I lost the love of my life to porn addiction.
I started watching porn when I was 13 years old and was introduced to it by some irresponsible adult family members of mine. Since that day up until 8 months ago my hunger for porn was insatiable I let down all the people I love in my life especially my life partner. I met the love of my life when I was 22 and she was 18 and it was literally love at first sight, something told me at the moment she was the one. We started living together when I was 24 and she was 20 and she found out about my addiction right away and I don’t want to get into much detail but I put her through so much trauma and suffering, I feel so disgusted with myself now that I put her through all that and I am ashamed now that I’m clean and my mind is healing I feel like a monster for putting her though all that. All this time I just needed to look for help and I am so stupid for not looking for it sooner because of this addiction I also did nothing with my life and I am now 33 but my new faith in Jesus is getting me through this difficult time and I am getting my emt certification and looking forward to start my firefighting academy at the beginning of next year. I just hope one day she can forgive me and trust me again and feel safe and not vulnerable around me but I know it will take time and I will have to show the real man I have become I was a child trapped in the body of a man for 33 years and I hope my testimony can inspire the rest that there is a way out, PLEASE SEEK HELP! There are so many support groups out there or join a church depending on your faith , but please don’t let this crippling addiction ruin your life forever.