u/crimson_spiderlili

Hello. My parents died when I was a baby. My mother died in childbirth. She had complications, and the doctors couldn’t save her. The birth was traumatic, and it left me disabled (I use a cane to walk when the pain in my hip/leg is high). My father couldn’t handle my mother’s death. He became really depressed. He killed himself when I was 3 months old. My maternal grandmother and grandfather raised me. However, my grandmother has constantly blamed me for my mother’s death. She also hated my father, and since I look like him, she hates me too.

Anyway, my parents are buried on my grandparents’ land. My grandfather, before he died, had a mausoleum built for my parents. It’s beautiful. When I get depressed (which is honestly most days ngl), I take my pillow/blanket and sleep inside the mausoleum. I touch my parents death masks and their framed pictures (for when I pray). It feels like they’re really with me, and I can actually touch them. I sometimes talk to them about my life/feelings too. I feel more love from their graves than my own house. It sucks. I wish my parents were alive.

EDIT: In my culture (I’m Asian), mausoleums/family tombs are commonly used. It's cultural, and it helps shield the food/items that are offered to the dead in prayers and incense (from weather/animals). Pictures of the dead are more common, but my grandfather personally chose to include the death masks.

I’m so pissed. I’m tired of being disrespected. FUCK YOU PROFESSOR GOBLIN!!

So, I’m a freshman with a disability aid. My college’s resource/accommodation center notified my professors of my disability. The professor I’m angry at acknowledged it! So, why the fuck are you mad that I’m 5 minutes late to your class when you start it 10 minutes in? Why do you question my disability just because I can walk and look “fine”? I arrive before roll call too! You know I walk with a limp, and that I use a cane to help when the pain is too much. You FUCKING know that!

How are you an ethics/organizational behavior professor and you act like an asshole?! How can you say that I’M being DISRUPTIVE when you let other able bodied students come in at later times? You never reprimand them. You laugh with them. Also, why do you hate it when students like me have extra time on our exams? It doesn’t fucking hurt you. Anyway, I just want to cry. Like, I’m going through so much right now, and the last thing I needed is this man questioning/mocking my disability.

Hello. I am a new and casual fan of Katseye. When DA and the documentary came out/airing, I didn't watch it. The promos of the competition didn't interest me, and most of the trailer previews looked more like the contestants were fighting each other. It wasn't my thing. Then, I listened to "Touch" and "Gameboy". I really liked these songs. Surprisingly, I even liked their song "Gnarly" since it's so catchy. I'm not a huge fan of some of their styling though.

However, I talked to a few friends who are super fans of theirs (they went to the girls' actual performances). They said that I had to watch DA/documentary together, since I barely know anything about the girls. Is it necessary? I do want to see how they formed as a group, but I heard that the show/competition put them all in a bad light. For anyone who watched DA/documentary, is it worth watching?

Hello. I [18F] was raised by my maternal grandmother since I was born. My mother died from childbirth complications. My father killed himself 3 months later. My grandmother has blamed me for their deaths all my life. She also really hated my father, so she hates me even more for looking like him. She even sent me to a youth conversion camp with her church when I was 14. I spent 2 weeks there, but I had to go home because I was sick. She tried sending me back again but decided against it since it costed too much.

Anyway, she got diagnosed with lung cancer 2 months ago. She just told me about it recently. She made a will. I’ll inherit the house, land, her truck, money, etc. The only reason why I’m in her will is so that her own relatives (that I’m NC with) won’t get anything. She still has to finalize it with her lawyer. However, since she showed me the will, she keeps making comments about how undeserving I am. She doesn’t want me to have anything.

Recently, she’s been very angry. She said that I should be the one dealing with cancer. I’m trying my best to help/support her. I don’t have the heart to abandon her. It’s hard. She makes me feel guilty for thinking about using my inheritance for my future. I’m a full time college student with a job, so the money would help. I cannot afford to move out. She thinks I want her to die, but that’s not true. Any advice on how I can stop feeling guilty?