u/endofprayer

Been here for years but it feels like I keep making dumb mistake after dumb mistake lately. Idk if it's just the stress of constant PAP changes, personal life stuff, or mental health. Can anyone relate? Any advice?

Anyone else feel that way? I feel so burnt out but even on days where I feel like I go above and beyond for my family it feels moot. I feel like most of what I do goes unnoticed/is brushed off and the other portion gets critisized.

I'm really tired. I love my husband and daughter but I have zero interest in my hobbies anymore. It feels like outside of work, household stuff, and hanging out with my family I have no energy left over.

My husband made a comment today about how all we do is sit and watch tv, and that my daughter barely sees me and I feel like he resents me for being do tired all of the time. I don't know. I just feel like I can't win, even on days where I'm trying to be the best wife and parent possible.

Has anyone had this? Kind of at a loss.

I've had scarring/discoloration & numbness on my fingertips for almost a decade now (always assumed it was chemical burns from working in scenic fabrication for a short bit in college) but in December of this year my feet started going numb and a few of my toes turned bright red/purple and swelled up-- they put me on prednisone which reduced swelling but the discoloration is still there almost 5 months on (my middle two toes are clearly purple) and now look similar to my fingers (like peeling scar tissue). They don't hurt. I can move them but I can't feel them.

I went to both my primary and podiatrist and they basically said it could be some kind of secondary illness from Celiac but are moving me on to a rheumatologist. They didn't think it was Reynauds or Erythrmyalgia because my symptoms combined contradict both.

Has anyone had a similar problem? I would love some general information and anecdotes so that I can ask proper questions and get either further testing or an actual diagnosis when seeing the rheumatologist.