u/crucifixbutterplate

I am desperate. I can not fight my porn and shorts/reels addictions.

I have 2 devices I want to control. Ubuntu hp notebook and Android phone. I want to permanently remove shorts reels and porn. from yt, ig, reddit and twitter porn.

The only way is to completely block them. Without any power to undo the permissions and blocks except a hard phone or laptop reboot.

I want it to be under control of an outsider system that does not allow me to remove and undo the blocks. At this point if there is a solution I am ready to research it and create it. please. I have been trying for 2 full days now...

I tried many things with AI but it's pretty much very slow and just endlessly leading to a brick wall.

Blocks on browsers and apps. A full system that allows no cracks.

There must be a way.. there must be something... i can not remain a slave forever.

HELP!!

I am desperate. I can not fight my porn and shorts/reels addictions.

The only way is to completely block them. Without any power to undo the permissions and blocks except a hard phone or laptop reboot.

I want it to be under control of an outsider system that does not allow me to remove and undo the blocks.

I tried many things with AI but it's pretty much very slow and just endlessly leading to a brick wall.

Blocks on browsers and apps. A full system that allows no cracks.

There must be a way.. there must be something... i can not remain a slave forever.

HELP!!

I'm trying to learn the philosophy of an author about piano technique which is across 5-6 heavy dense books. It's really dense and difficult and needs an intelligence that connects all the dots across dense pages and books.

I have a Claude project with all the books there but I still have the intuition that doing a RAG will be better? I don't really know what rag is deeply I'm not on engineering so I would gladly take some advice. Thanks

I am making a rhythm training app, I am vibe coding it and I want the user to tap the rhythm and then the app to say where he was too late or too early, but im running in a problem where on phone, the tap is delayed and so the exercise fails to be productive

Hey guys, I am building an ear training app and I want to get feedback on it as I build it, and also ideas from you.

I have a multiplayer section where people make a dual and whoever guesses the interval faster wins the round.

I have a lot of other things but not for multiplayer. So I how creative can you be and how can you improve your ear by making it a multiplayer game ?

thanks for your insights

I want to build an AI that learns all the books of one Author and can kinda recreated him and make him revive and so you can ask the AI questions and he will know what the author would have answered in this situation. How to do that? The author is long dead and its a small niche.

How can I build such an AI, but that is also not so dumb in other things. I have seen some specialized AIs long ago in chat gpt , but how can I do an actual independent one?

Are recordigns of Imlsp free of copyright? Where can I find them? THanks

If you read this to the end and give me your perspective, you would have helped someone greatly.

I'm 19, male, and this is basically what my whole life revolves around right now: confusion and an inability to make choices. I genuinely don't know what I want to do with my life.

I graduated high school at 16 and moved to Europe alone. It was a disaster. The years from 16 to 18 were rough. I don't fully know the damage I did to myself or how much potential and time I wasted, but the delusion that I "learned something" from it is basically the only thing keeping my ego intact.

I don't know what to do, and after highschool there was no clear thing I actually chose to do, it was always let me try this and see where it leads me after 6 months...I like everything ....psychology, reading people, math, science .. and I'm also a classically trained pianist. That's actually the problem.

I've been playing since I was 7. I was fairly talented and got a lot of praise for it, and I leaned on that praise to feel good about myself amid the bullying and other childhood-trauma stuff. Because of that, I've never been sure whether I actually love piano, or whether I just love the praise it got me.

Then I moved to Europe to study piano seriously, and it got worse and worse. I expect a lot from it, I've gotten worse with time instead of better, and I like it less the more I do it.

I did one year of math alongside piano, but it got too hard, so I dropped math completely to commit to piano as a career. But everytime with piano im like: If in 6 months i dont see myself gettign better, ill quit for good. Ive said that 6-7 times in 4 years. basically every 6 months

In hindsight, that decision looks cringe. Right now I'm genuinely repulsed by piano — if I had the choice, I wouldn't practice at all. My relationship with it is complicated to the point where I don't even know if I like it. And if I'm not sure I like something, doesn't that mean I don't? Except I don't fully trust that logic either — it sounds like one of those generic self-improvement one-liners that seeps in from mindless scrolling. (wtf does "if you're not sure you like it, you don't" even mean?)

On top of that, I have a long track record of telling myself "this time I'll actually stick to it" and then not doing it. AI projects, plans, whatever — I promise myself I'll follow through, and I don't. The number of times this has happened is insane, and it's exhausting. I like maths. I love it. Im not the best at it. But I love it. But when I imagine myself choosing it for good, then I get really scared and feel Im gonna regret it and also feel that initially I chose it for the wrong reasons and that maths isnt my thing, since really it was never my strong point. I dont know what my strong points were, I was bullied a lot and lived in constant fear. I wasnt able to shine purely. And im not victimizing here. (Probably am tho)

So now I'm stuck in a loop: if I quit piano for math, I'll probably regret it and feel suffocated by how rigid and square math is. If I keep going with piano, I feel unsafe, like I'm missing out on real knowledge, like I'm just entertainment for an audience of old people who might not even care. Then I second-guess that too, because classical music is obviously more than that, and it's probably not as useless as I'm making it sound in the moment.

I've basically lost any real reference point for how to make decisions. I litteraly just read biographies of business men and just start acting and behaving like Im gonna do and be like them, like i wanna be like this business man , because the aura of his biography just influenced me so bad....but in what world is my decision center so bad that it will get totally highjacked by a freaking boook??!?!?!? My dad isn't really available for this kind of thing, and my mom tries her best, but it's not really something she can solve for me either.

I'm sick of the delusion that I'm going to stick to something. There's a feeling in my chest that blocks me from deciding anything, and I don't know how to get rid of it. It feels like something completely absurd is dictating my life, keeping me stuck, wasting my time, and stopping me from actually living.

I don't know if I'm just cooked from bad habits, low dopamine, and constant distraction, or if there's something else going on. Any perspective helps. Is it just my low dopamine not letting me take a good decision? or the overflow of information making everything numb?

I took a 6 days no phone retreat in isolation, no stimuli for august. I dont know how this will help . maybe it will. Maybe ill come out of it with the delusion of having made a choice and then not stick to it 1 week after.

If you read this to the end and give me your perspective, you would have helped someone greatly.

I'm 19, male, and this is basically what my whole life revolves around right now: confusion and an inability to make choices. I genuinely don't know what I want to do with my life.

I graduated high school at 16 and moved to Europe alone. It was a disaster. The years from 16 to 18 were rough. I don't fully know the damage I did to myself or how much potential and time I wasted, but the delusion that I "learned something" from it is basically the only thing keeping my ego intact.

I don't know what to do, and after highschool there was no clear thing I actually chose to do, it was always let me try this and see where it leads me after 6 months...I like everything ....psychology, reading people, math, science .. and I'm also a classically trained pianist. That's actually the problem.

I've been playing since I was 7. I was fairly talented and got a lot of praise for it, and I leaned on that praise to feel good about myself amid the bullying and other childhood-trauma stuff. Because of that, I've never been sure whether I actually love piano, or whether I just love the praise it got me.

Then I moved to Europe to study piano seriously, and it got worse and worse. I expect a lot from it, I've gotten worse with time instead of better, and I like it less the more I do it.

I did one year of math alongside piano, but it got too hard, so I dropped math completely to commit to piano as a career. But everytime with piano im like: If in 6 months i dont see myself gettign better, ill quit for good. Ive said that 6-7 times in 4 years. basically every 6 months

In hindsight, that decision looks cringe. Right now I'm genuinely repulsed by piano — if I had the choice, I wouldn't practice at all. My relationship with it is complicated to the point where I don't even know if I like it. And if I'm not sure I like something, doesn't that mean I don't? Except I don't fully trust that logic either — it sounds like one of those generic self-improvement one-liners that seeps in from mindless scrolling. (wtf does "if you're not sure you like it, you don't" even mean?)

On top of that, I have a long track record of telling myself "this time I'll actually stick to it" and then not doing it. AI projects, plans, whatever — I promise myself I'll follow through, and I don't. The number of times this has happened is insane, and it's exhausting.

So now I'm stuck in a loop: if I quit piano for math, I'll probably regret it and feel suffocated by how rigid and square math is. If I keep going with piano, I feel unsafe, like I'm missing out on real knowledge, like I'm just entertainment for an audience of old people who might not even care. Then I second-guess that too, because classical music is obviously more than that, and it's probably not as useless as I'm making it sound in the moment.

I've basically lost any real reference point for how to make decisions. I litteraly just read biographies of business men and just start acting and behaving like Im gonna do and be like them, like i wanna be like this business man , because the aura of his biography just influenced me so bad....but in what world is my decision center so bad that it will get totally highjacked by a freaking boook??!?!?!? My dad isn't really available for this kind of thing, and my mom tries her best, but it's not really something she can solve for me either.

I'm sick of the delusion that I'm going to stick to something. There's a feeling in my chest that blocks me from deciding anything, and I don't know how to get rid of it. It feels like something completely absurd is dictating my life, keeping me stuck, wasting my time, and stopping me from actually living.

I don't know if I'm just cooked from bad habits, low dopamine, and constant distraction, or if there's something else going on. Any perspective helps. Is it just my low dopamine not letting me take a good decision? or the overflow of information making everything numb?

I took a 6 days no phone retreat in isolation, no stimuli for august. I dont know how this will help . maybe it will. Maybe ill come out of it with the delusion of having made a choice and then not stick to it 1 week after.

If you read this to the end and give me your perspective, you would have helped someone greatly.

And please, i know there's no way to verify, but I want advice from people who are in a situation better than me and can help me. Thanks.

I'm 19, male, and this is basically what my whole life revolves around right now: confusion and an inability to make choices. I genuinely don't know what I want to do with my life.

I graduated high school at 16 and moved to Europe alone. It was a disaster. The years from 16 to 18 were rough. I don't fully know the damage I did to myself or how much potential and time I wasted, but the delusion that I "learned something" from it is basically the only thing keeping my ego intact.

I don't know what to do. I like everything ....psychology, reading people, math, science .. and I'm also a classically trained pianist. That's actually the problem.

I've been playing since I was 7. I was fairly talented and got a lot of praise for it, and I leaned on that praise to feel good about myself amid the bullying and other childhood-trauma stuff. Because of that, I've never been sure whether I actually love piano, or whether I just love the praise it got me.

Then I moved to Europe to study piano seriously, and it got worse and worse. I expect a lot from it, I've gotten worse with time instead of better, and I like it less the more I do it.

I did one year of math alongside piano, but it got too hard, so I dropped math completely to commit to piano as a career.

In hindsight, that decision looks cringe. Right now I'm genuinely repulsed by piano — if I had the choice, I wouldn't practice at all. My relationship with it is complicated to the point where I don't even know if I like it. And if I'm not sure I like something, doesn't that mean I don't? Except I don't fully trust that logic either — it sounds like one of those generic self-improvement one-liners that seeps in from mindless scrolling. (wtf does "if you're not sure you like it, you don't" even mean?)

On top of that, I have a long track record of telling myself "this time I'll actually stick to it" and then not doing it. AI projects, plans, whatever — I promise myself I'll follow through, and I don't. The number of times this has happened is insane, and it's exhausting.

So now I'm stuck in a loop: if I quit piano for math, I'll probably regret it and feel suffocated by how rigid and square math is. If I keep going with piano, I feel unsafe, like I'm missing out on real knowledge, like I'm just entertainment for an audience of old people who might not even care. Then I second-guess that too, because classical music is obviously more than that, and it's probably not as useless as I'm making it sound in the moment.

I've basically lost any real reference point for how to make decisions. I litteraly just read biographies of business men and just start acting and behaving like Im gonna do and be like them, like i wanna be like this business man , because the aura of his biography just influenced me so bad....but in what world is my decision center so bad that it will get totally highjacked by a freaking boook??!?!?!? My dad isn't really available for this kind of thing, and my mom tries her best, but it's not really something she can solve for me either.

I'm sick of the delusion that I'm going to stick to something. There's a feeling in my chest that blocks me from deciding anything, and I don't know how to get rid of it. It feels like something completely absurd is dictating my life, keeping me stuck, wasting my time, and stopping me from actually living.

I don't know if I'm just cooked from bad habits, low dopamine, and constant distraction, or if there's something else going on. Any perspective helps.

I took a 6 days no phone retreat in isolation, no stimuli for august. I dont know how this will help . maybe it will. Maybe ill come out of it with the delusion of having made a choice and then not stick to it 1 week after.

Its a book about motivation and what creates it and how to actually get yourself to work. But i cant buy or find a pdf version. Anyone has it? Thanks

Hey guys, Im not a big IT guy, im 19 and willing to get in AI, so Im experimenting with AI and I have been trying to vibe code an app with Claude Fable 5, and its kinda working, its really good at making my wishes true. Now Im at 70 percent of my fable 5 limits and probably the project is not going to be done by then.

How can I keep going with another AI to finish my app? Should I use Opus or is it considerably worse for some ear training app for musicians? Or maybe Kimi? Any advice? Thanks

Hey guys, Im not a big IT guy, im 19 and willing to get in AI, so Im experimenting with AI and I have been trying to vibe code an app with Claude Fable 5, and its kinda working, its really good at making my wishes true. Now Im at 70 percent of my fable 5 limits and probably the project is not going to be done by then.

How can I keep going with another AI to finish my app? Should I use Opus or is it considerably worse for some ear training app for musicians? Or maybe Kimi? Any advice? Thanks

Hey guys, Im not a big IT guy, im 19 and willing to get in AI, so Im experimenting with AI and I have been trying to vibe code an app with Claude Fable 5, and its kinda working, its really good at making my wishes true. Now Im at 70 percent of my fable 5 limits and probably the project is not going to be done by then.

How can I keep going with another AI to finish my app? Should I use Opus or is it considerably worse for some ear training app for musicians? Or maybe Kimi? Any advice? Thanks

Hey guys, Im not a big IT guy, im 19 and willing to get in AI, so Im experimenting with AI and I have been trying to vibe code an app with Claude Fable 5, and its kinda working, its really good at making my wishes true. Now Im at 70 percent of my fable 5 limits and probably the project is not going to be done by then.

How can I keep going with another AI to finish my app? Should I use Opus or is it considerably worse for some ear training app for musicians? Or maybe Kimi? Any advice? Thanks

I am 19 and I always see people working with AI, building things, talking complicated terms, building apps and tools and run the stock market, sports betting, creating games, helping them with coding etc.

I am 19 I study classical piano in Europe at a prestigious school, I also did 1 year of Maths in college but dropped to pursue music, but I am slowly realizing that the AI world is too nice to miss out on. I wonder what people are doing with this coding things, I dont know how to code and feel extremly bad and behind.

All I know is how to give silly orders to claude and acting as if I am learning how to do AI. All I know is to chat with a commercial chatbot basically.

I have read a few things on the claude website but it has been really confusing and too technical.

How do I get in the AI field? How do I actually become part of the future?

Please help.

thanks

I am 19 and I always see people working with AI, building things, talking complicated terms, building apps and tools and run the stock market, sports betting, creating games, helping them with coding etc.

I am 19 I study classical piano in Europe at a prestigious school, I also did 1 year of Maths in college but dropped to pursue music, but I am slowly realizing that the AI world is too nice to miss out on. I wonder what people are doing with this coding things, I dont know how to code and feel extremly bad and behind.

All I know is how to give silly orders to claude and acting as if I am learning how to do AI. All I know is to chat with a commercial chatbot basically.

I have read a few things on the claude website but it has been really confusing and too technical.

How do I get in the AI field? How do I actually become part of the future?

Please help.

thanks

There is an issue I would like to adress. I feel that most piano teachers never go to the chore of the problem in piano student that wants to be professional.

Argerich, Sokolov, and all of these are not geniuses. They just happened to stumble on the right muscular habits since a young age, either by luck, by intelligence, or by teachers, and these muscular habits were enough to fulfill their musical imagination and they thus lived in a positive reinforcement loop where good muscular habits make good music easy which motivates them to play more and more.

For the other majority, like me , trying to become a classical pianist, I feel that the good teachers in the best music schools in the world litteraly do not understand that. They would just start speaking about relaxing and using arm weight as if uttering these words would just fix everything. And they think that if they tell us to play more piano or more articulated, we will just do it because it is so easy. I think there is such a level of ignorance because no body is adressing the root cause of the problems, and it is not questioned but rather just put inside this whole frame: The people with the right muscular discrimination habits and called talented and geniuses , and the rest, average, its just luck, its just talent, thats it.

I dont understand: I have met the most talented pianists of this century since I am in the field, not one single one of them could explain how technique works, they would refer to terms like, yeah, I just use hand and arm weight and also from my back and just try to think about the music. NO you dont. Even when asking my classmates who are better pianists, they just also refer to generic terms without actually knowing what they are doing technically.

Please let me know if I am the only one that thinks like that. I think piano technique is a whole seperate field with a crazy whole olympic level discipline to be followed, yet its treated as if its nothing.

I have found the works of Tobias Matthay about piano technique and I felt that no teacher nowadays will teach what he is preaching. I find it so extremely sad that most talented pianists develop bad piano habits by the age of 18-19, and they think they are bad pianists and slowly quit, but in fact they just did not get the right elite teachings.

And for the ones who continue in spite of the bad habits, they are just treated badly and diagnosed with things as unmusicality, bad taste, or simply a lack of talent, where in fact the real problem is a problem of muscular discrimination.

I really want to know what people think about Tobias Matthay that has gone to the furthest extreme of analyzing piano playing in all its aspects ,mostly technique.

Is his system outdated? Why do people not know about him? Comparison between him and the Taubmann approach?

I've tried a few practice apps and journals over the years. All of them tracked the same things — what piece, how long, maybe a note or two. And none of them made me practice better.

What actually helped was forcing myself to answer three questions before sitting down:

1. What should this passage sound like — specifically, in my head, before I play a note?

2. Where is this phrase going? What's the target?

3. What is the one thing I'm trying to solve today — not three things, one?

And then after: not just what went wrong, but why. The actual cause, not the symptom.

I got this from reading Matthay and Neuhaus — old piano pedagogy texts — and it's kind of embarrassing how much clearer my practice got once I started doing this consistently.

Curious if anyone else has landed on something similar. What's the question or habit that most changed the quality of your practice? And what do you still find yourself struggling to track or stay honest about?