without giving them a hard time.

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What's the most weirdest/interesting way a killer has killed their victim in your opinion?

I'm a young woman, and I have never been engaged in any form of sex. I haven't even kissed anybody. I find the idea of it repulsive,imagine someone else's saliva going inside your mouth,if anything, that is disgusting. Multiple people have asked me about my sexual activity, and every time, it ends the same way.

"Oh, but every human being likes sex."

"Why would someone marry you if you won't give them sex?"

"Well, then nobody will marry you, they can just hire a prostitute."

It's weird how every single time, they see a woman as a sex slave, as if people marry only to have sex. They act as if I'm some sort of alien for not liking the idea of sex. People need to stop acting like not liking the concept of sex is some sort of barbaric opinion.

I just want to know about people's experiences, that's all.

Does anyone here know a place from where I could adopt a cat?

Just so everyone knows, I have never been involved in any type of violence or whatsoever. But since a long time I have had this feeling inside of me wanting to beat someone up. I go out,I see a person and I imagine beating the living shit out of them. I want to gauge their eyes out,tear off their skin,step on their face and just torture them. I would never do such things to anybody. I know these kind of thoughts aren't okay but I can't help it,I can't restrain myself from thinking about it.

Does anybody here have similar thoughts?

I am a Muslim by birth. Since childhood, I have had my doubts about religion and what purpose it serves as a whole system. I was more in favor of my religion as a child, but the more I learned and searched for answers, the farther I deviated away from God. Some days I feel like there's a higher deity that can help me out of my misery and that nothing else is of use, but other days I feel like, after all, God is the one who sent me to a world full of suffering. I see all these people around me suffering, dying at a young age, and being tormented by life, and that makes me question.How can God be so cruel? God knew that these people would suffer in life and that they would get treated like shit by others, but still sent them to this world. For what? To show them how very kind God actually is? That's barbaric. I feel deeply ashamed writing such stuff about a God that I once cried and begged to. I just can't do it anymore, nothing makes sense anymore.

I still wouldn't consider myself as an exmuslim but I feel like i'm almost there.(I have my doubts and i'm agnostic). So,I have been searching and trying to study about "right hand possesses" and I have found some ayats in Quran about it but I still need a deeper understanding on this matter.

Can someone provide me with more hadiths and ayats where the term is mentioned and explained explicitly?