u/abusedbygrimes

Hey everyone,

So I’ve been really into alternative/gothic style for some years now. The all black fits, the darker aesthetic, the whole vibe just feels like it matches me on a deep level. I’ve been wanting to actually start dressing like that for months but I keep holding back because my sister keeps warning me and honestly it’s messing with my head.

She says if I show up to college looking like that people are gonna stare, take pictures of me behind my back, call me satanic or weird, and that nobody’s gonna wanna be friends with me. She’s also convinced I’ll have zero job opportunities later and that people might even assume I’m into some cult shit. I know Egypt is super conservative and she’s probably saying this to protect me, but it’s making me feel like I have to choose between being myself and having any kind of normal future.

I’m not trying to go crazy with it or anything, I just want to wear what I like without feeling like I’m destroying my life. So I wanted to ask honestly:

Are there any Egyptians (or Arabs) here who dress alt/goth? How do people actually react in university, on the street, or with family? Is it as bad as she says or is it manageable if you’re not too extreme? I’m worried I’ll end up isolated or judged everywhere and it’s lowkey making me feel stuck and kinda depressed about it.

Would really appreciate any real experiences, even if it’s harsh. Just wanna know if there’s actually hope for someone like me here or if I should just keep hiding this side of myself.

ive been trying to find hair stylists who can style long hair for so long but i cant come across anyone, every barber here just does fades and cuts short hair, so then i search for salon its the same thing just reworded for some reason, would anyone happen to know any places that can style very long hair for men?

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the healing is so nasty on it but i was wondering what could this build be better against and worst against? because i dont think this is a type of build i can just go everygame

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im not tryna stereotype or be rude or anything i was just curious if theres anything related to like online trans people being always horny?