u/evoxyya

It was a voice message. He didn't give me many details. He admitted this after I noticed he'd been quieter for the past few days and asked if everything was alright.

Before I asked, he had been trying to act mostly normal. He still called me "love," and we even had a video call where he seemed mostly normal.

I listened to the voice message and immediately broke down.

I cried, threw up, and talked to my mom and best friend. It took me about 40 minutes to compose myself before I answered him.

I told him that I was really caught off guard and didn't feel good about it. I also asked whether he would have told me if I hadn't asked if everything was okay. Finally, I said that I expected him to be more honest with me.

There is so much more I'd like to say, but I held myself back.

It's the next day now, and he still hasn't answered. Maybe he will eventually. Maybe he won't. Maybe he already emotionally moved on when he admitted this to me. I genuinely don't know.

I'm a shy person who struggles with self love and confidence. This relationship was the first one that felt genuinely real to me, even though it was long distance. I've known him for six months and we've been dating for four months. I've never met him in person.

I know my thinking is heavily influenced by how broken I feel right now, but knowing that a huge chunk of the future I'd imagined might be gone puts me in an awful, uncertain, extremely sad place.

I know this is a cliche and probably isn't true, but right now I genuinely feel like I'll never feel the same way again. Meeting him and getting together felt like a one in a billion event, and now it feels like he's almost certainly gone.

I don't know how to move forward from this. I feel awful, worthless, lost, alone, and unloved.

I guess it's a good thing my therapy session is tomorrow.

(THIS ISN'T DOOMPOSTING)

As they state in the video, they aren't really dooming him as if he'll release in his current state, in fact they're pretty certain that he'll get buffs.

Still, I think we can discuss about the current state of his kit, the problems, how could hoyo solve them and in general what do we expect from his finalized kit.

How good is he as a mdps at s0? How does his s1 and s2 effects his mdps potential? Which eco set would you recommend? Lastly, which teammates would you recommend?