u/captainjupiterx

It's my turn to complain about it. Bear with me.

Three people. Three entire ass people have told me I am very sweaty today and I have been here 4 hours. I know that!!! How could I not!!! IT'S DRIPPING DOWN MY NECK AND FACE.

I understand that sometimes people are just concerned. I have rosacea as well, so I get a very red face while I am sweating profusely. It looks pretty bad.

I know they're not trying to hurt my feelings. But God *damn* dude. What am I even expected to say? I'm an open book so it's not like I am uncomfortable sharing that it's a medical problem, but it just gets irritating.

Plus... I'm obese. People will assume the craziest things about you when your fat and don't even say anything about it. Can't you just assume I'm sweaty *because* I'm fat? 😭 why bring it up? If I were a pettier person I'd start open mouth sobbing when people say anything just to torture them

I'm just tired of it. Can we please stop telling people they're sweaty? Im actually begging

As a kid, I had really heavy periods and unbearable cramps. When they stopped responding to any treatment (various pain meds, heating pads), I started bc.

In college, I started having very intense mood swings (very hair trigger anger which is NOT normal for me) that made me afraid I would hurt myself or others. I adjusted my anxiety and depression meds to no avail. I started skipping my periods, and it stopped, so from then on I stopped menstruating. It has been about 7 years now.

I also experience bleeding during sex. No pain, I use lube., fingers/toys/partner all give the same result.

In the last year, I started having mood swings again. I gained 100 pounds. I would get random pains in my pelvis that were intense but brief. Sweating off the charts, exhausted all the time. My body goes through periods of aching and exhaustion that makes me barely able to walk. Everything is very taxing.

About 2 months ago, I started having these pains when I orgasm. The first time it was so bad my teeth chattered for 10 minutes. Absolutely unbearable pain.

I had already been to my PCP for bloodwork to see if my thyroid had shut down. He said everything was normal. I knew gyno was the best next step, especially because my family has a history of uterine cancer/fibroids/endo/etc.

It took me over a month to get in. The doctor pool for my insurance is very limited. I told the doctor everything - the pains, the bleeding, my family history - everything.

She did a pap and sti test. Clear. I just had my transvag ultrasound. All clear.

And that's it.

She offered to change my birth control. That was it. Said we could do it if I was "still having symptoms" as if they'd just... magically gone away? I was VERY clear that this (except the orgasm pains) had been ongoing. She also said if I could "live with" the bleeding then just let her know if the symptoms get worse.

Like what???? I'm just supposed to bleed all over my partner and his stuff then? Just ignore all the signs something is wrong unless it gets worse? Are you serious? Not even a *suggestion* of a PCOS test or larascopy. No MRI or anything.

I'm supposed to have a video chat with her on the 20th, but I'm pretty close to just cancelling it. I know I should toughen up and either tell her I want to continue testing or find a new doctor, but I'm immediately overwhelmed and exhausted. I know if I ask for something and she downplays it I'll just get upset and cry. Might work in my favor, but I'm sick of humiliating myself.

She was really well reviewed, so I don't even know where to turn because apparently that means jackshit.

I'm just so lost and angry. Why do we have to fucking beg for help? I'm tired of feeling like shit all the time.

I have always been highly introverted. I am a very chatty person, but I have to be absurdly comfortable with someone before I am regularly speaking without being spoken to first.

Unfortunately, I'm also kinda fuckin weird, so I think some people don't get me at all. It's been a suck combo that left me with very few friends.

As a kid, I would use role-playing forums to express myself and get my social needs taken care of. I not only had some online friends to talk to regularly, but a whole board of people to interact with as well. It was so awesome. It's what made me feel like a person.

Now everything is so different.

I use Reddit and such in much the same way. I'm sharing my thoughts and offering perspectives. I'm just talking. I'm trying to have a discussion. But everyone gets so mad, you know? Like it's always a fight.

It isn't, though. It's not a fight. It's a conversation. I want to know what you think and I want you to know what I think. We can really hash it out and learn some things. We can have a connection.

I ask people questions and they tell me to Google it. I don't want to Google it. I don't want to know the answer. I want to hear you explain it. Or see you explain it I guess. I want to know whay that means to you. Even if you are wrong and stupid. I just want to know. And to think about it and you.

It's so hard. I feel so strange in public. It's a lot harder to ask pathetic questions and talk about my feelings. I just want to have a conversation with you for me

Has anyone seen literally any plus size retailer out there rn that's selling summer clothes that are in any way desirable?

I'm being so serious. Everywhere I have checked so far is giving shopping with mom at JCPenney. There has to be some heat somewhere, right??