u/flower-picking

I really need to vent and get some outside perspective because I feel like I'm completely losing my mind and don’t know how to find my happy again.

I am 25 years old, a mature student starting my second year of university soon, and I am proud to say I have been sober for two and a half years. I am actively trying to better myself, take care of my dog (whom I look after all the time), and just be happy, but my family makes it feel completely impossible. I have zero plans to ever have kids I’m happy to be childfree. My sisters are 29 and 32, and since they both have children now, they have that in common and I feel completely left out and isolated, like I'm adopted and just don't belong.
Yesterday and today, I was at my sister’s house helping out with her two-week-old newborn. Even though I don't like babies, I was doing everything I could to support her: washing dishes, making her food, refilling her water bottle, and cleaning her house. Still, it wasn't good enough. She got annoyed at me and claimed I was just "standing there" and I said let’s go for a walk and she really didn’t want to go out and said I was pressurizing her but I thought it would just be good for her and baby to get some fresh air. My sister is currently very upset with her partner because he works, is barely ever at the house, and also has a 9-year-old from a previous relationship, so I feel like she is taking all her stress out on me.
My other sister is also horrible to me. She tells me I act like a teenager and need to sort out my attitude. The irony is that she is currently on Soberlink, and if it wasn’t for me intervening to help her and her boys in the past, I honestly don’t think she would even have custody of her kids right now. My dad behaves exactly the same way towards me. He is a functioning alcoholic and I don’t speak to him very much. Whenever they start speaking to me badly, I simply have to walk away to protect my peace, but then they mock me and say I'm "storming off like a teenager." I just don't want to do this anymore.
I feel like a glorified taxi and babysitter. They only ever contact me when they want to ask for favors or lifts, but I am treated horribly in return. I feel like I can’t do anything right with them. I live with my mum, who cares a lot about me, understands what I'm going through, and is also very stressed out by it all. Even my auntie admitted to me that our family is challenging and told me life is about a balance of give and take but right now, I am doing all the giving and getting spoken to like absolute rubbish.
A friend of mine told me recently that I seem really off and sad, and it’s true. I want to have a close bond with my family, but I also want to have a life of my own. They live close by, and I know they are going to keep demanding lifts and babysitting while continuing to treat me poorly. I feel so unappreciated and stuck. How do I set boundaries with people who refuse to respect me, especially when I'm trying so hard to stay sober and focus on my studies?

I’m listening to the audiobook of sotr and it’s narrated so well! I’m so intrigued by the mutts in the end that are made from avoxes we never see that in the film I think it was also mentioned in ballad of songbirds and snakes (I need to reread that too) but it’s something that’s so eerie and disturbing but I don’t think they’ll show it in the film they also didn’t show it in snows film, I also wonder how haymitch spent the next 24 years after all that loss and grief we know he became an alcoholic but to have to watch it happen all the time for 24 years and not be able to do anything is crazy, even Plutarch and Beetee stopped trying to rebel (as far as we know) I wonder what Suzanne’s next book will be, I also wonder if haymitch was safe from snows cruel victor prostitution like finnick had happen to him or not, im excited for the film and to reread the books again and rewatch the films but just wanted to share this and see if anyone else had any thoughts

I am feeling really angry at my sister. She has two boys aged 4 and 2. She is a single mother; the dad is abusive and currently being investigated by police. My sister (29f) is an alcoholic, and the police are also wary of her, so she is getting a Soberlink. She is currently at my dad's because she needs supervision from someone in the family; my other sister and I can't do it. My dad is also a high-functioning alcoholic and has been for my whole life. My sister is asking my mum (58f) to look after the boys tomorrow and the day after that while my sister goes to court, and then also in the evening while my sister goes to a rehearsal for a play she wants to be in. bare in mind her kids almost got taken to foster care if I didn't go over to her house and help. And she wants my mum to do all the looking after while she gets to have fun at a play rehearsal. My mum thinks it's because it will be her last night to get drunk before she gets the Soberlink, but it might show up in the Soberlink, so I don't know. I am so angry. I feel like I am overreacting, but I am trying to stay chill and not be overreactive. I am living with my mum, and it is quite hard seeing her so upset. I would go and help look after my nephews, but I don't get on with my sister at all, and my other sister is due to give birth soon, but she doesn't mind looking after them. What is the best thing to do right now? I wish I could go somewhere far away and not have to deal with any of them, to be honest, i have also been sober for over two years now

I’m on holiday, I want to be less addicted to Instagram, I have a personal account with family and friends and also a booktok account I use for writing inspo and to be a fan girl nerd basically, but my personal account I deactivated because recently I met a girl online over a famous crush we both had and we gave our instagrams to each other and now I feel like I don’t want to be on Instagram as much anymore because we crashout over this celeb crush on call and now I’m not sure I want too because this celeb for context; is dating an influencer (will call her S) who is not very nice and is a mean girl talking about her “friends” behind their backs and just being disrespectful not someone I look up to, I have had depression really bad and I followed an influencer (not the same influencer a different girl, will call her Y) a while ago and she’s inspired me so much but I recently found out that Y follows S and likes all her posts and is probably friends with her so I’m not sure if Y is also a mean girl. But if I have to unfollow Y I’ll be really sad because she made me feel really happy but she has changed a lot recently compared to a couple of years ago… I’m not a fan of this celeb crush anymore because they are obviously not afraid to date a mean girl even though he said he hates bullies. I’m just really unsure what to do, there are other accounts I like to follow but it’s really bothering me all this. I’m on holiday at the moment and have a lot of personal family issues going on so having my favourite influencer Y would have been nice to see on Instagram but now I’m just upset because what if she is a mean girl

I met a friend (E) and we’ve known each other for a few months now, but everytime I see them they call me an idiot and once we went to a club i got lost they said to the people we were with forgive her she’s blonde… I just hung out with her now and she called me an idiot like three times for no reason? I was also just daydreaming into the distance which I tend to do and they said “why do you look like you’re in pain” multiple times, they said they’re autistic and maybe don’t have a filter and say things as a joke but it’s really starting to bug me. I’m starting to think it’s toxic and I’m worried because we have planned to go to a festival in August and will be staying in a hotel and spending the day together, I really wanna go to the festival cause I like the music just feel pretty crap :(

I have two Instagrams one for family and friends and another account for books fangirling etc. I’m an aspiring writer and use the book account for inspiration but somehow having two accounts makes me feel irritated. Should I just have one main account with friends family and books? I deleted TikTok and feel a lot better but now spend my time scrolling Instagram reels and YouTube, I wish I could delete everything to be honest and disappear but I don’t want to miss out on anything and talk to my friends and family on Instagram. What would be the best thing to do right now, I’ve tried deleting the app off my phone but that doesn’t really help any advice would be so appreciated thank you 🌸