u/aggravating_bus4689

I am drunk as I type this so sorry for anyway spelling mistakes

I’m on my second bottle of vodka ever, the first time I drank was right before my 18th birthday which was 9? 10? Months ago and I got a bottle of vodka 3-4 days ago and I’m really drunk tonight and my dysphoria is almost nonexistent, I feel amazing I feel like a cis guy, I’ve never felt so relaxed and I’ve been on diazepam before lol.

I know drinking is bad but it makes me feel like a cis guy, and I have no one to talk to but yk it’s okay I feel fine right now

it's currently 597 AUD.

I'll only be using it for youtube/movies/discord and spotify mostly in bed

I’ve been t for 6 months, and I was on testogel 12.5mg 1% for the first 4 months and 15 days than I switched to enantate (primoteston) 250mg/1ml EVERY 3 MONTHS, fucking 3 months which is way below the standard dose, and I’m not supposed to have another shot for another 44 days but I feel like absolute shit, I have no energy, my period came back, my dysphoria is sky high and I’m wearing a binder all day and night most weeks, and I’m just feeling suicidal in general.

So I just feel betrayed? Idk but I’m a BINARY trans GUY not a non binary person that wants to be on a low dose.

And obviously I’ve known I was on a lose dose since the start but my doctor told me it was to “get my body used to the testosterone” or whatever but it makes me so mad that I could have had a voice drop at 2 or 3 months on t, and maybe if I started on a higher dose my period would have stopped instantly.

I'm upgrading to am5 in a couple of months, and was wondering do I buy 16gb ddr5 in like 2 maybe 4 weeks time, or wait to see if prices drop within the next 3 and half months?

5 months on t and my back has gotten wider, so now it's more triangular shaped like a dorito and, my brand new sock drawer heroes binder is stretched out which took about a week of normal daily wearing, so now I have two binders that don't really bind anymore and I can't use kt/trans tape because my skin hates the adhesive.

So any suggestions? would this happen with a spectrum binder? I've been thinking of buying one but it's 95 dollars, and I had problems with it being too loose around my ribs when I was pre t.

so a little back story, my little sister who turned 17 in march and has been out since may 2024 could she start hrt with only one parents consent? our dad doesn't have any legal custody over us or whatever it's called so we wouldn't need his consent right?

And my doctor that I see for my hrt does informed consent, so could she also do informed consent at 17 with just our mums consent and skip all the whole gender dysphoria diagnosis and therapy stuff?

also we live in Adelaide.

I have been on testogel 12.5mg for the past 19 weeks, but I switched to shots today but my dose is 250mg/1ml every 3 months which seems a bit low, and I'm just worried in like 3/4 weeks time I'll feel horrible because my levels will be too low.

And I last had my levels checked at 3 months and they were 10.50 nmol/L and pre t it was 1.69 nmol/L

so is this a normal dose? and fyi my gp had me on a low dose of testogel because I'm slightly underweight.

Taping helps my dysphoria a lot but makes me itch like crazy, and skin second skin makes me itch as well, I also get red bumps and a red outline on my skin even if I use just kt tape or second skin by its self. Oh and second skin keeps ripping my skin off even though I’m not touching it😭.

The brand is d3 kt tape and the second skin brand, I can’t remember what it is