u/flyawaywithmeee

Great questions from the interviewer! I hate it when some interviewers don’t even try.

"I am the soundtrack to all your greatest moments"

This episode deserves a fucking standing ovation!!!!!

Niall's life is just so so sad, when I think of the boy with all those big dreams at 20 and blessings from Joanna for the future in the last episode, and then we see what he's amounted to, I just want to give him a hug. The only thing worse than not meeting others' expectations is having to sit with yourself in your shitty apartment, surrounded by porn you use to fill that void and try to convince yourself to keep going despite having to lie and steal just to get by. We know he can't feel proud of this, he's aware of how far he's fallen and smart enough to realise how much he's lost from fumbling opportunities, overthinking past actions, and unfortunately betting everything on himself without a clear backup plan, resulting in this state at the age of 35.

As the episode began and we learn of his promiscuity, I instincltively said he's being reckless and stupid, but considering how old he is, I feel it's not really about exploration or just having a high libido, I feel he's using sex as a crutch to avoid thinking or feeling all the difficult emotions: stress, anxiety, depression, anger, fear... you name it. It's a sick coping mechanism, and the thrill of doing it in a public place, despite 100000% morally knowing better, even considering HIV/AIDS, adds to that kick of dopamine to get him through the days. It's almost like he feels he has nothing more to lose so why bother denying himself the thing that brings him the most joy right now.

Now Joanna, that poor woman, she has a heart of gold, and I truly feel for her. We all need a Joanna in our lives, and we should strive to be the Joanna for the people we love. I think the thing that saddens me most about grown Niall at this stage is the fact that he has not managed to form any meaningful relationships, so unfortunately, Joanna has been shouldering all his emotional baggage by herself. I would have hoped that he could have made more friends and perhaps be in a good relationship with a boyfriend who values and cares for him, but he seems like he just totally closed himself off for 14 years. This, I think, is his greatest loss/shortcoming. Because I'm certain he would have made better decisions and manoeuvred through the rough patches much more easily with a good support system and community. It breaks my heart that at his age, he's still begging his mum for attention. Dont get me wrong, she is NO saint whatsoever and guilty of a lot too, but I feel he is at a stage in his life where he is capable of building a community of people around him for support that his immediate family cannot give.

Now that hospital scene *chef's kiss* Honey, the dialogue, the delivery, the cinematography, I could rewatch it a thousand times. I want to memorise all those lines because it's so poetic and raw and beautiful, Richard Gadd, for goodness sake, I need you to write a novel ASAP!!!

Niall was killing me time and again, I genuinely didn't think Jamie Bell could take over well from Mitchell Robertson, cos they seem so different, but when he said "you're blaming me for your mother's suicide attempt for goodness sake" it reminded to of young Niall's "I'm having trouble wrapping my head around it.... I've seen you be stabbed and have dinner like it was nothing" and I was like ah there's that Bambi we know and love, wide eyed innocent surprise and demeanor, with that lovely ability to call out the ridiculousness in these scenarios 🤣🤣🤣 And lets not even talk about the the pleas and lying attempts he gave as soon as he woke up, all I could think of was Ruben telling him "dont get into an affair" from the last episode, omg I was in tears for that part 😂😂🤣 

There's a lot of heavy stuff in this show. So I just wanna give props to Richard and the writers for including some comedic relief in between all the drama.

Im 25!!! I’ve never felt more defeated than the past 2 months. My mental health is terrible but I’m here, and the sun is shining and I’m NOT a failure, I’m NOT a disappointment and I’m worthy and capable of love!!! I’m so sad all the time, but I won’t let those thoughts win, not today, cos that’s 25 whole laps around the sun without getting crushed by a falling anvil and that’s quite an accomplishment if I do say so myself!

lmao laughing through the tears ^(happy birthday to me)

I can relate to a lot of the struggles he’s brought up and even as a new fan, I’m so proud of his accomplishments! While watching a couple of his interviews on Seth Meyers and Mythical Kitchen specifically, I kept thinking this dude is pretty funny and young at heart. I was so sure he was in his mid to late thirties like Hozier only to find out he’s freaking TWENTY NINE YEARS OLD!! It all makes sense. He gives off the most intense zillenial vibes I’ve seen in a long time from an artist; ironic and self-deprecating humour while also caring so deeply about mental health and weirdly very open(this is a very notable feat for a man).

He has a really unique personality from the other pop/folk artists I know of and it’s honestly lovely to see, and yeah I know people call him this generation’s “stomp clap hey“ but fuck it after seeing little Zuza’s face while he sang to her and recognising that expression in my own face when listening his music, I don’t give a shit what people have to say. I hope he continues to make wonderful music, touching hearts and minds all over the world.

P.S I now kinda wanna visit Vermont, I’m not even from the USA lol

I just saw the trailer and the closest thing I can think of to this feeling was finding out about the live action remake of the Avatar series. Now I loooved Avatar as a kid, and like a lot of people I was also disappointed by the old live action movie. But I wasn’t really excited to see a live action remake show, in fact I just binged the original again because why mess with a good thing?

I don’t know how to explain it, I’m sure the new Avatar is great and the cast and crew did a fantastic job, just as I’m sure there’s a lot of work behind this new Harry Potter series to make it come out great, but we already have the books and the movies held up incredibly well, it just seems unnecessary. Like I wouldn’t touch Home Alone, it’s great as it is, and I can go back to it whenever, so when people say “it’s for kids today” I think, hmm unless there’s been such huge leaps in cgi that just HAVE to be shown, if the story still stands, I’m pretty sure the original work will resonate with new generations just the same.

And yes I get it, it’s for money at the end of the day, but apart from that, what do you guys think of remakes?

I get a lot of people relate to it from the perspective of the one wronged, but personally it’s the other way round. Im in a pretty terrible place mentally and have been ignoring or running away from so many of my problems for months because I know confronting the problem would mean actually seeking professional help. So I wait it out and hope that some things aren’t such a big deal for people and make sure people around me keep low expectations because well I’m a runner, I’m a track star lol. I hope I’m not the only one who feels like this but boy did this song hit me in the core. It’s the culmination of my worst fears; disappointing everyone I care about including myself to the point they all give up and leave. Anyway, happy Sunday folks.