u/freespiriting

Wondering if this is an ADHD thing, becasue nobody else in my life experiences this

If I don't wake up naturally, despite possibly having 9+ hours of sleep, I feel exhausted ALL day

I slept so well last night and for around 10 hours, but because I woke up at 9am and my body likes to wake up at 11am, I feel absolutely shattered and like I could fall asleep at any moment

Im so tired of feeling tired all the time!

New to the plant parent game and feeling confused as to where to put my plants! When I research on google, all the information is very conflicting.

My house is kinda light challenged so I currently have all my plants on a north-east facing window sill, supplemented with a grow light

On this window sill I have
- Monstera deliciosa
- Pilea
- Pink princess philodendron
- Ficus elastica
- Spider plant

The pilea, PPP and spider I saved from neglect so they aren’t looking pretty, but are putting out new growth and getting by. The monstera and ficus are relatively new to me, so I haven’t seen much of a change yet.

I think I’m just gonna keep as is and see what happens, but I want my plants to thrive not just survive!

In your experience, which plants do best in which windows?

Got an interview for an acute inpatient Band 5 role. I will be new to the trust.

I have around 2 years experience in the speciality and a further 3 years in acute settings

A couple of years ago, I would’ve felt confident about getting the role but now, due to the current recruitment situation, I am not too sure….

What am I up against? I want to be realistic about the situation and not get my hopes up.

I hate always being an outsider

I hate always being on the fringe.

I’ve never managed to assimilate into any groups: not when I was at university, not at the work or with my husband’s friends.

I feel like I constantly self-monitor and I’m so hyper vigilant, constantly monitoring other people’s tone of voice and body language towards me.

I wish I was funny but I don’t really know how to be, I can’t let go enough and I never have anything to say.

I want so badly to find my tribe and find my place in the world, but I’m 29 and I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to.

It feels like this loneliness is everlasting. I just want to feel free and not shackled by my mind :(