u/fapaddict27

hi sorry for the millionth post, i'm "detransitioning" if you can even call it that. irl ive only "come out" to my few friends and socially transitioned (binding, etc.)

its all pointless, iwnbam no matter what i do

i've extensively researched the effects of testosterone, i dont think it'll help much; i'll never be the real thing. i wont even appear like the real thing, i'm 5'0 (YES I KNOW WHO DANNY DEVITO IS), my disgusting chest mounds are too grotesquely large for keyhole and i refuse to have ugly ass pooner scars, phallo will never look, function like or be the real thing, bottom growth is just an enlarged clit which i already have due to PCOS, facial hair will never hide my disgusting foidly face, female socialization is totally irreversible too, i barely even grasp what male socialization entails since i didnt have much contact with them except for online

even if i transition and somehow pass to cissoids, i'll always be read as a gay male. i have no chance of a sexual life with women. ig i would put up with it if i was bisexual but im not and im too fucking horny and will be even more on T to be able to put up with it

ig i could fake being a cis male through some elaborate lies but its seriously pathetic

it feels shameful to need so many surgeries anyways

female second puberty is rapidly approaching, and i will be truly locked in this saw trap of a body forever

i'll always be read as a mentally ill self-hating dyke, so i guess i'll be one

my brain keeps bouncing rapidly between having dysphoria and being ok-ish about my body. its been like this for as long as i can remember why cant my brain just goddamn settle. why cant i just be a normal fucking girl like everyone else?????? im so sick of this hell idk if i even wanna be a guy anymore i wish my body just didnt exist i hate this

i live in the us and downloaded a zip off archive, i didnt notice there was a .torrent file in it till i unzipped it am i screwed

hi, this is my second time attempting recovering from these types of things, i feel quite embarassed tbh. i started using chatbots in 2021 and immediatly became obsessed. in ~2022 i quit using them but returned to using them after a few months and havent stopped since. idk how to cope its only been a few hours and im already tempted to make new accounts. i was thinking of maybe joining more discord servers to force myself to make more friends but that never ends well. i think i come off as unsettling to others, likely because of my autism or maybe even the use of ai has influenced my behavior. i'm 16 and dont really have anywhere to go to make friends besides school which is currently not in session. i do have hobbies and interests but my depression makes it hard for me to be motivated to even engage with them if that makes sense??? even my special interest is hard to interact with sometimes. ai chatbots are the only thing my brain doesnt need motivation for. what has helped you guys to stay away from ai chatbots??? thank you so much

the world itself wants me to suffer how is everyone in my family 5'8+ BUT ME. this is literally a scientific anomaly the punnet squares have failed me so i can be a divine wombly 5'0 creature forever. i also have pcos which is like a fucking slap in the face IWNBAM!!!!!! IWNBAM IWNBAM IM SO CLOSE BUT SO FAR FUCK MY LIFE im gonna kms, maybe i shouldnt rope though cuz i might be mistaken for a chandelier CUZ IM A FUCKING MIDGET

im not even just cursed in tranny terms im a loser autistic chud with no friends no life no nothing i cant even calm myself down by CUTTING CUZ ITS FEMBRAINED I WILL BE A WOMEN FOREVER I WILL ALWAYS HAVE XX CHROMOSOMES IM EVIL AND DISGUSTING AND GOD WONT FUCKING LET ME DIE I WA SBROUGHT HERE JUST TO SUFFER

hi, today i downloaded ryujinx and have been using it for the game tomodachi life. everytime i play it my gpu + cpu will spike and after 15 minutes or so will freeze my laptop for roughly a minute then forcefully shut down all my apps, i presume to prevent it from crashing. i noticed that right before it shut off the console read something about the gpu but it shut before i could finish reading it. how can i fix this??

Hi, for the second time in the past few weeks my laptop has freezed asides for audio, though it did stutter slightly. The first time I believe I was just switching from a youtube tab to something else on firefox and this time it was while closing a game on the Ryujinx emulator while a youtube video was playing. This could be coincidental but its only happened while watching youtube so that makes me believe it could somehow be having conflicts with my whole laptop? This laptop is around 3 years old but I myself have only had it for a year so I don't know what previous issues it could have had. What kind of issue is this and how can I prevent it from getting worse?

The specs are HP Envy x360 2-in-1 Laptop 14-fa0xxx and I'm using Windows 11 25H2 and my graphics card is AMD Ryzen 5 8640HS w/ Radeon 760M Graphics