i think its possible and a cool find, or just a coincidence. but he does say it was one of his favourite albums just 4 years before fortitude came out, so maybe it was even a subconscious inspiration.
I've been playing for 10 years, I live with my parents, for some reason it's it's hard to just sit down and practise because I feel embarrassed, not about my skills, I'm the best drummer I've ever met, but I feel so awkward about it, like hey everyone, listen to me drumming. I don't even know what it is, I guess I just hate being perceived in general, but I haven't practised in 2 weeks cos of this stupid issue.
Recently my sleep schedule has been quite arsehole so whenever I'm awake there is always atleast 2 people in the house.
Maybe it's also because if I start playing the loud sounds it'll give my family members some sort of weird signal like "I'm up now so now is a good time to come bother me",
when I'm drumming is the opposite time to bother me because I'll get really annoyed if I'm in the zone and someone comes in mid song or if I'm really into the repetive motions of practise.
Also, sometimes I get really upset if I'm flopping hard, and then it really annoys me when I imagine the people downstairs like "the drumming sounds great!" That's more just me fighting with myself, lmao.
And since my sleep schedule is bad I just don't want to play as soon as I wake up and then have to talk to family members.
Does anyone else struggle with something similar as a musician or something unrelated that takes up perceived space?
So far I'm thinking I'll ask my family not to interupt me when I start practising and I'm also considering wearing my noise cancelling headphones rather than the less noise cancelling ones I've been using for some reason. I'll see how that goes but I would like to hear anyone else's suggestions or just hear others relate. It might be the actual noises of the drums that are bothering me, so might be that sensory thing. I also have adhd so it might be task avoidance/demand avoidance since I'm taking lessons now to help with reading music.
Feels to me like i just have way too many small things piling up for me and it's making it hard to do something so simple!
Okay, thanks for reading
lots of movies i download say theyll only work with the HEVC extension, i ran out of use of the free version, so im wondering is there a way to still watch those movies without the extension or a way to use it for free?
i want to start testosterone. im autistic so i want to be as prepared as possible for anything ill be expected to do. i also want my mam to help me with this process, so i want to know its worth it before i bring it up with her.
whats the entire process like? i dont have a medical history or any conditions besides adhd and autism.
if i get parental consent, which is fortunately likely, what is the process of getting private access to T in Ireland? how long does the process take, what is the best way to go about it?
honestly didnt realise i was at this for so long, ive been trying to frame a simple question in the perfect way so i dont get misinterpreted. why do i even try
wheres is video where he talks about trump and the vaccines causing autism? im tryna find the sccreenshot of the news title just being "autism revealed"
im in school and i take an engineering class. we didnt get to choose the subjects which really sucks because i suck at engineering and i have an issue with asking for help because of my anxiety.
so i kinda just sat through those classes and did nothing. the teacher didnt care at all.
but for the grade an interviewer comes in and asks some questions about our task for extra points.
i didnt do the project at all so what should i do? when the person who goes before me is finnished theyll come back and tell me its my turn. do i have to go in and be like "yo i didnt do a project! nice one!" nah fuck that. i guess ill have to talk to my year head and tell her i cant do it. shes mean so shell prolly give me hell...
should i just not go in on the day? thats what i plan on doing but ive already missed 6 days of school in a row so my ma will be pissed.
its been impossible to get up for shcool the past two weeks for some reason. schools not even that bad but its so overstimulating yet understimulating at the same time, or its one or the other all day and then i get home and spend the rest of the day trying to come down from the hell i just experienced and then i stay up late watching movies because i wasnt able to do it while i was 'coming down'.
when im in school its actually not that bad. i try to live moment to moment, but in the morning i just cant convince myself that its worth getting out of bed. like i know i can move my legs to get up but my own brain is litterally telling my legs "dont move! dont do it!" and my brain is at the same time saying "i really want to go to school so my ma isnt pissed" so i just wake up and stay in bed.