u/creamsodaprincess

I know I can’t link the GFM here but I’m getting desperate and concerned. I am in contact with a girl from Palestine, and we talk weekly. Donations have slowed down, and I don’t know if I’m the only person she is contact with but I don’t know how to raise awareness in an effective way. Everytime when I make a tik tok, it gets taken down, suppressed and I can’t even put a link in my bio and I know nobody is copy and pasting a link in the caption. I have a link in my Instagram bio too, I donate as much as I can, but it feels like people are really just ignoring them. And I know she’s not the only one. She has expressed to me how forgotten she feels and how the world has abandoned Palestinians. Is there people I should contact so the GFM can get more traction. I don’t have a big following on any of my social medias. What should I do?

Hello! I’ve been having a hard time raising funds for Hanan and her family and we are frequently in contact. I don’t have many followers on any of my social media accounts, and when I do post, I’m not allowed to put any links, it gets taken down and it’s suppressed. Ive been donating a lot to this family since 2024, and I think I’m one of the few people they are in contact with. If you would like to donate, it would mean a lot. greatly appreciated!

The vetting link is through tumblr. They are # 152 on this list: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1YGgkXoyam7tnbXb-vqWsHFs3Puyf\_xYeXY2dPrZQY1M/htmlview

Now that I’m thinking about it, my psychotic episode of 2024 where I was unemployed and my grandma passed away was bad. Spent way too much time online. Current events is what I would consume every day. I stopped eating, sleeping etc. thought I had this knowledge nobody else did and it made me feel so anxious at the same time. I remember feeling very detached and I started spiraling and fell down rabbit holes that would consume my whole day. I realized how weird I was acting and I’m looking back like “why the fuck did I think like that, I would never think like that now.” Does anybody feel guilty or bad for what they believed in, thought of or did during psychosis? My last one was last summer, and coming into this summer medicated and happier!

I have been working at the same place for almost a year and they are now saying that they are considering me to be an actual employee rather than an apprentice. Anything that I don’t know, hasn’t been taught to me in full. And I would like to say I’m a pretty good worker. I have great work ethic and I pay attention to detail. If you ask me to do something, I will get it done, but sometimes I feel like it’s such a slap to my face. I work myself until I’m tired and exhausted. Until I triple check my work. I don’t allow myself to slack, and when I do, just know something is wrong. But I feel stuck. I still feel like the bag lady, i can do certain things but not everything (which is very fucking weird to me because I want to learn) but I’m just exhausted right now. Nothing I ever do seems to be enough and i want to be enough. I want to get better. And that’s what it feels like. It feels like I’m good but not better.