I’m not a big selfie taker. However, I’m a premature Aquarius (1/27 - was supposed to be around 4/15)
I’ve had so many things going on, I know what I want and finally feel a glimmer of hope.
I’m 19 months sober of a disaster of a life of a family’s coping tool of alcohol.
I’m starting a project, I feel something good is coming and I’m prepared for speaking my voice to the other.
Can I use your help?
My velcro cat. I have a hard time with connection and he genuinely feels like something tied to my soul.
I’ve been working on my art studio and just cannnnot get myself to finish it up :(
Hello everyone! As Lions Gate (8/8) nears - I’ve come to learn of it. I’ve seen 8’s all over the last two days.
I’ve also started picking up tarot - if you know an (easy pls) YouTuber or a deck you enjoy, I’ve also invested my time in tarot.
I’m a premie Aquarius, directly related to Bridget Bishop - the first ‘witch’ to be h**g (before they did burning) in the SWT. I am unsure if that means much.
I have extremely good intuition, and the ability of just knowing a room or person without words immediately.
Example: I just merely glanced at a girl in another state at a concert - I knew I’d know her. Years later, she was in my state and we became good pals and roommates through more so my kinda coworkers at the time. She’s a Cancer, who really helped me choose this path and helped me further my illustrative career and confidence.
I ethically source my sage, palo santo, incense - use salt/cinnamon, write - (attempt) to meditate. Gratitude lists regularly. Clove Bees Wax candles. Moon water. Drink my tea in the morning with intention. I love owls so I have many vintage statues (I just love birds in general.) Regularly writing. I have many stones/crystals.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. I’m really looking forward to your help!!
I’d love some 5 minute, or short practices - any tips you’ve got for a new girl, either manifestation techniques, trusting your intuition, strengthening your knowledge, how to better spot signs (rather than ‘oh a heart cloud, a feather, angel #’ etc. I’m not usually sure what to ‘write’ or ‘say out loud’ either - or when.
I’ve been getting deeper into the realm of spirituality. I’ve always felt I had good intuition.
(Example, I saw a girl at a concert out of state and couldn’t forget. She then years later met me through somehow knowing a coworker, came to this state and was a wonderful roommate and impact on my life.)
I also have such a streak of tragedies.
I don’t know - what can you tell me please? Anything helps.
F/29
So, I’ve been trying since 2022 to stay sober. I’ve learned white knuckling is certainly not the way, nor is ‘once in a while.’ My habit got so bad I became a morning drinker.
My life now is pretty simple - I don’t make money off some rich dude working at his museum as basically visitors services. I don’t necessarily care for the ‘theme’ of lack of a better word of the art or to know anything despite being an artist. A lot goes against my values - it being a non profit, basically a rich guys storage of 10% and doesn’t pay anyone shit.
There’s PTO perks, my coworkers I can feel myself pulling a bit from for my own sanity as I work on social loads. I’m happily married. It is what it is.
I took the job as exposure therapy to upset people (especially older men.) We act as a lot of things, but not having people touch things is one.
Before you ask, no I cannot leave the job.
I just can’t formulate how to not be just irritated to be there. Or anywhere really. I’m on mood stabilizers etc and I don’t know -
I’m just angry. Were you at this stage?
Thanks! Keep trucking yall
So, I am 14ish months not… drinking like a fish. My doctor has had me on 300 Lamictal for mood, 4mg Clonazepam, 20mg of propranolol (I have a tremor since I was maybe 12.) Zoloft 150 - Adderall 20 x2 (I’m going to work on going back to 10/10 see how I feel and eventually quit.) Seroquel 150 for insomnia.
Yes the doctor gave a drunk controlled junk. I don’t have healthcare, and he works with me. He claims to have adhd and maybe I do, maybe I don’t - but I know right now nothing feels purposeful. All (my 3?) friends have moved out of state - it’s just my husband and I. I don’t like to leave the house and it’s often resulted in job loss and isolation. I have chronic stress from the OCPD and my position at work.
I took Seroquel in the 32 day grippy socker, not as high of a dose - and got off it just fine.
I know my doctor is a quack, and honestly I am just obsessed with the idea of feeling ‘better.’ (I never learned how to feel things, and in early recovery damn I’m angry at everything.)
I eventually plan to get down to only 2-3 medications. I want to start with the Seroquel, and Adderall.
I am extremely intolerant to medicine changes. Seroquel I have a 100, and 50 tablet. I’ve just been horrified to taper it.
I have pretty bad C-PTSD, OCPD and riveting anxiety. Also I’m an addict - that plays in any form it wants to take on at the time.
If I miss a dose of Seroquel I am panicking - running out of meetings at work in just sheer fear in a foggy memory. I cannot do confrontational things (I work at a museum aka ‘no touchy’ and the fear of response kills me.) I need this job and can’t have Seroquel jeopardizing it.
How was going down for everyone? What can I do supplement wise to help?