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i’m 18, ive only had my license 6 months and i’m usually a confident driver
i don’t know what happened, it’s not a big scrape and honestly did more damage to my car. i’m so ashamed and sorry and i’m going to take initiative and sort everything out.
i exchanged details with the driver as he was walking back to his car when it happened, he wasn’t overly stressed but i was just so so sorry i can’t believe i did that.
i know it’s only small but i feel so guilty and im so so sorry. when i got home i told my dad between sobs, and he basically said that he hated me and he was really mad. it’s been over 24 hours and dad hasn’t spoken to me.
i’m going to pay for everything and sort it out with insurance. it was an accident i would never do that on purpose, it was a lapse in my judgment and im so sorry. the guilts been eating me all day and i don’t know what to do. i don’t have any other family, my mum died a few years ago and im a very lonely person. it’s just me and dad im so scared and sad and sorry and ashamed.
what do i do?

i wanted to start doing some now but i honestly have no idea where people get them from!? any links or directions would be great thankyou!

i know your not meant to compare the way you study, but my friends are able to memorise things word for word. they will sit with a whiteboard, or cue cards, memorising each definition to a T. over and over again. and i’ve tried that, but i just cannot do it. i’ve tried so many times and i feel so stupid and lazy but i cannot pay attention for long enough to memorise enough things. im neurodivergent so that might have to do with it but i dont want to blame it on that. i feel so lazy and stupid but i just cannot for the life of me focus on memorising shit.

does it matter? like, really? i feel so behind in the fact that i don’t have them memorised prior to exams. like i feel like my friends know it so well, they’re just refreshing when it comes to exam prep. but does it matter? like can i get away with not knowing the textbook definition for everything?? i feel so behind idk what to do. ive tried everything, im just not someone who can force themselves to sit for 8 dull hours and read and repeat the same thing again and again and again.

please give me some direction on what else i can do and if i should just start trying to memorise more 😞

i’ve got 50 and 70 so far in maths… just got 100 on one of my matrices tests?? hello?? who is she??

I HATE THIS GODDAMN CLASSSS

hi everyone! i recently turned 18, and im planning to start with some smaller, more hidden tattoos. i’m not someone who’s scared of “regretting” them, but i’d prefer to start small. i would love to see and hear about peoples first tattoos, what lead you to get it, if you still like it, etc!

i’m only talking roughly obviously. i’m expecting an atar in the 50s-60s, i originally was aiming for 70s but that’s not happening which is fine. are there any previous students who have been roughly around this average and what was your study scores/atar like?
my marks have been going upwards and im consistently in the high 70s- mid 80s, i predict to stay around here. not trying to be one of those annoying “what will i get” posts, just wanted to hear from past students!

literally just the title. can you take 20mg in one go? someone told me i’d give myself a heart attack… i haven’t noticed a higher heart rate compared to only 10mg but i have notice it actually helping me more in terms of adhd symptoms. but supposedly this isn’t common? if you take 20mg it’s usually the longer lasting slow release? i’m not sure just asking. (i’m on 10mg as a starting point, 2-4 times a day when needed only one tablet tho, a few times i’ve taken two just to see, and the difference is actually noticeable compared to when i’m only on 10mg)

i don’t want to leave a huge block of writing, so i’ll try to be quick. i am 18 years old. i grew up with older sisters, they left when i was 5 years old. my mother got sick when i was 8, died when i was 14, my father has always been angry and absent, i grew up bigger than other people, so ive faced constant judgement my whole life, and it made it hard to make friends. i dont really have good friends, one of them talks about me and how im attention seeking. ive never meant to seem like that, it started after i tried to talk about how i was feeling, i just needed someone to talk to. my other friend is my best friend, but she doesnt like me how i like her. she has other people, family, i dont. i sit at home alone, i watch shows, i decorate my room and pat my cat, alone. i talk to no one because i have no one. i go to school, i have trouble focusing even though i want to do well. i go to work, my manager hates me. i go to my psychologist, i can’t tell her how i feel i don’t know how to, so we spend an hour talking about how school is going.
i’ve been living on a numb straight line since before i can remember. i used to hurt myself but i don’t have the energy anymore. i used to smoke but i don’t care for it. i just sit and watch a show, then the shows done and i look for something else to watch.
i’ve tried to change my life, ive tried to start new hobbies make new friends change my perspective. i see people on the internet talking about how if your sad its your on fault for not changing things. ive tried, ive really fucking tried. i dont want to be here anymore. i’m so sorry if you’ve read this i feel so stupid i just need someone to talk to

the title is a bit of an exaggeration, but if anyone’s seen my previous posts, i spend most of my time complaining about how studying is impossible and makes me angry. and how i’ve not been doing as well as id like to be.
i had always been someone who believed adhd was a bit of an excuse and wasn’t really a real thing - i know that sounds silly.
a while ago it was recommended to me to be tested for adhd, and i just thought okay whatever ill do it.
ive waited three months for the appointment, and i had it a few days ago.
i was put on medication, something i was unsure about and didn’t really want to do. but being on it for a few days the difference is crazy. i’ve been able to clean my room without fighting myself, ive lost the guilt for not doing everything all at once and the constant chatter in my head has quietened. i’ve been able to actually sit for more than 30 seconds and do some work without being angry.
if you’ve been debating getting a diagnosis, for me personally it’s been life changing and i hope other people get the same results. it’s always okay to ask for help!

i, 18F, started ritalin immediate release (10mg) yesterday. i’ve noticed a lowered appetite and higher heartbeat, but i don’t think it’s helping with any of my adhd symptoms. i took it three times yesterday (8am, 12pm, 4pm). my focus levels seem to remain the same. i was told there would be less “chatter” in my thoughts, i haven’t noticed much less. but i also just can’t tell. like i can’t tell if it’s subtly helping and i just expected more. i also haven’t experienced a “crash”. but i feel like i haven’t felt different enough to experience a crash anyway. does that make sense? has anyone else had an experience like this starting ritalin? is it meant to be different? i’ve taken one again this morning, around four hours ago and i really didn’t feel any different and still don’t. any replies would be helpful 😊

the following question was 2 marks, my friend would like to know what you guys would score his answer (he is in a deep peril over this question):
the question was:

“suggest why temperature must remain constant in a controlled experiment measuring the rate of photosynthesis and cellular respiration” (2 marks)

his answer:
“Temperature must be kept constant as it affects the rates of both photosynthesis and cellular respiration. If temperature is not controlled, changes in the measured rate may be due to temperature rather than the independent variable being investigated, reducing the validity of the experiment”

thankyou for your time 🩷

just watched the good the bad and the ugly, this may have been the best piece of cinema i have ever seen. does anyone have any recommendations?? i feel like nothing will ever entertain me again after watching this movie 😭

edit: i apologise for not writing out the full movie name in the title, i didn’t know people would be so mad im sorry ☹️. i don’t know anything about westerns, ive never been on this sub before. most of you are very kind and im grateful for your recommendations.

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hey all!
my current favourite bands include candlemass, pentagram, witchfinder general, trouble, saint vitus, fvneral fvkk, scald, and a bunch others but that’s just a general idea. i would know most bands that are popular within doom listeners, so if anyone has any specific or lesser known recommendations, please let me know 😊

im not aiming for a 50, this isn’t one of those posts. as far as i know, you can’t drop a single mark in classes like gen maths. but say your getting low 90s all year and are rank one at ur school, and do perfect in the exam, in like chem or methods, is it possible to get a 50? or even classes that don’t scale up like business, if its the same thing your getting low 90s and are rank one and perfect exam, is 50 possible? and lastly, is 50 possible in those kind of subjects if your exam is still high and not perfect? thanks :)

am i using this app wrong? its confusing, limited, and pretty useless. like i might as well just put a timer on my phone but i keep seeing people recommending it, don’t understand hype at all. i feel like im not getting how to use it or something

not even studying - just doing left over work at home i am like filled with rage. i don’t even care like i want to get the work done but i am SEETHING with anger right now is it just me 😭