u/countryroadqueen

there are some things you are born with that you just can’t change about yourself. the color of your eyes and skin. your height. any chronic or genetic conditions you have. but also, being an introvert or extrovert. needing a lot of touch or none at all to be functional and happy.

i am a flaming extrovert and person with a very high need for physical contact with other humans. it follows logically that i was, uh, quite promiscuous for many years. eventually i fell in love twice within just over a year and both relationships fundamentally changed my relationship with sex and i became celibate after the second breakup. i am incredibly heartbroken now. but i’m also fatally touch-starved and the loneliness is excruciating.

God created me for companionship and intimacy, and i have absolutely zero of either now. can anyone relate to how painful it is even though we’re doing this 100% voluntarily?

honestly, i’m not wanting to traumatize myself further, but if there’s a chance to get this man off the street, i will. i was violently raped by my last client as a sex worker. there’s no physical evidence, probably just a hotel record and the record of payment. i don’t think any messages are retrievable at this time, since it was over a year ago. but i feel strong enough to do this now. however, based on what we know about SA cases and bias against sex workers, is it even worth it?

hello! this is a little long and complex but i’d love some advice about my upcoming first shroom trip.

i have a friend with about 20 years’ experience with shrooms, and lately she’s been researching and perfecting a process of a new therapeutic use for psilocybin. she is integrating internal family systems therapy into the trip itself to help people resolve their most pressing questions and fears in life. she has seen incredible success with several people who struggled with severe PTSD the way i do, and we have decided it’s time for me to go on my vision quest.

the background is that i have been diagnosed bipolar 1 and i have been taking 30mg mirtazipine for 5 years and 150 lamictal for a few months (titrating for about a year). my friend asked me to choose a place i feel the safest in, and i chose my car, so we’re parking at a spot in the country, she’s holding my keys, and we’ll start the process in a quiet, peaceful, intentional space. in order for this vision quest to work, one needs to take a “heroic dose”, no less. now, because i’m on mirtazipine, a known trip-killer, my friend is giving me 8g of golden teacher in the form of tea.

i know 8g is high as hell but my friend says that experience has taught her that too much is better than too little for therapeutic usage of this medicine. she has worked with people on trip-killing meds, as well as people with epilepsy, mood disorders, etc. i trust her more than anyone on earth, but i would also like to do my own research and get feedback from other experts. what are some thoughts y’all have? anything i should be aware of? thanks!

hello! this is a little long and complex but i’d love some advice about my upcoming first shroom trip.

i have a friend with about 20 years’ experience with shrooms, and lately she’s been researching and perfecting a process of a new therapeutic use for psilocybin. she is integrating internal family systems therapy into the trip itself to help people resolve their most pressing questions and fears in life. she has seen incredible success with several people who struggled with severe PTSD the way i do, and we have decided it’s time for me to go on my vision quest. everything in my life feels like it has led up to this. we also know ancient cultures have used it as medicine and enlightenment since the beginning of time, and i’m ready to experience it.

the background is that i have been diagnosed bipolar 1 and i have been taking 30mg mirtazipine for 5 years and 150 lamictal for a few months (titrating for about a year). my friend asked me to choose a place i feel the safest in, and i chose my car, so we’re parking at a spot in the country, she’s holding my keys, and we’ll start the process in a quiet, peaceful, intentional space. in order for this vision quest to work, one needs to take a “heroic dose”, no less. now, because i’m on mirtazipine, a known trip-killer, my friend is giving me 8g of golden teacher in the form of tea.

i know 8g is high as hell but my friend says that experience has taught her that too much is better than too little for therapeutic usage of this medicine. she has worked with people on trip-killing meds, as well as people with epilepsy, mood disorders, etc. i trust her more than anyone on earth, but i would also like to do my own research and get feedback from other experts. what are some thoughts y’all have? anything i should be aware of? thanks!

hello! this is a little long and complex but i’d love some advice about my upcoming first shroom trip.

i have a friend with about 20 years’ experience with shrooms, and lately she’s been researching and perfecting a process of a new therapeutic use for psilocybin. she is integrating internal family systems therapy into the trip itself to help people resolve their most pressing questions and fears in life. she has seen incredible success with several people who struggled with severe PTSD the way i do, and we have decided it’s time for me to go on my vision quest.

the background is that i have been diagnosed bipolar 1 and i have been taking 30mg mirtazipine for 5 years and 150 lamictal for a few months (titrating for about a year). my friend asked me to choose a place i feel the safest in, and i chose my car, so we’re parking at a spot in the country, she’s holding my keys, and we’ll start the process in a quiet, peaceful, intentional space. in order for this vision quest to work, one needs to take a “heroic dose”, no less. now, because i’m on mirtazipine, a known trip-killer, my friend is giving me 8g of golden teacher in the form of tea.

i know 8g is high as hell but my friend says that experience has taught her that too much is better than too little for therapeutic usage of this medicine. she has worked with people on trip-killing meds, as well as people with epilepsy, mood disorders, etc. i trust her more than anyone on earth, but i would also like to do my own research and get feedback from other experts. what are some thoughts y’all have? anything i should be aware of? thanks!

hello! this is a little long and complex but i’d love some advice about my upcoming first shroom trip.

i have a friend with about 20 years’ experience with shrooms, and lately she’s been researching and perfecting a process of a new therapeutic use for psilocybin. she is integrating internal family systems therapy into the trip itself to help people resolve their most pressing questions and fears in life. she has seen incredible success with several people who struggled with severe PTSD the way i do, and we have decided it’s time for me to go on my vision quest.

the background is that i have been diagnosed bipolar 1 and i have been taking 30mg mirtazipine for 5 years and 150 lamictal for a few months (titrating for about a year). my friend asked me to choose a place i feel the safest in, and i chose my car, so we’re parking at a spot in the country, she’s holding my keys, and we’ll start the process in a quiet, peaceful, intentional space. in order for this vision quest to work, one needs to take a “heroic dose”, no less. now, because i’m on mirtazipine, a known trip-killer, my friend is giving me 8g of golden teacher in the form of tea.

i know 8g is high as hell but my friend says that experience has taught her that too much is better than too little for therapeutic usage of this medicine. she has worked with people on trip-killing meds, as well as people with epilepsy, mood disorders, etc. i trust her more than anyone on earth, but i would also like to do my own research and get feedback from other experts. what are some thoughts y’all have? anything i should be aware of? thanks!