u/bingerer

Im 16m and my life is boring as hell. I have a crush irl but I don't think its gonna go anywhere 😭. So i just wanna hear about yalls crushes cus i have nothing better to do

Idk why they're so sweet

The whole album puppy love by mom jeans is full of them and i want more

Meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow :3

It hurts and i wish i could meow it all away

I just went through a week of holiday mostly alone in my house and i feel like im going insane. No one really knows this more feminine side of me irl and i feel like im not myself when im with my friends. I don't feel like i can connect with them fully. I don't live in a very accepting place so im scared to show this side of me. I've been trying so hard for the past few months to improve myself and things have gotten better but this is the one aspect i still haven't improved. Im scared that I'll never be able to connect with anyone. I wish people could see the real me...

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Anyways hope everyone is doing okay <333

For context, I don't have a lot of friends who i feel very close with and I've been pretty lonely in my teenage years.

There's this one girl from another class who i played some games together with cus my friend was playing with her and i wanted to join. We played some games together and she sounded interested when talking to me (by interested i mean she didn't sound like she was forced to talk to me and sounded like she was having fun) and now i have a crush on her.

But the more i think about it, the more i feel like it was probably just another normal day for her but to me it meant a lot because I rarely ever feel like i could connect with other people ):

I will try to be careful because i know from my last relationship that attention can often be mistaken as love. I will still continue to love myself but I can't really control my feelings for her.

Aaaaaaaa my emotions are all a mess right now and i would love if i could hear from girls because i really wonder how it's like from the other side sometimes.

I feel like I can't really connect with people irl very well and exams have been stressful so the loneliness is really getting to me ): I hope i can find some people who are also in the same boat.

About me: i love listening to music and discussing about it (rap, general noisy stuff, hyperpop, midwest emo, indie rock and a bit of jazz). I love making music and i play the guitar (though im not the most experienced). I also love watching clouds and identifying them :3

Anybody is welcome!!!