حارس سطح العالم: عالمٌ بلاٍ وعي

حارس سطح العالم: عالمٌ بلاٍ وعي

يرميك الكتاب بين صفحاته ويتركك محاولًا النجاة ثم ينتشلك بنفس القوة والغطرسة. 

استيقظ جريجور سامسا ذات صباحٍ ليجد نفسه وقد تحول إلى حشرةٍ عملاقة، حشرةٍ قبيحةٍ مقززة ينفر الجميع رعبًا منها وكرهًا في ماهيتها. وكذا استيقظ رقيب الكتب ذات صباحٍ وقد وجد نفسه وقد تحوَّل إلى قارئ؛ سرطانٍ موبوءٍ بداء الوعي والمعنى. 

في عالم رقيب الكتب، يُجازى المُفكِّر بالاضطهاد والمحاربة، تأخذهم الحكومة وتزجُّ بهم في السجن. في عالمه، الكلمات لا تحمل معنًى خفيًا، بل عليها أن تكون مسطّحة لا تحتمل التأويل. 

تهز بثينة العيسى شيئًا فينا باستخدام هذا الكتاب؛ فما فائدة القراءة إن كان القارئ يهضم الكلمات وهو جالسٌ في مكانه بدلًا من أن يحرقها كوقودٍ يشعل بها شيئًا، أو حركةً، أو موقفًا ما؟ وما أهمية دراسة التاريخ وتذكّره التي نغفل عنها، وهل نقتل أنفسنا إن محوناه من ذاكرتنا؟ 

ما معنى أن يُعارض الإنسان نظامًا ما؟ وكيف يقاومه؟ وهل تجوز المقاومة في وجود العائلة والأصدقاء وأولئك الذين قد يسقطون ضحايا في وجه المدفع؟ 

وهل يخرج الإنسان من المقاومة وقد حافظ على عقله وإنسانيته، أم من متطلباتها أن يفقد الفرد نفسه في حضرتها؟ 

أسئلةٌ كثيرة، وأجوبةٌ قليلة، لكنّ المؤكد أنني أصبت بما أُصيب به الرقيب إثر قراءته الكتب الممنوعة. أُنهي الكتاب وقد ترك بصمته؛ غصّةٌ في عقلي ودوامةٌ من الأفكار في رأسي.

"لو كان يعرف من هو. لو** كانت الكتب تمنحه شيئًا**** غير الأسئل**ة."

u/eNagham — 1 day ago

ازاي أشتري كتب إلكترونية واقرأها على كيندل؟

بحس بتأنيب الضمير لما أجيب كتب عربي من أي مكان وأقرأها من غير ما أشتريها رغم إن عندي القابلية للشراء. حاليًا بقرأ بشكل أساسي على الكيندل بسبب تعب عضلات جسمي وثقل الكتب الورقية.

المشكلة إن أغلب الكتب متوفرة على برامج زي أبجد ومحمية بحقوق نشر DRM، فصعب مثلا إني أشتري نسخة من الكتاب وأنقلها للكيندل. حد يعرف مكان أقدر أشتري منه وأبعته أو طريقة أقدر من خلالها أقرأ أنواع الكتب دي؟

أنا برضو مش عايزة أشتري من على أمازون عشان مش أبقى ببدل حاجة غلط بحاجة غلط تانية؛ عايزة أفضل مقاطعة أمازون.

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u/eNagham — 1 day ago

Can I eat mushy, cereal-like tea biscuits 60 hours post op and beyond?

I was thinking of dipping tea biscuits into milk or lukewarm tea until it gets really mushy, and swallow it using a small teaspoon—without chewing, immediately to my throat. Would this still raise risks of infection or am I safe to do that?

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u/eNagham — 7 days ago
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Reading Holly Jackson’s A Good Girl’s Guide to Murder — I don’t like this mindset regarding school bullying and how to deal with bullies

I am baffled by this statement, especially it coming from a teacher. Why would you feel bad and guilty upon the idea of exposing a bully to the school and getting her expelled?

I have two issues with what the teacher said in this page:

  1. Feeling bad for expelling a bully in fear of “ruining her future”. That bully is already ruining the future of those she is bullying and imposing lifelong insecurities and trauma.
  2. Deciding to speak to her parents before talking to her first. She is in her senior year of high school. She is old and mature enough to have this conversation and deal with everything without the involvement of her parents. I’m saying this because when dealing with bullies, I think it is important to put in mind the possibility of them being in a domestic abusive or toxic environment that result in their violent tendencies. High chance is, talking to the parents would make it worse for both the bully and the bullied.

I think this was wrong of the teacher, But I do understand I might be taking this to the extreme. What do you think?

u/eNagham — 16 days ago

Kindle Alignment Issue with Sideloaded Arabic Books

I got a Kindle recently and I'm worried about the Arabic alignment issue and its inability to read from right to left. I heard the issue could be solved with Calibre but I currently do not have an access to a laptop so I can’t try. Sadly, I am traveling soon and therefore need to know the answer to this question to make up my mind whether I should get another Kindle or not for my parents.

Does anyone here mainly read sideloaded Arabic books on kindle? If so, does the Calibre method always work?
I tried looking on Reddit but I couldn’t find anyone who guaranteed a method 100% working for them.

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u/eNagham — 20 days ago

مشكلة الكتب العربي فالكيندل

جبت كيندل قريب وقلقانة من مشكلة الحروف العربي الي دايما بتبقى مقلوبة. انا معنديش مشكلة اوي لأن أغلب قراءاتي انجليزي بس حد من اهلي بيسألني لو انصحه يجيب كيندل للكتب العربي ولا لا وخايفة اقوله يجيب وبعدين ميعرفش يقرأ بسبب مشكلة الحروف.

أنا سمعت ان الموضوع ممكن يتحل من Calibre، هل فعلا دة صحيح؟ انا حاليا مش عندي access للابتوب فمش قادرة أجرب. بس محتاجة اعرف لو calibre دايما بيعدل المشكلة دي بنسبة %100 ولا لا

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u/eNagham — 21 days ago

I need to ship something to Dubai; questions about Shiplifier

I want to send a shipment from Abu Dhabi to Dubai using Shiplifier. I found their shipment prices cheap and the website is really easy to deal with. That being said, it seems they are a small business and I couldn’t find any reviews online.

If anyone dealt with them before:
- Are they trusted?
- How is the Cash on Delivery (COD) service and when and how do they bring me back the money?
- Do they take a percentage?

Thanks!

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u/eNagham — 24 days ago
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I suspect my TMJ got worse after a yawn, I can’t get professional help at the moment and I am so paranoid

For starters, I don’t even know if what I have is TMJ, but it seems to be the most likely.

A little backstory, back in middle school my right jaw side suddenly started popping regularly. It sometimes locked when I ate specifically rough foods but I always managed to unlock it either by light massage or patience. It never caused pain and while I needed to move my mouth to the left to widely open it, I did everything normally and led an okay life.

In my second year in uni, I suddenly developed really bad neck and shoulder pain. I’d be extremely dizzy most of the time and headaches would not leave me. My physical therapist told me it might be my jaw (especially since I told her my ears used to get randomly full). I was dumb enough to forget about this and never got a consultation.

Fast forward to a year later (which is now), I was yawning last Wednesday and my jaw popped in a really painful way. Since then, it’s been incredibly challenging and painful to live my life. For the next two days it kept popping and locking painfully, I could not yawn with my mouth open (I force closed it) and eating felt threatening. I could not swallow or move my neck without feeling an electric pain going from my right side to up right under my scalp.

It got better now and surprisingly it hasn’t popped or locked a single time since last Thursday. That being said, I feel my muscles down my throat incredibly tense and stiff. While it does not pop it feels like it’s about to at any given time. I stopped eating rough foods, been applying warm compresses, and am trying to be careful with it but sleeping is a nightmare. My sleep was already so bad due to my chronic neck and shoulders pain but not my face and throat are included, too. Although the issue is in the right side my left side has suddenly started feeling so tense and exhausted, it feels like it’s cramped all the time, especially near my throat My left ear keeps getting warm and I keep getting headaches in and around it. It hurts sometimes when I speak, too, but it’s very mild.

I am currently outside my country for my summer break. I do not have a health insurance where I am and therefore I cannot get a consultation for another month. Will things get better if I tended to it or is it 100% going to get worse? I’m genuinely terrified something will happen and I will lose the ability to speak or my jaw will heavily gets displaced.

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u/eNagham — 1 month ago

Selling these books

I’m selling these books for 20AED each, and for 15 if you get more than 1.

Courier price will be on you unless you’d like to pick them up; Abu Dhabi only.

Please dm for any queries.

u/eNagham — 1 month ago

What’s the importance of this exercise?

I want to get into digital art as a hobby so I’m starting by the very basics. I know most basic exercises are for my wrist and shoulder + my eye-hand coordination. A youtube video suggested this exercise which I’m not sure if it’s just a fancy, harder way to practice lines and shapes or if there is another reason behind it. The answer to this question will help me because as of right now, I am not sure if I’m doing it correct or not and what I should focus on.

Picture1 is the screenshot I took from the youtube video, second is how I’ve been doing it.

u/eNagham — 1 month ago

What’s the importance of this exercise?

I want to get into digital art as a hobby so I’m starting by the very basics. I know most basic exercises are for my wrist and shoulder + my eye-hand coordination. A youtube video suggested this exercise which I’m not sure if it’s just a fancy, harder way to practice lines and shapes or if there is another reason behind it. The answer to this question will help me because as of right now, I am not sure if I’m doing it correct or not and what I should focus on.

Picture1 is the screenshot I took from the youtube video, second is how I’ve been doing it.

u/eNagham — 1 month ago

Yona of the Dawn Cosplay Attempt

It’s not biblically accurate since I don’t have many (colorable) fitting pieces but I tried. I just started chapter 6 in Itzaland main story yesterday and the entire region and its lore reminded me of the anime.

u/eNagham — 1 month ago

Best e-reader to buy in Abu Dhabi?

Been wanting to get an e-reader for a while now due to physical chronic pain that makes holding physical books painful. I want one that is tiny, light, and convenient. I would also like one that I can easily import EPUB files into.

Which is the best e-reader to buy in Abu Dhabi that has these features? I want a simple e-reader so I’m not looking to invest in an expensive model. Also, where do you guys buy them from?

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u/eNagham — 3 months ago

Worth swapping a DSi for a 2DS?

I know 2ds can play 3ds games and generally it’s considered better. That being said, I’m not sure I’ll like the feeling of the bizarre handheld. Is it comfortable? For those who own both, which do you guys prefer?

I like that it doesn’t have a hinge because this is worrying me so much, and I also like that I’ll be able to play until 3ds games but I’m conflicted.

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u/eNagham — 3 months ago

Activity log for DSI?

As someone who is obsessed with stats, I’ve been trying to look for anything that I could download on my modded dsi to show me my playing hours like the option on Steam. I couldn’t find anything and I’ve been searching for a few days now, so I thought I’d ask here as a last resort.

Is there anything like this available? Or is it absolutely non-existent?

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u/eNagham — 3 months ago

This is both a rant and a call for help for anyone who has any suggestions.

I’ve always been the top student of my class back in school. I love studying, I love academia so, so much.

I am currently a college student, I have the highest grades in my class, yet I feel the most non-smart person ever. I have scoliosis and I am an AUDHDer. I guess burnout, masking and my intense anxiety and overthinking have taken a toll on my brain; I feel like I’m slowly losing my memories regarding skills I used to have. I don’t remember a lot of pieces of information I used to know and even consider common sense. I, the articulate, well-spoken person I used to be, can no more speak properly with proper words. I forgot a lot of basic words and expressions and I feel like a kid trying to speak, which worsens my anxiety and low self-esteem. I cannot express myself anymore.

In addition, I’m in chronic back and neck pain that results in a chronic daily headache that basically never goes away. I cannot perform well, study the way I want, or even have any hobbies or interests anymore.

The mental disability alongside the physical one makes it really hard to maintain my time and do anything that is not urgent or needed of me.

I struggle so much and am deprived of sleep yet I still get high grades, but as someone who does not not even believe in grades dictating someone’s worth and one who believes in seeking knowledge, I feel so worthless and empty. I major in humanities which makes is even harder in my opinion.

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u/eNagham — 4 months ago

I bought a modded dsi with its original 2GB sd card. I opened it from my laptop in order to download more ROMS but the file kept saying I need to reformat in order to open it. I tried multiple ways in order to reformat it to FAT32 but it just wouldn’t reformat. What exactly is the issue? I would have thought the card to be corrupt if not for the fact it works okay when it’s in the dsi; I’m still able to play all games saved into the card’s file.

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u/eNagham — 4 months ago