

I need help 🙏
Age -21 years gender-male
Me and my gf did our first and last Intercourse on 3rd day of menstrual cycle on 24th December 2025. It was done using condom. Now from the month of January I have been fearing what if she is pregnant. She is getting Bleeding every month on 21st Jan 17th February 15th March 10th April 6th may 10th june 7th July 7th August. All are pad filling Bleeding. She also did 4 urine pregnancy test all negative.
Actually the fear subsided after her April Bleeding. But what happened next was we met again on 2nd may. But as the fear of intercourse was there so I decided not to indulge in any intercourse not even a protective one. So I decided to stick to foreplay only like mutual masturbation, oral sex, breast touching, handjob. This is what we exactly did. On 2nd may, I made sure that there no genital-genital contact between us. I ensured that my penis didn't even touch her vulva. I made myself sanitized my hand after Every touch and also did the same for her. Even when she was sitting on my thighs I made sure her genitals don't touch my genitals anyway.
All this was fine. **But one instance she was lying beside me naked and I was facing the roof. She was rubbing my genital part with her hand. Her legs were closed at the time of ejaculation. I ejaculated in the air. Like how semen behaves , it got scattered here and there on the bedsheet. Some fell on my lower belly,some on her hand and some on her outer thigh of the top leg. I cleaned that area immediately. I have attached the picture of the position we were in.**
This was one of the two times I ejaculated on 2nd may. Another time we both were fully dressed and was in the same position. Now even without doing piv intercourse and no anal sex and no genital-genital I am fearing what if something happens to her. She got her bleeding on 6th may, 10th june 7th July then on 7th August. She is telling me and making me understand this is not the way one gets pregnant. I know that but in reddit many people says without piv intercourse people get pregnant, cyclic regular monthly Bleeding then also people pregnant and urine pregnancy test negative then also pregnant.
Now amid all this I am thinking what if something like that happens to me. She is not anxious at all. She is completely fine. **But I am thinking: what if the Bleeding is not her periods but subchronic hematoma or decidual Bleeding? What if she used water instead of urine for the test as she might be tensed to do the test? What if I met her in between 24th December and 2nd may and I have no proof of that ( but she told me at every meet we clicked pics and it is all stored in my phone)?**
I am myself in a dilemma thinking is it my mental issue problem or should I get her checked. Now she is telling me" I did everything for you to make you convince. I explained to you the situation we were in, I did two urine pregnancy test, I am showing you my period pics. She is also telling me if anything happens to me , I will be the one who will be facing the consequences so why are you thinking I will use water instead of urine to do the test. Today I can hide but tomorrow I can't and look what we did on 2nd may there was no intercourse at all and no genital-genital contact also. Now will I not even touch you as well. You have to believe me otherwise you will become mad."
I don't know what to do. I need all of your suggestions. Please help me. I feel like crying 😭. I feel extremely lonely.